Reading About A Character Who Is Way Too Similar To You And Having An Outside Perspective On The Situation:

me logging back to my account to see “17” on my bio when now I’m almost 21

started this blog when i was 16 and i just turned 20

how is everybody else doing

i hate when people ask me what sign i am like bitch i’m a sign from god. start running.

i had already given up on doing astrophysics and then this shows up to me and basically i'm back into wanting to do this major, even if i don't like math. :) good luck to me i guess.

An accurate description of the life of a 1st year astrophysics major:

going to class and your professor talking fondly about the "wonderful feeling after the elevator cable snaps while you're in it"

said professor then proceeding to play a rock song

on most days only expect 2-5 students in class even though we have 13

where did the others go?? nobody knows, maybe they were abducted by aliens

speaking of aliens

your other professor pausing class to talk about what would happen if we met them

and getting mildly upset that an asteroid is no longer headed towards earth

cats

just so many physics department cats

and celebrating their birthdays

nobody in the department sleeps

don't be alarmed when your professor goes to the group chat at 3am to talk about whatever

hating elon musk

somehow other majors don't think astrophysics majors actually attend school until they meet you

there are days where we only talk about why star trek wasn't safe (they never wore seatbelts for a long time!!)

we like frogs

and rocks

rock go brrrr

sometimes finding your professor's face photoshopped onto satellites

working for hours but having 0 progress

your prof. assuring you that this is normal even for professionals

random scifi talks and book recs

cats

everyone in the dept likes greek letters

getting back to your dorm at almost midnight

the hall is eerily quiet but nobody is asleep

crying over the moon is normal

so is crying over the mars rovers

crying in general is normal

your professor saying odd things like

"this is just some weird image of two people about to die- but anyway, spacetime"

the astronomers of the school are also the astrologers

setting up in the lounge reading people's birth charts and astro cards

having to sneak through the back of the building because our id cards never work

sitting in the observatory with the lights off waiting for the professor to get there

planning to bring your hallmates to the planetarium to impress them

did i mention the cats?

meow

why do we have things that glow?

and this????

idk might make a pt. 2 or not

Fran: Do you ever feel like you’re wasting your life?

Niles: Only when I’m awake.

A professor gave us an extra credit option: take a picture of yourself outside, doing something that you would not usually do. We were told not to take it too seriously. Here is my entry:

I maintain that sticking my head in the mailbox is not something I do on a regular basis.

not finished yet but yeah

Man I just finished Babel and I was excited to read discussions online because there's so much going on in it with so many little things and just....angry white people. Everywhere. Truly a dead dove moment.

sometimes a relationship with your father is like “my father is a malignant presence, a bully, and a liar” and “I’m better than you” and “let me out. I don’t want to be you” and “I just do what my dad tells me” and “I can see through you” and “why did you never ask me?” and “he sees everything” and “you have a hard time finding a happy medium between worshipping him and wanting to kill him” and “he loves me. he does. it’s just a wrong kind of love expression” and “fuck dad, he can kick me as many times as he wants” and “pass me the fucking shotgun” and “dad, please. /what have you got in your fucking hand?/ i don’t know, love?/ love? you come for me with love?” and “there’s nothing you could say to me now that I would ever believe” and “are you a cunt?” and “he never even liked me” and “I can’t forgive you … but it’s okay. I love you” and “it’s what dad would do” and “you hated him./ I loved him” and “maybe the poison drips through” and “he was so terrifying to us” and “when he let you in, when the sun shone … it was warm in the light” and most importantly, “he made me breathe funny”

aight so romeo confessed his love for juliet after knowing her for like 2 hours?? dude i can't even text “hey” to people i've known my entire life?

type “i am” in the tags and whatever comes up first is your new mandatory kin

people really do relationships? like for real? outside of a book? sounds like fake news to me

i love cheating if you don’t cheat what the hell is wrong with you