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Coconut Oil

This is my first fic and I’m posting it for @eriknutinthispoosy since she been going through some things with her Tumblr and my post notifications for her haven’t been working but this is for you boo💛💜

Also for my helpful beta readers @almightyreads and @coilycai 💞

(I do not own this picture, found it on Google and loved it.)

*Slightly very smutty → turned into aftercare and then maybe just some poor writing towards the end, idk Im just really tired. Enjoy…*

“C’mon, babygirl, let’s get you into that tub.” Erik’s calm voice makes its way to y/n’s ears. Everything she heard and felt seemed hazy, distant. She was so worn out that she could almost fall asleep.

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Her body had been used for Erik’s twisted enjoyment. She had been through silk tying her to the bed, candle wax, ice cubes and a Magic Wand vibrator strapped to her thigh to bring her to climax after climax. And as she laid out on the smooth black silk sheets of their shared bed, Erik had been stroking his thick cock, enjoying the wrecked noises that came from y/n’s strained throat. Her moans and cries turning him on to a different level that usually came out when they had their sessions. Normal, slightly kinky, slightly vanilla sex was always great with y/n, but there was just something about breaking y/n to nothing but a disheveled mass of weak sounds and a shaking body that turned Erik into a horny ass beast.

Finally, after hearing her grunt her way through her fifth orgasam, Erik got up to turn the vibrator down to a low buzz. “You good, Princess? What color you at?” Eriks gruff, lust filled voice asked while he came down to lay on the bed next to her.

“Re-red, Daddy.” y/n was barely able to speak, eyes barely open. She felt Erik turn the vibrator completely off, unraveling the silk bind around her thigh then moving to remove her silk ties from her wrists and ankles, planting light kisses on her raw flesh.

“You did so good for me babygirl, so good.” Erik praised moving back up to stroke her jaw while y/n felt her body hum with warmth as she started to come down from all her built up highs. If she had to describe how she felt, she would say that she was floating outside her body and up towards heaven, but could still feel every single brush on her skin. She was on cloud nine and at rock bottom at the same time. She was broken, but in the most perfect way imaginable when it comes to being with Erik.

“Imma go start a nice bath for you and I’ll call Tessa over, aight?” Erik stated and all y/n could do was hum in agreement.

Tessa was a good friend of both y/n and Erik, but she knew Erik longer. They knew each other from their time in the black ops team before Erik went off and almost died in Wakanda then later met y/n after his recovery. One night Erik and y/n were eating dinner in their living room when she brought up possibly bringing someone else, specifical female, into the bedroom. “Oh what, I aint enough for you?” Erik asked acting like he was upset.

“No, nigga, you more than enough for me, but I just wanna know what it would be like to have both at the same time.” y/n had her share of female lovers in college, but always wondered how it would go if she indulged in her appreciation of the female body with Erik, which she explained to him. After this conversation, Erik messaged Tessa, who was all game, and planned with y/n on a day to follow through with the act. To say that the experience was just short of actual heaven would be a justifiable way to remember what happened that night, and ever since then, Tessa would be called upon when they needed, like tonight.

While y/n was dazedly soaking in the warm lavender scented epsom salt bath slowly sipping up the gatorade Erik had gotten her, Erik went to let in Tessa. As she walked into the bathroom, she was talking to Erik, asking what they had done tonight. Erik told her about all the occurrences of the night and how spaced out y/n had become. Tessa make her was to the edge of the bathtub and smoothed back y/n’s curls and she happily leaned into Tessa’s touch.

Tessa was a tall, dark skinned woman who reminded y/n of Erik in how confident and slightly dominant she acted in bed but Tessa always had better aftercare compared to Erik, hence her being called over. Erik could tell that he wouldn’t be able to just cuddle this high away.

“How about we get you cleaned up a bit, rub you down with some coconut oil and while you get some rest, me and E will whip you somethin’ nice, sweets?” Tessa said, followed by a kiss to y/n’s forehead and a look up at Erik, who looked at them both with stirn but soft eyes.

