Yo Wussup Homeslice. I Have THOUGHTS

Shit dude at this point atsushis gonna be the only option for the transfer

I need atsushi's clothes pls.🙏🙏🙏

Where can i find something like that

Everyone is more or less wearing oversized clothes and then there's Fyolai, showing off their slutty waists

I need a fic or c.ai bot like that

I think the main part of my Chuuya overworks himself and is a chronic people pleaser headcanon comes from the fact actual Nakahara Chuuya's poem 'The Village Clock' is imprinted on my brain.

'The big village clock was working day and night. The clockface's paint had already lost it's shine. When I drew near, there were lots of tiny cracks.'

Not the full poem, but the lines that really stick for me. This is just Chuuya to me. Keeping going, keeping working, not smiling as much as he used to. Keeping up appearances. Keeping even his friends at a distance so they don't see he's not as happy as he used to be.

I agree in the latest chapters Chuuya looks tired as hell, but his eyes have always read as tired to me. He's always looked like he needed a nap (It took a moment to find a mostly neutral expression in his introduction because, well, the Dazai effect). The straight across upper eyelids and the rounded lower eyelids just scream "I'm too tired for this" to me

It's quotes from the Mayoi 'Joyous night' cards.

Kouyou: "Chuuya are you saying you can't have what I'm drinking? There's no need to worry so long as you drink in moderation. Surely you can afford a glass at a banquet." Chuuya: "What are you drinking Ane-san? Wine, is it? Interesting... No, I couldn't. I'm you're escort. If something were to happen while I was drunk, well... *sigh* Alright, maybe just a glass. This is a banquet, after all."

Like, yes, I'm fairly certain these are in reference to Chuuya being a lightweight and not wanting to get drunk at a fancy party. But it's also Chuuya not allowing himself to have fun. Kouyou realistically doesn't need escort, Chuuya was likely asked along because she enjoys his company.

It's wine. He collects wine and he won't even allow himself to indulge in his own interests because he's too busy unnecessarily worrying about Kouyou and how people will perceive him at the banquet.

It's the fact despite there being several high ranking mafia members introduced by the time of the three way conflict, Mori always uses Chuuya for his plans. There's really no need for an executive to be the one to check up on the hired assassins, or deliver information to the ADA.

Chuuya even remarks upon it himself, saying he didn't think himself fit for the role of envoy. But he does it because the boss ordered him to. He won't say no.

I don't think Chuuya is the same type of overworker Kunikida is. Kunikida has to have everything done right, he needs it done on time. He has a set of meticulous rules and practices to ensure it gets done correctly.

I doubt Chuuya is the type to be worried over his reports being perfect or "in on time" because he's part of the mafia. This isn't a day job. Sure, there probably deadlines where stuff is time sensitive, but again, Chuuya is an executive. He can delegate such work to subordinates if needs be. I definitely don't think he's above coasting his work and putting in minimum effort as long as the job gets done.

I think Chuuya is an over worker in the sense, that even if he's exhausted, even if he wants to go home and collapse, if Mori handed him another job, he'd do it. He has a hard time saying no to people and it carries over into his work.

And he has difficulty shutting off work mode once he's home. "Might as well sort those emails while I have some spare time" Turns into Chuuya unable to sleep hours later because he lost track of time, drank too much caffeine and has a migraine from staring at a screen for so long.

As for being a chronic people pleaser? Well, we mostly see that in Wan or the anthologies. As I've already stated, Chuuya has a hard time saying no to people close to him. It's important that it's not everyone. If he doesn't know them, he can and will tell them to beat it, if he wants to.

But show him a little of bit kindness? An ounce of respect? Be nice to him for a moment and the people pleasing button gets pressed. He goes about it in a round about way, he can't have you know that's what he's doing so Chuuya makes up excuses as to why he's doing it, but he does it all the same.

We see it when he buys Kenji dinner, or makes everyone shaved ice and plenty of other examples. He has to go above and beyond. He wants you to be impressed because he wants the praise, but he can't have you know that's what he wants.

The only person he doesn't do this with is Dazai. And that's probably to do with how they met at 15 (also because Dazai annoys the hell out of him). They met when Chuuya's people pleasing was at its worst, when he was King of Sheep and had next to no will of his own because Chuuya was too afraid of losing the Sheep to not do as they say. Dazai breaks him out of that.

For all they make the bet that Chuuya's his dog, aside from the odd joke, Dazai is never seen making good on that. He never orders Chuuya around like a dog, they are partners and he treats him as such. When Dazai witnesses Chuuya being treated this way by the sheep, he looks annoyed, he doesn't like seeing it. Chuuya being his dog was always just a silly joke.

