My Entire Home Page Is Death Note Yaoi...

the affirmations didn't work...

ugh i wish i was a good writer because i would be writing so many lawlight fanfics. and NO i'm not just not doing it because i'm a pussy!! i'm also a bad writer who can't portray dialogue!!

i can't tell if i was too smart or too dumb to get gr00med.

i WANT to believe it was the former, but... it was probably the latter tbh.

everybody go watch a minecraft movie in theaters, it's peak.

10/10 it needs to make 1 minecraftillion emeralds at the box office or there's never gonna be a sequel!!!!

(but for real it's like a 4/10. still peak fiction though.)

yawn... i'm so tired, silly people in my phone. i had a lot of trouble sleeping last night and then had a super busy "morning" (slept in until 11:15 am.) but now i'm free!!

what will i use this freedom for? not much, tbh. being silly online, playing minecraft, the usual. maybe even posting some silly thoughts here!

also sometimes i forget that all of the thoughts i put here are literally public and then i start tweaking out like "oh god what if i make friends on here and then they find out i'm a freak"

like i mean obviously i'm a freak by being on this side of tumblr but i'm still embarrassed by the level of it D:

Have you/would you rape someone? if so what’s is your biggest fantasy or what happened?

have i? no. the only "physical" crime i've committed is trespassing when i was 9. at least the only thing that could be considered a real crime, you know?

would i? depends, again. is it a random person that i just met? maybe. is it someone i actually know/trust? probably not! i wouldn't want to betray their trust in me and risk losing them forever for me taking that one step too far. unless they wouldn't remember it, of course.

but again, i'm still clinging to morality.

i don't know if i have any specific fantasies at the moment, but i suppose gr00ming has been particularly hot to me recently... and maybe stuff like date r4pe/somno. like either taking someone out on a date and slipping pills into their drink or just straight up breaking into their house. (i know how to pick locks! kinda.)

daily affirmations

I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT DEATH NOTE AND ALL OF ITS CHARACTERS

LIGHT AND L ARE BOTH CANONICALLY STRAIGHT ACCORDING TO THE AUTHOR

I AM NOT L AND I WILL NEVER BE L

my entire home page is death note yaoi...

i think i've won. this is victory, folks.

as much as i love the freaky shit, this is just as good.

13 :3

Dirty talk

Specifically really graphic, visceral dirty talk (explaining what you want/want to do to or with me in great detail)

Or just descriptions in general. I've been realizing that I actually enjoy erotic literature (when it's not... y'know, cringe) and I think slow, gradual descriptions of scenes is really one of my favorite things

Beyond that, tears, mental illness, glasses (not even sexual I just think they're cute), and like uhhh I guess even though I hate showing it, I do really like being doted on. Like a mother or something who just wants the best for me. (I never really got that much attention if you couldn't tell)

intro post

hello! i am cyanospectre (been here plenty of times under various names) and you can call me Corvus, Cyan, Spectre, whatever you want really. prns are he/they but i don't particularly care (AMAB!!!!)

i'm audhd and this has only led to me being even sillier (and like twice as freaky. i think the lack of knowledge regarding social norms and boundaries has really pushed my "comfort zone" so to speak.)

interests: Persona series (in the middle of p1, beaten p3, p5, started p4), Death Note (duh.), Ace Attorney (just beat aa5!!!), Hollow Knight, Terraria, Minecraft, post-hardcore (MCR, PTV, etc.), nu-metal (Korn, Evanescence, some Limp Bizkit, etc.), punk (Dead Kennedys especially), and so many more. i am so normal about everything i like (just ask)

i love making friends, even beyond the freaky stuff. if you wanna talk, let's talk! i'm just a little bit awkward :(

expect me to mix big huge complicated words like "indefatigable" while i also show how completely rotten my brain is. and also that one tweet that's like "sexting like dracula." that's basically me.

freaky shit below cut

POINT OF NO RETURN!!!!!!!

i was NOT joking i'm freaky as hell!!

first things first, i'm pansexual, but if you're older than me i'm only letting you dom me if you're afab. no offense, guys, i just don't want stuff in my butt. SOME exceptions may apply, test the waters first.

more than willing to sub for older afab people though!!! as long as you're good at it, ofc.

i don't send (in most cases, like maybe you're really coercive or hot or something) but i'm not sure why you'd want nudes from me anyway!

kinks (no particular order, i wanna ramble): oh boy where do i even begin... switch (primarily dom w/ wiggle room), age gap (especially older woman/afab), praise (giving/receiving), degradation (giving only, i'm fragile), bondage (both light and extreme, giving/receiving), bodily harm/torture, worship, knives, sh (iykyk), cnc (especially somno/intox but everything), fauxcest, and like so much more

the best part is that i'm willing to try everything at least once. either ask beforehand or try exposing me to it and see where it goes, just listen and i'll do the same.

i am still clinging to my shreds of decency and morality, please understand if i'm a little hesitant or awkward at first!

it's hard for me to keep a conversation going after it's started, at least at first, so please be patient <3

if you don't want to rely on tumblr's shit ass messenger, i have a few other platforms.

tumblr im- CAUTION!!! open at all times for any reason, but don't be too explicit and don't send anything risque!

tlgd/tlgm/disc- i don't really give them out unless you make yourself seem interesting (especially disc), sell yourself :)

i have some others but i don't use them much

i may get "templed" but you'll know it's me from this intro post, i'll continue using it or something like it :)))

ughhh crazy and obsessive people my beloved

tell me you're not going to let anyone else even talk to me, condition me to believe that it's okay and that you're all i need

follow me home to "make sure i get home alright" and then look through my windows just to "double check"

send me texts and voicemails about nothing in particular because you just want to talk to me

threaten to hurt me or yourself if you even start to suspect that i'm going to leave you

tell other people that they can't talk to me, spread rumors saying stuff about me so that i'm all yours

hurt them when you see that they're still trying

and if i finally start to realize what you're doing, maybe you just need to take more drastic measures :3