ana = bruising like a peach now apparently
today was christmas day at my school and i binged so much food, i kept g@gging after but my friends were there so i couldnt excuse myself without seeming rude. as someone with emetophia and @na, i hate being sick unless i have to
overheard my family shit talking me im sorry im not happy and nice when this is the first year anniversary week of my su!cide attempt and i havent eaten anything today? i know they dont know but im so tired i cant cope
Hating your bone structure is torture there’s nothing you can do to change your bones.
day nine
yes, i always got small comments about my weight from friends and family plus im asian and the weight standards are very harsh. ive never been overweight, but not eating gives me control and im so sick of being average in everything
day twelve
i normally eat a smaller portion of whatever my mum cooks, so alot of asian food and rice. i also eat frozen grapes alot and i drink an ungodly amount of green juices and coke zero
i am not surviving christmas season tell me why i had 900 cal0ries today. fasting when all my family leave but thats not till after new years
i feel so stupid talking about my issues compared to my friends. like, i cant eat food without having a breakdown and my mind wanders whenever i see something sharp, but every time i try and talk about it i sound idiotic
i have been gaining and losing the same MOTHERFUCKING kilogram for a month this is not okay
rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious
day nineteen
two weeks ago, when my friend and i went out she wanted to eat at nandos but its fine i only had the fries that day