“That would be nice,T.” y/n replied with a meek smile. With help from both strong bodies, y/n made her way out the tub on sore legs and was towel dried and led to the bed. She had noticed that the sheets were changed to a deep purple silk and the room had been cleaned up from all toys and objects recently used to cause her current blissed out state. She noted that Erik must have done this after getting her into the tub.

She was laid on the bed, stomach to sheets with a pillow under her hips. Erik on her right, Tessa her left, as both started to massage the coconut oil into the buzzing nerves of her skin. “How you feelin babygirl?” Erik asked, making sure that his princess was comfortable.

“I’m feelin amazin, Daddy. Everythin feels so gooood.” y/n’s response made Erik and Tessa give soft chuckles at just how spaced out she really was. Usually y/n would keep her answers short, but now she was slurring her words slightly since she got her voice back. ‘She really must be out of it’ both caretakers thought.

Soon enough, y/n had fallen asleep during the massage, leading to Erik and Tessa to wrap her up in a warm blanket to snuggle up into while they go cook her favorite food. It was a Nigerian dish Erik had learned to cook while living in Houston for some time while T’Challa was relocating some of the outreach centers. That is were Erik had met y/n, at a traditional Nigerian restaurant, where she worked, and they had clicked immediately. She had taught him how to make it how she learned from her mother figure at the restaurant. It was a beef stew with a side of okra. Y/n went crazy whenever she had it and Erik knew she would love it.

After a few hours of cooking, Tessa woke y/n up while Erik plated up their food. “C’mon Sweets, we made your favorite.” Tessa said with a warm smile as she gently awoke the other woman from her peaceful slumber. With a groan of annoyance, y/n got out of bed and put on one of Erik’s sweaters and some underwear and walked with T to the dining area near the kitchen. “Thanks Daddy.” y/n said, hugging Erik from behind, resting her head between his shoulder blades as he poured them water.”No problem Princess. You know Daddy always here to please.” Erik said with a smile on his face.

As all three of them ate, y/n looked at both her caretakers and was grateful to have these two in her life. Erik was her rock, keeping her grounded to enjoy earthly pleasures, while Tessa was her helium, setting her free to explore a heavenly side of ecstasy. Having such strong and loving features in her life really allowed her to be her best self and experience what she hadn’t been able to do before.  She was truly living through nirvana.

A/N: I know this sucked ass, it’s whatever, I just needed to get the original idea out and then my mind just went with it and carried it off to crap land. Sorry to waste your time and brain cells, but yea, feedback is very much appreciated, I’m off to go to sleep.

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CAREER ASTEROIDS💰

THESE ASTEROIDS CAN POINT TO WHERE YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL OR TALENTED:

6583 Destinn

33154 Talent

389 Industria

829 Academia

19 Fortuna

258 Tyche (greek goddess of luck)

151 Abundantia

109 Felicitas (roman goddess of success)

407 Arachne (boastful talent)

9777 Enterprise

408 Fama (fame)

CAREER ASTEROIDS BASED ON DIFFERENT PROFESSIONS:

MUSIC 🎼🎤

1266 Tone (might say something about your tone)

27 Euterpe (muse of music & lyric poetry)

1815 Beethoven

1034 Mozartia

1009 Sirene

713 Luscinia

ACTING🎬🎭

3267 Glo (shine and glow, someone who stands out)

12238 Actor

23 Thalia (muse of comedy)

18 Melpomene (muse of tragedy, connected to playing tragic and serious roles)

627 Charis (charisma)

ART 🎨🖼️

600 Musa

23° Libra Fixed Star Spica (creative talents in art and design)