Dazai being so annoying that Chuuya couldn't stand to do what he said helped Chuuya break out of some of his people pleasing habits and learn saying no was okay. After Dazai defected, I think those habits came back as Chuuya had to fill the role of Mori's right hand in his absence.

the odysseus curse

An Amazing Solangelo Metaphor

You know *some* but not all of this if you read my fics...

It began when I headcannon'ed Will Solace as smelling like medicinal herbs. I then stumbled across Echinacea.

Echinacea is a coneflower with a Greek name and usage. It smells like honey and had medicinal properties, like soothing colds <3. AKA it's a lot like Will Solace. Also, bonus, it comes in a yellow variety (little yellow flowers! for Will! When he sings! Flower gleam and glow~) and a white variety called-- no joke-- Fragrant Angel. I kid you not. So they can both be angels.

Also it is literally in THE SUNFLOWER FAMILY, Heliantheae

Therefore, Will Solace smells like Echinacea, which smells like honey. Cute.

And then, seperately, I read about the African Death's-head Hawkmoth, a black-and-yellow moth with a SKULL SHAPE on the thorax. Also, the scientific name is Acherontia atropos, referring of course to the Greek River Acheron, the entrance to the underworld. Atropos refers to the Greek goddess, who is one of the Fates, of course being another symbol for death.

So that's basically Nico di Angelo, right?!

Despite these moths being totally harmless to people (Nico is actually a sweet person with a good heart) the fancied skull pattern has given them a negative reputation, such as associations with the supernatural and evil. (Everyone thinks of Nico as scary and creepy bc he is the son of Hades)

Now, guess what these death's-head hawkmoths primarily eat?

Honey.

And, as a bonus, they also drink the nectar from flowers, primarily Solanaceae (which, yes, has the same word origin as Solace) and sometimes even... Heliantheae. The sunflower family.

TLDR; In another universe, Will Solace is Echinacea and Nico di Angelo is the Acherontia atropos

Or a moth and honey/nectar.

I rest my case.

WAIT- Why did i never noticed dazai's pain tolerance?!??

About your theories on Dazai's trauma that he didn't get from Mori, what are they?

The most backed up one I have is that it was people that worked for Dazai's parents. In No Longer Human Yozo is abused by his family's servants so it would make the most sense for Dazai to have been in a similar situation. I could make a very long post about that, but for the sake of other theories I'll stow it.

I also think it's likely the if my first theory is wrong then the main abuse Dazai faced was neglect. He doesn't know how to be a person, he knows how people act and can mimic it but he doesn't fully understand which to me, sounds like he has autism. The only thing I can't pin to the neglect theory is his pain tolerance.

In 15 Dazai hurts his arm when Chuuya kicks him around and steps on his hand. He reacts to neither. Now I am still relatively freshly not 15 (turned 16 a few months ago) so using myself and friends as a reference point, 15 year olds don't normally act like that when getting hurt. So at some point he has to have built up a pretty serious tolerance as well as a hate for pain.

This is where a lot of people like to point to Mori, say he did it. Which was one of my main theories (and still is something I use for some fics) until I talked them over with a few people and we ended up agreeing that Dazai wouldn't have been so close with Mori had that been what was happening. Also knowing Dazai he would've brought it up for clout at some point. It just doesn't make sense for him to not only be so comfortable around Mori and then never say anything.

None of that logic applies to real people, I'm saying it doesn't make sense for Dazai.

So as for who caused that, I'm not sure. I don't have a character to point at. I can say that his parents didn't come to get him after Mori found him, and as far as I know they aren't dead, so they didn't seem to care about him very much. Usually around here is when I circle back to "people who work for his parents" because it has more ties. But maybe a family friend or a parent or a sibling did it, those are all very possible abd make more sense than Mori.

if i could give my life for yours, or die with you

Tbh i would also smile dying knowing that the one to kill me would be my friend

the absolute ADMIRATION with which fukuchi looks at fukuzawa?????? dear lord. HIS EYES. AND FUKUZAWA'S. THEY ARE SOOO LIGHT I'M GONNA PUKE THESE TWO ARE TOO MUCH. fukuchi's literally smiling knowing he's gonna get killed in a second at hands of his oldest friend.

Where do i find a relationship with that???!

ADHD x Autism

I'm so obsessed with their 15 version gindkhdgj--

more t4tskk because i need to make more of them