“We Are Who We Know Ourselves To Be, And We Are What We Love.”

So beautiful, I want this as tiles or a bandana

@iamamythologicalcreature mentioned seeing this snowbaz print I made in blue so here it is :) 🩵🤍💙

“They Get Married.” Chapter 4: The Invitations

it’s my birthday!

And in honor of my birthday, Chapter 4 of “They Get Married.” is now posted! It would be a wonderful birthday present if you gave it a read ;)

Summary: Dev and Niall make an appearance, Fiona tells Malcolm off, and Simon and Baz take a break from wedding planning to celebrate Simon’s birthday (featuring some erotic cooking).

Shoutout to @musicallychaos for being my beta!

READ CHAPTER 4 HERE!

“He still looks like something I want to eat.”

I think as someone with OCD I relate to Baz so much because in many ways vampirism is similar to OCD.

Having intrusive thoughts about hurting others despite it being very upsetting?

Being ashamed of having those thoughts because no one understands and will shun you?

Having compulsions (drinking blood) you hide from others that only temporarily quells those thoughts?

Hating yourself for these thoughts and thinking it makes you evil?

Isolating yourself from others so they don’t find out that you’re a monster?

Ultimately those thoughts do not making you a monster because you are not your thoughts, and it doesn’t mean you actually want to act on them?

Lesbian Agatha Wellbelove seems like such a cop out to me years later. And I say that as someone who wants more sapphic representation in books and who liked lesbian Agatha when the books came out.

Like in book one, she doesn’t not want a boyfriend, she wants a boyfriend who’s into her. And in book two she says she wishes she realized she wanted to kiss girls because that could explain why she’s so confused about everything and why she doesn’t fit in… (and because she perceives that that’s what happened for Simon with Baz) and then all that is just thrown out in Any Way the Wind Blows… just because?

I honestly think it was because larger fandom consensus was that Agatha was a lesbian.

But I don’t know. I just wish that in a book series that is so firmly saying “figuring out your sexuality does not fix your trauma or inner turmoil. your mental state cannot be fixed by a relationship, that’s your own work to do.” about Simon and Baz, that Rowell didn’t decide to undercut that by saying “except for Agatha it does. She’s felt out of place because she is a lesbian. And now she knows! So things will be better”

Does anyone else spend way too much time combing through the original books to ensure that every small detail fits into canon if I’m writing canon-compliant fics. Or am I just an autistic perfectionist and my love research papers has bled into my fanfic writing.

I would like a hot gay rival pls

Bro. Idk how it’s taken me this long to make a Tumblr but I finally did it!

Hi! I’m colddeadqueer (they/them) and I’m 22. I’m AuDHD, a non-binary lesbian, and I write fan fiction! Follow me on AO3!

I’ve been writing for a while just for myself, but I recently decided to get into posting fan fiction. Currently I’m working on a post-canon fic about Baz and Simon getting married because I’m the biggest hopeless romantic in the universe.

I’m still getting used to all the terminology & the way this online community works, but I’m excited to meet you all! :)

♥️🧡💛💚💙💜