4457 Van Gogh

6676 Monet

4221 Picasso

3001 Michelangelo

4928 Vermeer

PSYCHOLOGY & HEALING ❤️‍🩹

7116 Mental

9795 Deprez

4451 Grieve

14827 Hypnos

1912 Anubis (knowledge of death/change/soul Journey)

16 Psyche

2 Pallas (wisdom & strategy)

3402 Wisdom

249521 Truth

1488 Aura

2696 Magion (magician)

5239 Reiki (reiki healing)

1221 Amor (couples theraphy)

MEDICAL FIELD👨🏾‍⚕️🩺

1027 Aesculapia (the name of the greek god of medicine)

10 Hygiea

5239 Reiki (reiki healing)

2878 Panacea (a solution or remedy for all difficulties or diseases)

18310 Osawa (George Osawha, pioneer of microbiotics)

1924 Horus (curing the incurable)

FINANCE 📊💰

19 Fortuna

151 Abundantia

13956 Banks

7782 Mony

4955 Gold

1918 Midas

22562 Wage

9249 Yen

21409 Forbes

ASTROLOGER🌌🔭

8958 Stargazer

24626 Astrowizard

1154 Astronomia

30 Urania (muse of astrology and astronomy)

6465 Zvezdotchet (russian for astrologer)

2433 Sootiyo (star boy)

2432 Soomana (star girl)

MODELING👢💄

600 Musa

47 Aglaja

695 Bella

5089 Nadherna (gorgeous beauty)

1388 Aphrodite

2101 Adonis

5011 Ptah

62 Erato

11727 Sweet

268 Adorea (if in on the ascendant will be adored for appearance)

COPY: 6583, 33154, 389, 829, 19, 258, 151, 109, 407, 33154, 9777, 408, 1266, 27, 1815, 1034, 1009, 3267, 23, 18, 600, 4457, 6676, 4221, 3001, 4928, 7116, 9795, 4451, 14827, 1912, 16, 2, 3402, 249521, 11911, 1488, 2696, 5239,1221, 1027, 10, 5239, 2878, 18310, 1924, 19, 151, 13956, 7782, 4955, 1918, 22562, 21409, 8958, 24626, 1154, 30, 6465, 2433, 2432, 600, 47, 695, 5089, 1388, 2101, 5011, 62, 11727, 1, 268, 713

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if you don't know how to figure out the asteroids in your chart - you can look up the method through this post - or look it up easily through web - let me know if any help is needed

there are a few asteroids mentioned that are explicit and more so given an 18 + analysis to - emoji "🔞" will indicate them ∞

⛓ Asteroid Cupido (763) in a chart can show you which kind of people you feel attracted to,and more so feel infatuated with. It can show you an exact replica of your ideal in a way. The aspects, sign and the house it's in,will be something you associate your romanticism with strongly. Asteroid Knight (29391) represents similar concepts as well.

An example would be one having Cupido in their 8th house conjucting with Mars solely - this'll make this individual feel infatuated by athletic,lean, impulsive and very mysterious people - that don't give in easily and have their secrets hidden.

⛓ Asteroid Lucifer (1930) in a chart can show two things in general. It can show your hidden guilty pleasures and secondly, especially in a women's chart - it may show the characteristics of a man that she fears alot.

⛓ 🔞 If you're a women,then your asteroid klet(2199) persona chart can give you an idea about how your 😺 really is like - look at the aspects your first house recieves in your asteroid klet persona chart to have an idea of it.

🔞 An example would be - if the first house is recieving any kind of aspects (mostly stronger like opposition, conjunction or square and trine) from Saturn - then one may have a very tight 😺- and if it's aspected by Venus,then it may be very soft or tender - if aspected by Jupiter,it may be very open in a way etc.

⛓ Asteroid Frigga (77) in the synastry chart will give you the idea of the aura people can feel in your relationship with the respective person. Especially the sign it's in.

For example - if the asteroid frigga is placed in the 5th house in Scorpio - people will feel a loving yet very intense aura from your relationship overall. One that's mysterious but well known as "loving" too - they could also perceive it as the aura colors blue or deep purple. And if it's Virgo,then one may feel as though your relationship is very grounding and stable from the looks it gives.

