Guys Help I Finished Revolutionary Girl Utena A While Ago And It's Back To Living In My Brain Every Day

I hope none of you disappear in the coming days. Seriously don't do anything that can't be undone.

it's finally time to go get your promotion. you've been sick and tired working this job, so it's about damn time for a change and a raise. who knows, maybe you might afford two cups of noodles next time.

you go to see your boss. his office is at an absurdly high altitude - most humans, you're concerned, would start having issues with shortness of breath at that height. you get in the elevator - a cramped space with no windows, not even any music to accompany you. you wonder how they haven't fixed these yet, given how modern the building is.

the elevator breaks down not quite halfway through, but close enough. concerned colleagues look at you walk solemnly out of the elevator, and even though they want to ask you what's wrong, they don't need to when they see you walk up the stairs. they know.

you pass by far too many floors on your way up. you don't recognize anyone who works there, as they don't recognize you, so they're wary of you, like someone invading their territory. you sneak a passing glance at them before you're forced to climb the next floor.

you notice something weird as you approach the top - there seems to be more and more vegetation. not quite like the plants you see standing on the windowsill on the floors below - no, this is more like a network of branches. interweaving, persistently growing on the walls. you can't imagine how anyone might find this comforting. but whatever, not something you need to care about anyway.

you finally reach the top, and the vegetation is everywhere. the walls, the ceiling, some on the floor. and it's growing erratically - almost like someone planted seeds without consideration for spacing, leaving them to fight each other for control. and they all seem to point to one place - a chair of some kind.

the chair's back is turned to you, but you can see him - the guy running the whole operation. and it's so painfully clear he isn't human that you wonder how you didn't realize it sooner.

he turns around, clicking his beak excitedly and spreading his wings.

"Well", - he says, looking you up and down, - "I'm pheasantly surprised."

me irl

get fake forget yourself

trans flag colorpicked from this art of utena and anthy

mumshroome

Hey update from Russia here. As much as I hate to replace my current pinned post I think Ill have to pin this one for the time being.

myIm not saying Im having it worse than people in Ukraine and I didnt want any conflict between Russians and Ukranians in the first place. But I am going to talk about my expiriences so recovering from covid and catching up on college been wearing me down even tho Ive been becoming a bit more lively. Then y

Today I couldnt buy my antidepressants bc pharmacies dont have them. I might have not been showing it much but its been a tough time for me concidering the current situation. I am still recovering from covid and catching up on college been wearing me down even tho Ive been becoming a bit more lively. Then my country invaded Ukraine. It was majorly stressful on its own aswell as me fearing I might get drafted to this horrible conflict.

Then the sanctions came aswell as a lot of people starting to see ALL Russians in a negative light. Ok I thought nothing I cant get through. Ill just use some escapism into my favourite games.

Steam stopped accepting payments. Warframe, my favourite game, one of my favourite things in life, stopped accepting payments. The last one really hit me. I felt like a piece of my soul died.

How is restricting access to games gonna stop Putin? Is this supposed to get players riled up so they go to protests? Do they realise how much risk it is to go to protests in Russia? It doesnt work and the only thing you get from going there is you get beaten up and jailed. You cant even state your opinion agianst the actions of the government currently on Russian social media without the risk of being arrested. Im walking on thin fucking ice right now btw by telling you that Im against the conflict.

That all aswell as being a closted queer person in Russia is really stressing me out. Aswell as p much erasure and demonisation of Russian culture as a whole worldwide.

My mental health is declining. I cant even get access to medication nor coping mechanisms to get better even tho I have some of each left. I have 3 days worth of meds. Aswell as supportive friends who are like the main thing that keeps me going. Im not gonna lie to you Im starting to have intrusive suicidal thoughts again. After all this time I was getting better and I thought I finally got rid of them.

After all this time recovering Im shoved into this and forced to confront the reality without a way to escape meanwhile when I tried arguing in the comments of the tweet by Warframe announicing that they stop accepting transactions from Russia (even though due to other companies who handle the transactions pullying out it was already impossible) that perhaps it wasnt the right decision and they are hurting their loyal players who had nothing to do with the decisoin by an athorotative regime and that it wouldnt make a dent in Putin's decision of invading Ukraine Im told to put things into perspective and that my siffering isnt as great as suffering of people being slaughtered by my country so I should stop complaining.

Im trying to hold on guys but its getting harder by the day. If this continues on I might not be able to handle college due to mental exhaustion and depression.

By all means support Ukraine but please dont do unnesecery damage to people of Russia. It wont help anyone.

<3

you will be game ended eventually

Balls

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