When I Was Younger, Only 3 Or 4, If I Would Sit Alone In My House For Too Long, I Could Close My Eyes

when i was younger, only 3 or 4, if i would sit alone in my house for too long, i could close my eyes and listen to everyone. usually it was just my mom at home with me, but i could hear dozens of voices. eventually, i began seeing people out of the corner of my eye, or if i squinted in the kitchen. at some point, i was able to match names and faces to the voices, and i’d tell my mom about them. the very last time i ever heard them, a tall lady, a gorgeous woman, came to my door in the middle of the night and called me lola. then she turned around and left.

the house we were living in at the time had just been built maybe 5 years before by my grandfather, and no-one had ever gotten sick there, much less died there.

i think the one i miss most was a young boy and girl, who's names i’ve forgotten, who would joke around a lot and they knew my name best. it actually makes me really sad just remembering them because i feel so guilty forgetting.

anyways, that happened and my mom still can confirm that i talked about the people all the time.

i just had the weirdest moment, i was feeling my front teeth with my tongue because they’re the tiniest bit crooked, and then i had the thought “i’ll check if they’re also crooked in my other mouth” and then i realized to my shock and confusion that i have only one mouth, leading me to believe that in a past life i was a terrible monster with two mouths

hey mcyt/dsmp fans

could someone please find me an accurate, preferrably complete timeline of the dsmp? my friends are all obsessed and i cant seem to figure out what's going on. ever. i am SO lost :(

i can draw you something in return? (not sure if thats a very good payment but thats about all i can give)

thanks :)

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mcyt dsmp help lmao

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cowboylegz

4 years ago

hi! just a quick post i decided to make after a very eventful evening. i can’t talk for everyone, but there's something that people tend to do whenever i’m having a panic attack. i tend to shake my hands a lot, and tap them on any surface that will make noise. it is my way of keeping myself on the ground. most people come up to me, and immediately grab my hands. this does not help. in fact, i usually start kicking. shaking. yelling. anything that i can possibly do to make them let go. this makes whoever's there with me instantly go on the defense, which just elevates the situation. this has happened to me again, and again, and again. basically, stop restricting someone who’s already feeling compressed enough. you are not making anything easier.

thanks.

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panic attack kinda vent post tw? maybe maybe its just me

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cowboylegz

4 years ago

BOW DOWN TO BABYLORD !

FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES MINE IS LITERALLY

W A R M A C H I N E

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cowboylegz

4 years ago

no, thats a helix. an obelisk is a cream seafood soup!

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cowboylegz

4 years ago

Whenever I see your name in my notifs I get a boost of seratonin cuz cute art and your name reminds me of the space cowboy meme 👁〰️👁

awww :) ive never actually seen cowboy bebop but it’s on my list! my username was a mix between my favorite mitski album and my favorite part of myself, but thats super cool you made that connection!

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cowboylegz

4 years ago

little magknife mini comic, if you will :) it has been far too long since ive had the chance to draw these two!!!

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Magne magknife my phase where i liked drawing headless people came in handy here this was supposed to be for valentine's day... please accept it 2 and a half weeks late slice mha

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cowboylegz

4 years ago

hi!!! does anyone know where to buy good base bags for an ita bag? im looking into getting one but i dont know where to start?

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ita bag this is so complicated i just want a my hero bag please 😩

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cowboylegz

4 years ago