⛓ Asteroid Chariklo (10199) can give you an idea whether you'll be able to go through a huge spirituality journey in this lifetime or not. Being placed in your stellium house/sign - or aspected by Sun can make this possiblity occur.

⛓ Asteroid Glo (3267) in your chart can show how your physical transformation (a glow up) can happen in your life if it does. Glow ups doesn't necessarily occur in one's life,so if this asteroid is recieving harsher aspects from Uranus or Saturn,then it may lessen the probability of a glow up naturally -

For example, having this asteroid in your 4th house or aspected by moon can show that your mother or a motherly figure/mentor can help you go through your physical glow up in your life.

⛓ 🔞 Asteroid Aphrodite (1388) in your chart,if aspected by Mars,Pluto or Uranus - and in signs like Scorpio or in the 8th/12th house - this can show people become obsessed, specifically with your sexual attraction and may be prone to becoming stalkers.

⛓ Asteroid Karma (3811) in your chart can show tricky situations in life,and the house it's placed in can show which spectrum of life will you be facing the most painful situations/memories in this life.

For example, having this asteroid in one's 7th House can show a turbulent married life due to certain past memories. Or if in the 9th house or aspected by Jupiter (square or trine especially),it may cause issues in your educational life.

⛓ Check Asteroid Leal (19426) in your groom/briede Persona chart - and you'll have an exact idea of the loyalty of your spouse. If strongly aspected by Saturn,Moon, Jupiter or Sun - they may be very, very loyal to you. But if strongly aspected by Venus or Mercury - such signs suggest that either your spouse may be disloyal or you may be insecure in the relationship,and may have doubts about their loyalty at times.

⛓ 🔞 Asteroid Lust (4386) in your chart can talk about your sexual kinks and preferences. It can show you where in your life,may you feel the most sexual attraction with a certain someone. Even sometimes,of the place you meet the certain someone who'll you feel the most "lustfully attracted" to in your life at times.

🔞 For example, having this asteroid in your 1st house can indicate that certain someone to walk up to you themselves for the first time. If in the 10th house or near MC,it can indicate someone from your work place. If in the 7th,it can indicate through legal/court matters etc. And the sign it's in can indicate your kinks (unless aspects suggest otherwise) for eg. having this asteroid in aquarius can suggest having unusual sexual kinks - something very personal to you. If in Scorpio,it can indicate bdsm etc.

⛓ Asteroid Echo(60) can show one's self confidence and self assurance. If badly aspected,such individual may be very shaky throughout their life and remain insecure with their personality or way of life.

⛓ Asteroid Lalage (822) means chattering and babbling - check it's placement in your natal chart,if prominently placed in the chart or aspected by Mercury/in a Mercury ruled sign,then it can be a huge indicator that people may at times find you annoying by your ability of speaking alot but may not express it (unless aspected differently)

⛓ Asteroid Pallas (2) can widely show your talents in this lifetime and where you're naturally gifted as.

For example, have this asteroid in Taurus,can show one being creative in their abilities. If in Leo,then one may have a hidden "bold" talent - such as dancing, acting or a passion etc.

⛓ 🔞If Asteroid Circe (34) is prominent in your chart, especially aspecting your ascendent strongly - then people can find your sexual parts very attractive and addictive in a way. Some may turn obsessive for them - it's more so an indication of dark sexual beauty and attraction.

⛓ If Asteroid Abell (3449) is badly afflicted in one's chart by malefics,then one may be prone to not taking care of their oral hygiene and may have a dis-pleasant breath since Abell stands for breath/vapor. If aspected positively,then vice versa.

For example - I've personally seen it in one of my friend's chart that has this asteroid in her first house in Taurus square Venus - and she's known to always be fanatic about her oral hygiene and always smelling like peppermint and sweet.

