Emptiness Is Pure, Starvation Is The Cure.

Terriyaki Eggplant Steak Plate-188 cals

This whole plate:188 cals!!

with 18 grams of protein (mainly from the cottage cheese) I swear I'm a whore for cottage cheese

The spring mix covered a lot of the egg plant steak but the 2 thick slices of egg plant were 38 cals

101 cals for the entire large 416g eggplant!(if you wanted)

Also the xanthan gum, soy sauce and tomato juice was used to make a "terriyaki" sauce for 17 cals--there was so much left over I used some as a dressing over the spring mix

I'll post a better picture with a recipe if yall want

PUMPKIN CHEESECAKE DESSERT RECIPE 102.5 CALS

1/2 box sugar free cheesecake pudding mix (50)

1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30)

61g pumpkin (22.5)

Make the pudding according to instructions on box 10 minutes ahead of time.

Put pumpkin in a mug, add 2 packets of stevia or sugar free sweetener, cinnamon or pumpkin pie spice to taste, and 0 calorie spray butter to taste. Microwave for 45 seconds. Take out and mix.

Let cool, add pudding on top of pumpkin. I’m a fatass so I had 2 servings of this but at 200 cals, I’m not feeling too awful about it lmaoooo. Berries or fat free cool whip on top is also nice, and you can eat it layered like that or mix it together! It’s all delicious and SUGAR FREE

so i don’t know how we didnt get caught

my first ever haul was maybe when I was twelve?? I dont know, but what I do know is i was broke and wanted free shit. my dad took a friend of mine and i to Walmart to get food and we asked if we could wander off. he said yes so we made a dash to the makeup.

we walked in that place with two empty backpacks and left THROUGH THE SAME DOOR, with two full of makeup and one full of alcohol. nobody noticed shit.

first we went and dumped stuff we liked from the shelves in a cart and shit, acting like idiots pretending to be rich because of all the stares we were getting. I even decided to be brave and ask a fucking worker “which color would look better on me” before deciding out loud to get them both.

We would have gotten more but people were getting hella sus and looking back on it I don’t know how anybody, specifically the three workers there, didn’t stop us. We literally turned a corner and began running, pushing our cart through every aisle desperately trying to find a blind spot.

Once we found one we sat there for a long time shoving things into our two backpacks for at least fifteen minutes. Every time we saw someone we would fucking look at all the kids toys. (keep in mind we both looked way older than we were) We got some more stares from both workers and customers but we continued as soon as they were gone.

Once everything was in the backpacks (which were made of red material that we later realized was slightly transparent) we bolted again, abandoning the empty cart with hundreds of dollars of makeup protruding from the top of the stuffed drawstring bags.

We freaked the fuck out, thinking that the barcodes would set off the towers at the exit (lol) so we ran into a bathroom and into a single stall where we sat ON THE FLOOR where anybody could see under the stall and took everything out of the boxes and shoving them back into the bags. once that was done we just left them there and bolted.

we left the store but we needed to go find my dad and his girlfriend so we left our bags under the fucking car and went back in to find them. we did and they weren’t even half way through shopping so we wandered around and i got the stupid idea to grab another backpack and go get some alcohol. we did pretty much the same thing again and ran out to hide the bag under the car. We went back in to ask my dad for the keys and we rushed to grab the things and hide in the car. We were in there for another hour looking through all of our stolen stuff looking at eachother like ‘daaammmmmn’

it was a miracle that we got away with that.

me walking around my room talking outloud to myself about my current obsessions and giving my imaginary audience an hours long speech about it

creative writing/journal

“soft like you” (for my sister)

i strived for nearly a decade to be your specific kind of fragile. sparrow shoulders, matchstick fingers. soft hands and quiet lungs. you never could appreciate what it was to be admired.

i had always been jealous of you. for your softness and your smallness. i wanted to make myself small too. i have always taken up too much space and been far too loud for my own good. i wish i’d realized how lost you were. when you stripped yourself of your skin and tried to make yourself something sharp, i should not have felt so much contempt. i have always felt too sharp. like people cut themselves on my edges. and you were all the things i wished i had been, so when you gave that up i thought you were ungrateful. it was selfish of me and i’m sorry. and i’m sorry i felt you didn’t deserve this illness i know we both have. you do not know that i know, but i do. how you wrote it all down in a tiny notebook like i did. and i know it was awful for my goal to be becoming smaller than you. i didn’t know you were suffering too because you were already beautiful.

“Jeff Wysaski, an artist based in Los Angeles, printed out some fake Halloween costumes and hung them up around a real costume store.”

DO NOT GIVE OR GET ANY VACCINATIONS FOR YOURSELF OR  YOUR KIDS………..

ren suffocates law while he sleepin because his face js so comfy to sit on

nnhhngnn comfy

My safe foods 🌺🍯

Feel free to add your safe foods! For me, it’s:

- lemon water 🍋💦

- coffee w/ cinnamon ☕️

- boiled eggs 🥚

- tomatoes 🍅

- Diet Coke ofc

- chicken w/ salad

- greens! (like cucumber, spinach, kale, lettuce etc) 🥒

- non fat yogurt

- tangerines 🍊

- strawberries 🍓 (they are so yummy and have negative calories!!!!!)

- green tea! 🍵

- salmon 🍣