It’s…so Tiring…

Btw if you're a person who is in school or at work, you are not a NEET. NEET literally stands for "not (in) education, employment, (or) training" which means kids on here who call themselves "NEETS" who still go to school? No tf you're not. Me being a NEET isn't a funny lil word trend, it's my actual life due to mental and physical disabilities, health issues, and complete lack of a support system that will ever help me return to both education and work.

You don't WANT to be a NEET, it happens TO YOU

You are valid (:

footage of me checking Tumblr and every messaging app knowing damn well that no one wants to talk to me

needy streamer overload

I bought the game because it was on sale so I don't regret buying it.

and it reminded me of an app called virtual and how you can be a vt-uber and shit. so i said fuck it why not im bored and lonely and might as well be a cute anime girl too.

i redownloaded it

but for fuck sakes its camera is awful at tracking

and im so goddam awful at socializing and i fucking wished it had an app on the pc BUT EVEN IF IT DID MY SHIT INTERNET IS SO GODDAM SLOW AND I CANT DO SHIT JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE

so im stuck here in my room doing nothing but be on my phone and laptop. seeing other people do things i want to do. why cant that be me also. If i can't do shit how am i going to earn money. my anxiety holds me back i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this.

the only friend i have are online but even that is a pain in the ass BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY ASS WIFI THE FUCKING PING IS SO DAMN HIGH SO IM JUST WATCHING THEM HANGOUT WITH EACHOTHER WHILE I JUST STAND BY AND WATCH I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD FUCKING VALORANT WITHOUT IT TAKING THE WHOLE DAY BITCH ASS CUNT KYS

For many years of longing, I craved attention from my favorite people. To be loved, to be looked at, to be the only thing in their mind.

I would obsess over them day and night. Where my life was bleak and boring without any interaction with them. I'd get depressed and hopeless without their attention, imagining hurtful scenarios of them leaving, and remembering that these feelings of mine will forever be within me. They will never know. I will not let them know. No matter how much I like them this feeling.

At the same time, I hate it with a passion. I do not like feeling like I have no control. So I do what's best. I ghost everything just because of one person. I leave. But I always come back pathetically yearning for their attention again. Because I can't stand being alone.

You know what's funny though? I met someone... who for the first time reciprocated my feelings without me having to say anything.

I was scared. I was so scared.

I've always been an obsessive person to those I liked. So why... did I hate it the moment they liked me back?

Did i even like them? If not, then does that mean i didn't actually like the previous people before?

Did i simply make up an image of them?

Or is it that I just don't like him? And maybe that's why I didn't like his confession.

I feel gross. I hate that I rejected him and I went back to using him as fuel for my sick fantasies. I hate that I still want his attention.

I hate looking at blogs that have romantic shit that says cheesy things like "what I crave for him to do."

I hate it

I no longer look at men with such rose-tinted glasses anymore. I feel empty. I feel repulsed.

I feel nothing at all.

I'm so normal w games that let me pretend im loved

how can someone’s absence affect me so much while my presence doesn’t affect them at all

i really wish more of the community was able to act normally about plus size jirais. I want to be able to talk about not being able to find any girly kei outfits in sizes above M without a swarm of skinny jirais acting condescending and being fatphobic.

Tips for when you're trying to get people to change their minds, calling your representatives, etc:

Don't act like a street preacher, almost nobody likes those guys. (More information.)

Code switching is your friend. Don't use leftist buzzwords or jargon, use the kind of language they're familiar with. (More information. And here are examples.)

Do not argue or debate with people who actually piss you off or pose a serious risk to your mental health. If you want to refute their points, make a post, zine, video, etc. about it.

Do not argue or debate with bad faith actors - anyone who posts mindless contrarianism (such as the kind of pro-Republican replies posted by porn blogs) is to be ignored and blocked on sight.

Honestly my only purpose is spending money and being cute ^_^ I won't even be a good housewife... Just internet princess (⁠｡⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)