⛓ Having Asteroid Gold (4955) and Golden (4423) aspected by Sun or Jupiter can show one having alot of gold jewelry or assets in this lifetime. Which house it's in,can show how and where you may inherit it from.

For example having it aspected by Sun in your 7th,may show one may get alot of gold assets through spouse. If in the 8th,then through in laws. If 10th or 1st,then through themselves etc. But it needs to be aspected strongly by benefic planets.

⛓ Wanna know if you'll be rich in this life time? Check money asteroids in your chart and their placement and aspects; if several of them are positively aspected (in 2H,11H,1H or aspected by Sun/Jupiter etc.) - then it can indicate being very rich in this lifetime - (19) Fortuna,(151) Abundantia,(258) Tyche,(13956) Banks,(7782) Mony,(163693) Atira- etc.

⛓ TW! Check Asteroid Nessus (7066) in your chart - this talks about an abusive person in a chart - if it's prominently aspected by your big 3,there's a huge chance of being abused or especially, becoming an abusive person - and it doesn't need to be physical abuse,but it can also mean abusing power, money,assets,relations,trust etc. Check it out in a synastry chart of a couple who may have an abusive/toxic person or theme to it,and this asteroid will show it's prominence there.

⛓ 🔞 Check Asteroid Bacchus (2063) in your chart or especially in the person (you may be interested in)'s chart, because this shows hunger in a way. Sexual hunger as well - being conjunct with NN or Lilith or Sun,may show one who may become extremely sexually needy in a relationship at times. Also in terms of food,some such aspects may show people who can becoming extremely hungry time to time. Controlling their urge can be difficult. You can check it in your Groom/Briede Persona chart to know if your spouse may be sexually needy/obsessive or not. Such people can have the tendency to ignore the other's needs at times.

⛓ Your Rising Sign in your Fama Chart,can show how people that admire you in life think of you as a person.

For eg. Having a Leo rising may show that they love the way you're different than the others. If it's Sagittarius Rising,then they may admire your way of thinking or teaching in a way. If it's Taurus Rising,then they may admire your style etc. (Ofcourse planets aspecting the ascendent can change the interepretations up a bit)

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Mars in Cancer - Mars' Debilitation Point and Difficulties with expressing Anger and Self-Assertion

These are the results of my recent work on a lifetime of stored up anger, that I'm trying to heal from and embrace. That is a difficult process when you have natal Mars in Cancer. If you have this placement, even though these are my personal conclusions, you will relate to all the emotions described here, and there is a big chance you had a similar family dynamic.

Friendly reminder, that I use Vedic Astrology and the Sidereal house system, but my Mars is in Cancer in both Tropical and Sidereal anyway, so even if you use Tropical Astrology, it should be relatable for you.

If you use the Vedic Nakshatra system, check your Mars in D9, remembering that D1 and D9 energies compliment each other. My Mars is in Cancer literally everywhere, every possible chart arrangement, D9 as well. The difference is, in D1 it's in Punarvasu in the 10th house, but in D9 it goes into Ashlesha in the 4th house, which makes it struggle, since Ashlesha is the exact debilitation point of Mars, and the 4th house is a very uncomfortable place for this planet. If your Mars in D9 is for example in Scorpio, you will struggle less even if D1 Mars is debilitated. Yes, I like to analyse Nakshatras in D9, even if it's an unpopular opinion.

Since my Cancer Mars is also conjunct Moon, it puts it especially into focus in my chart, the Moon being the main placement of emotional processing and a key chart factor in Vedic Astrology, but this conjunction also gives me a little more easiness handling the Cancer Mars, since the domicile Moon placement eases up the debilitation. This placement for me is also Vargottama, and carries through all possible house systems, so I am THE poster child for this planetary position. I hope my other fellow Cancer Mars people benefit from my experience, and the fact that my Moon conjunction makes it easier to work through it. Hopefully, I can give you that edge through sharing my conclusions, so you can heal even if Mars is really struggling in your chart.

A side note regarding gender roles, which come into focus here due to Cancer being such a feminine, protective sign.

