24/09/18 - 13 Days Of Productivity // Day 1 Of 7 In My Life

13/01/19 - Flying to Berlin

So this trip is an important one for me as someone with major anxiety when travelling. When I got on this plane I was 17 years and 364 days old, it was my first time without family or school and I had only my best friend to keep me company. I planned this and paid for it all myself.

Today it is the 14th January and I am 18 years old today. We have today to explore the city and do whatever we want. I’m going to make this fantastic.

Yes I am anxious, especially about trains because they scared me yesterday. But I know if we stay in well-populated areas and exercise common sense we will be just fine.

Happy 2020 :)

My resolution: to get this account more active next year! In all seriousness, 2019 was a complete upheaval of everything I knew and wanted, full of salutations and goodbyes in equal measure. It brought me new friends and experiences but also new anxieties. I’m still working on feeling comfortable in this world and I have a long way to go but I’ve come so far. I am proud of myself - and I wish it didn’t sound so arrogant to be able to say so. So what if my A levels weren’t quite what I was gunning for? So what if the university I am attending isn’t the one that filled my childhood dreams? So what if the course I am pursuing isn’t the one I maybe should have chosen based on my personal talents? I’m happy and learning so much every day. I can’t wait for 2020 and I hope it brings you all good things as my super supportive followers.

Can we talk about how hard it is physically and mentally to take exams with IBS that won’t quit. Would not wish it on my worst enemy - I am exhausted and all I could think about for my six hour stay in solitary confinement was how much my stomach hurt

Work experience!

So a bit of background: a charity called The Talent Tap approached my school last academic year for the first time ever and said they were looking to fund 2 weeks worth of work experience in London (and around it, in my case) for disadvantaged state school kids, would anyone like to apply?

I decided to put my name forward for interview, got in, and now you’re all caught up!

What a ride these 2 weeks have been. I spent week 1 at a biotech lab in Cambridge, where I actually got to do loads of lab work as well as meet people from all around the company.

Back in London for the weekend, there was a public speaking workshop on Saturday. I hate public speaking but I decided to put my all into it despite that. (And put my all in I did - my punishment for ultimately winning “best speech of the day” was to speak at the final drinks celebration on Thursday 18th July 2019.)

Week 2 was at a property investment management firm in London. We did a marketing project there... and while I quickly learned marketing really isn’t my thing, we did have a ton of guest speakers in - including a patent attorney or two, who piqued my interest.

My speech at the final celebration went amazingly (tip: wine helps) and I was congratulated by many of the businesspeople there. I was scared, but I tried my best to be brave. I was actually the only first year on the programme to win an award for being one of the best ambassadors for the scheme.

I am now working to secure placements for next year - one being with an IP law firm. Bring it on!

Not long until A Levels are behind me...

which is a good thing because I - funnily enough - hate La Haine

14/01/19 - Exploring Berlin

What an awesome way to turn 18! Although I could have gone to more museums and just generally done more, the stuff I did do was fantastic and I’m sharing with you a really important point of interest. Yeah we did the Reichstag and the Brandenburger Tor and the East Side Gallery - and the Deutsches Spionagemuseum (which was amazing!), but I think one of the most profound landmarks we visited was the Denkmal für die ermordeten Juden Europas.

I wanted to take time to see the memorial for the murdered Jewish people of the Holocaust and really just wander and ponder. It’s such an eerily tranquil place - a black hole in the middle of a bustling city. It’s disorienting and yet peaceful. Claustrophobic and rigid but very organic and human too, somehow.

I vow to make my adulthood one that will ensure that such immense suffering never happens again.

It’s a low-key kind of day

How did you self taught yourself mathematics?

I asked my school if they’d give me the textbooks, and then I went away and pored over the material, doing all the practice questions I could find. I used videos and tutorials to help me and wrote down lots of examples in my notes :)

These diagrams make me happy

{ 11-1-17 } 60/100 days of productivity

transcription & translation stuffz 🛁

17/11/18 - 69 days of productivity

Thank you for >1000 followers! Ahhhh!

Hi all! So middle insomnia kicked in again and I woke up very promptly at 4am and couldn’t get back to sleep :(

As such it was very difficult to concentrate BUT my newest book (Frauen in der DDR - Anna Kaminsky) is very interesting and I’ve arranged to visit the library with @natrevisin next Saturday to crack on with my IRP.

I introduced a friend to Duolingo and she was so happy she could start learning German again! My XP then went from 5000 to 13,220, so that should tell you what I’ve been up to all day haha

Anyway, pictured above are my chemistry notes for the topic we have got round to studying. I actually made these months ago, but they are relevant right now.

Happy weekend!