If you are a woman with this placement, my heart goes out to you, because you struggle extra. The same way this society is cruel towards men expressing their sensitivity, which I find to be very wrong and I actively work against, nurturing the vulnerability of every man I come into contact with, the same way women's anger gets socially demonised. What is an angry woman called? An angry bitch, a psychotic freak on PMS. An outcast. A beast, unattractive, "unladylike". She may be good for a one night stand, because she will be a freak in the bedroom and some people may have a fantasy to "tame her", but she is not considered a good, long term investment. Women's anger has become uncomfortable, which puts us women on a shame spiral, the moment we feel like expressing it during a fight. We live with the stigma of shame simply for experiencing the feeling of anger. Then, we live with the fear of people creating stories about how insane we were, how irrational, simply for asserting ourselves, expressing our power and not letting someone step over us.

Women know this. Women are raised and conditioned to be aware of this fact in the back of their minds, and whenever the moment comes to healthily express their anger, they fold internally, feeling the pressure of complete social exclusion crushing them. If you have this placement, this can be a big struggle for you, but you also have a unique opportunity to step into your feminine power, which is not about intimidating or undervaluing anyone in general, or men in particular. It's about not letting yourself be mistreated by anyone, and letting go of the belief that mistreatment is normal. It's about an unconditional, fierce validation of your emotional experience.

As a woman with this placement, Mars represents men in your life. As a man, you will embody this energy more directly. This can go two ways, most often you get both energies mixed at the same time as an expression of human complexity. The first archetype is a man, who expresses the difficulties presented in all the points you will find below, so someone avoidant, struggling to protect and provide due to his fears, or avoiding all confrontation himself. The second archetype is a more evolved energy, which is a man fuelled and directed by protecting, nourishment, caretaking and building with, and for his partner. This masculine energy will not run, but take initiative to actively take care of any conflict, that might present itself. This is someone very much in touch with both the emotional and practical side of reality, defending and protecting a healthy family dynamic and an emotional well-being of women in his life, instead of neglecting it. This is masculine energy that faces all actions and reactions appropriately, depending on the situation.

Of course, if you are a man with Mars in Cancer, and you struggle with embodying the healthier, evolved version of the energy, this post is not meant to criticise you. Same for women with this placement, who experience struggles with men. The point is to understand the psychological dynamic, that originates always in a childhood home, that shaped a specific expression of masculine energy. If a man runs from confrontations or struggles asserting himself or caring for his partner, he has trauma that makes him do so. The point here is to understand the Mars in Cancer energy and heal it, regardless of the gender experiencing it. Of course, as a woman, you are not obligated to accept abusive men in your life, but understanding this placement should bring you peace nevertheless.

Struggles that come with having a Cancer Mars:

1. Processing anger in the heat of the moment during a confrontation.

Mars in Cancer being in the 4th in D9 is the reason, why I'm now processing my anger in solitude, concerning events that date from months, days, even years ago, because when I was in the heat of the moment, I used to have a tendency to simply freeze, feel paralysed and not know how to proceed when someone makes me angry. Or I would default towards my intellect over my anger, which made it easier and more comfortable for me. What is worse, in public, I put on a social façade because adulting required that out of me, and then my anger got stored up in my body, giving me physical pain.

I know this may feel very difficult, but you have to bring all your energy, attention and presence back into the situation during a moment of conflict. Every time, that you let your authentic emotion of anger course through you and flow out through you, you will feel a weight off. It takes practice, but it's doable. You can't turn back the clock, but sit with yourself and give yourself time to explore and heal all the residual anger you have built up from past encounters.

2. Feeling like your anger is shameful, invalidated or unacceptable.

Feeling like you have to hide your anger because it won't be heard or accepted is one of the biggest painful aspects of reality with this placement. Healing comes from realising, that you should express your anger even if it displeases someone, if you know that your reasons for it are fair. Sadly, many people don't want to take responsibility for their bad behaviour, but you need to accept and validate your own anger, internally, nevertheless.

3. Struggling to express anger in a just, efficient, measured way, proportionate to the scale of the conflict, because of Moon's overflowing emotions.

One of the main difficulties with this placement is the overwhelming, fluctuating energy of the Moon mixing with the fiery nature of Mars. If you have years of stored up anger, this can lead to disproportionate reactions during heated moments in your relationships. You may find yourself attacking someone for something that hurt you in the past. For example, you may yell at your new partner due to the anger you accumulated in your previous relationship. Make sure to analyse and explore your residual, stored up anger, so that you understand yourself and your trigger points. Then, if someone's behaviour is triggering for you, express how you feel honestly and tell them why. If they're still being rude or unresponsive, express your anger for that too and leave, but at least now you will know you did your best. If you act unfairly towards someone, realise why and apologise, and that will make it easier in the future. This process can be extremely hard to measure accurately, however, which brings me right to my next point.

4. Blurring the lines between healthy anger and self assertion and toxicity.

I will say that very loudly for all my fellow Cancer Mars people in the back. I struggled with that statement myself until literally 10 min before I'm writing this. I probably need to say it to myself some more. Anger and self assertion, if handled well, are HEALTHY and NORMAL human emotions. They don't have to be toxic or harmful. However, excessive self control and stuffing down your anger is ALWAYS toxic and harmful. The fear of anger can be overpowering, but you need to look at the consequences, long term. If you build up years of internalised anger, that can literally lead to physical diseases. You may think you are safe and escaping from something toxic if you stuff down your anger, but you are actually doing long lasting damage to yourself, as well as building your relationships on dishonesty.

You need to build a healthy realisation of your individual healthy expression of anger. You need to change your automatic association of anger with being a toxic person. Anger was given to us as a self-defence mechanism. It can be used in a toxic way, but it doesn't have to. If your association with anger is automatically extremely negative, this is trauma from your upbringing, that you need to heal.

5. Feeling like asserting yourself, even calmly, will lead to conflict.

Yet again, that fear of anger. That happens, when in your family home every attempt at self-assertion ended up with your parents bulldozing your emotions or getting angry with you for being assertive and self expressive. Realise, that a healthy person will respect your boundaries. If someone is angry with you for putting up a healthy boundary and seeks conflict for that, you don't need them in your life.

6. Running from other people's anger and expression of self assertion, even if it's justified.

A very strong sign of trauma coming from a family home. If you felt, like someone in the family was constantly, unnecessarily aggressive towards you, even healthy self-assertion may be a trigger for you. That might lead you to run away, even if you simply owe someone an apology for something small and you need to fix a minor problem, due to that subconscious fear of someone's excessive anger being unleashed on you. You have to realise, that you are after all a human being, and you will mess up and make people rightfully angry from time to time. People having healthy boundaries and signalling it to you are not a personal attack on your freedom and well being. Again, work with childhood conditioning to see what particular patterns made you afraid to that extent.

7. Running from any perspective of conflict in general, even if it's necessary to clear the air, deal with the problem and move on.

The very unpleasant side effect of this attitude is that if you keep running away from confrontations and solutions, you end up straying from your path. Mars also rules our direction and on the spot decision making. If you chose to run instead of dealing with an issue, you will end up making poor decisions that can have long lasting, harmful consequences in your life, and as a result you will have difficulties focusing on other affairs, because there is a big part of your mind that is still busy running away from the anger and the accompanied problem it subconsciously wants to process. Running from your anger or conflict or repressing these difficult emotions literally paralyses your entire life path, since Mars is responsible for charging forward. Running from your anger will keep you stuck and make you attract new situations, that cause more of your anger, because you subconsciously want to encounter them so that you can heal. Running and hiding doesn't make anything disappear. Deal with the problem, even if it's hard, and the sooner you do it, the better.

8. As a result of all the above, feeling like you need to be protected from anger, liking people who can express that anger for you, or are protective in an angry way, because being under their umbrella takes away the problem of you having to deal with your anger yourself.

I know this may be a hard pill to swallow if you have this placement, but deal with it. The sooner you do it, the better. Of course, feeling the need to be protected and taken care of in a particular way is natural to experience, especially if you are a woman due to the nature of our physical bodies, but living in an illusion, that someone will come around to be your prince charming and take away all the conflict from your life by getting angry at the world for you, while you live your life as an untouchable fairy princess is not something that is going to happen for you, and ultimately is not something that is good for your psychological and spiritual growth. In reality, this is yet another avoidance strategy on your part, which means it doesn't solve the problem. It's ok to crave the positive expression of Mars in Cancer energy in your life, that I described above. It is not ok to completely disown your feeling of anger, hoping it will vanish by itself. What you resist, persists.

9. Your difficult relationship with anger, just like your entire psychology, always comes from patterns in the family home.

Every debilitated placement you have is an expression of a toxic dynamic in your upbringing. Mars in Cancer is no different. Look at how your parents dealt with conflict, how your family reacted to your stance of self assertion and expression of anger. I will give you a brief example from my own family, so that you can observe it more directly.

I dealt with a bad relationship with anger from both sides of my family. My father was using his own anger and self-assertion in a toxic way to bully me and diminish my feelings. That made me view all expressions of anger as toxic, because a primary male figure in my life has used his anger towards me in a toxic way. At the same time, I would be extra bullied for my own anger. My mother, on the other hand, cried and blamed me every time I tried to defend myself for justifiable reasons. That made me feel guilty for expressing my own anger in the right moments as well. As a result, I spent most of my life repressing my anger due to a mix of an intense feeling of guilt, fear and shame associated with the emotions. I would often just wait out the conflict and pray for it to pass because of how unsafe I felt, and then I would feel resentful towards the person who wronged me later anyway. While the other parties had no right towards certain bad behaviours in the first place, hiding my anger was my own doing. Realising the toxic family dynamic and the resulting intense, crippling fear behind my avoidant behaviour helped me start healing my internal relationship with anger, and understand how to use it when justified, knowing that if I worked on it, I wouldn't have to repeat my parents' mistakes.

That is a very important realisation with this placement. If you have a dysfunctional relationship with anger due to Mars in Cancer, you are recreating your parents mistakes, or trying to avoid recreating them.

I hope my writing will help you find peace on your journey. If you are in need of individual guidance, I offer personal astrology, tarot and spiritual healing sessions.

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🤍✨🌳 Mrigasira 🌳✨🤍

Lucky color: Silver/gray

Hindu deity: Soma, the moon god

Symbol: Deer’s head

Ruling planet: Mars

Nature: Deva (divine, god-like)

Quality: Mridu (gentle)

Yoni animal: Female serpent

🌬 Soft, heavenly, seductive, allusive, curious, daring, pleasure seeking, quick witted, sensitive . . . 🍃

Sun darakaraka?

Sun darakaraka would give partner quintessential Leo traits. They are a good leader, royal being and someone who is loyal. They could be confident, fun loving and charming. They are amiable and social and a very party person. They have the centre stage presence. Could be a performer. Have artistic tendencies. Maybe plays an instrument or any music connection. Or just very fond of music. Maybe likes loud music. They could be too proud, arrogant, egotistical and a narc, if sun isn't placed good. Jupiter and Mars are friends of Sun so if they form association, they will help the dk. They could have a prominent leo in their chart or a prominent sun in their chart. Or their Atmakaraka could be sun. Sun is also associated with politics in vedic, so maybe has an political connection. They could be very controlling and authoritative even. Have high self worth, doesn't like if their integrity is questioned. Could be expressive, and dramatic. Dependable even. The sign it's in could help determine their nature more. If sun is good, fun relationship dynamic. If not the controlling and narc tendencies can cause conflicts.☀️❤️