Neil I-need-to-live-obscurely-so-I’m-never-ever-found-otherwise-I’ll-be-killed Josten:

David "This is way above my paygrade" Wymack

Neil not telling Kevin and Andrew that he flew to LA is so fucking in character for him but we also gotta remember that Wymack knew where Neil went, because Jean called him from the Thai restaurant, and apparently said nothing.

Kevin can be a queen all he wants, his dad still remains the King of Not My Business.

Explained aftg to my best friend. Was hit with “who’s the love interest” halfway through…girl we got 2 more books, and 20 more tiggers warnings before we even ATTEMPT to touch that.

Neil is an unreliable narrator TO YOU. I believe him.

I love them, your honor.

As someones who drinks a little too much, I would love this

A delivery only restaurant named "send help" that specialises in hangover food. Everything comes with some sort of an electrolytes beverage, if not two, a bag to throw up in, and one of the food options is simply "whatever", and you get an order of whatever random food options the kitchen happens to find the most convenient.

The "whatever" can be specialised, like ordering a two-piece vegan whatever gets you two random vegan options, there's "whatever w/ peanut allergy", kosher whatever, and so on.

The halal option comes with a free letter reminding you of the reasons why a muslim shouldn't drink.

Neil’s eyes, the color of the sky. Jean’s, the moon that dwells there. A forever partner, forever misplaced. These two make me sick

my favourite scene of tsc is when cat saves jean from fans by asking him in french if he wants to fuck and jean is so shocked he just stops functioning and forgets to be an asshole long enough for them to drag him away. 10/10 problem solving from catalina alvarez

MY GOD! YOU JUST TRANSLATED INTO WORDS WHAT I FEEL EVERYTIME SOMEONE ASKS ME WHAT I WANT!!

Like, I dont want to make another person not eat something the REALLY want bc of something I mildly want

I hate when people ask me about my preference but I don’t understand their preference level. Like yes I kinda want Chinese food 10% more than I want a sandwich but if you want a sandwich like 40% more than Chinese food then I would say it’s totally reasonable we get sandwiches.

So I have been thinking and I noticed one kind of disturbing thing in the backstories revealed in TGR

So, we all know Jean tried to end his own life at the Nest and Riko tortured him for it and then locked him basically on a box with breathing holes

During the time Jean was locked in there, Kevin went to talk to him and made him promise to not try it again, bc he wouldnt be able to handle being left alone with Riko again (before Jean's arrival when they were all 14ish, it was just Kevin and Riko). Jean promised it to him, and not matter how much he wanted to, he never dared to break the promise, even after Kevin had left.

Riko never knew this talk or this promise happened, which means that this mtf probably thought the reason why Jean never tried to kill himself again was bc of the torture he faced after he tried it 🤡

Like, Riko was probably outhere thinking that locking someone up in a coffin for days is a super effective way to prevent future suicide attempts (kinda ironic since Riko died of "suicide", aah the karma that came to this little bitch will never not me amazing to me)

Anyways, just wanted to share with yall my disturbing thought of the night

The thing is that Kevin has no one to lean and confide into

Thea could barely believe that Riko broke Kevin's hand. She gets mad at him for not being open with her and then proceeds to discredit and not believe in him (how to be an awfull person 101). Kevin could never trust her enough to really talk about the level of abuse he faced, she could barely handle the surface of it

Even though he has his dad, I dont think Kevin feels confortable to really share those things with him, simply bc Wymack is also too emotionally involved in the situation and probably blames himself for not being there to protect Kevin (which is not his fault).

He cant connect or trust Bee and considers her to be Andrew's

Andrew and Neil are in a world of their own

This leaves him with no one and a very serious alcohol related problem

Not to mention Kevin was the one who spent the most time In the Nest. Jean arrived when he was 14, Kevin has been in that hell hole since his mom died. He probably watched Riko get more and more cruel and mean everyday, without being able to do nothing about it. Not to mention how hard it must have been to deal with the change in the way he was treated after his mom died. Being slowly turned into a thing, into property, by the kid you considered your brother and the man you considered your uncle. When did things got so bad?

How it must have been the first day Riko tortured him? Does he remembers it? And how it happened? Did Riko slowly started to realize, now that Kevin was alone in the world, he could do whatever he wanted to him? Did Kevin try do defend himself only to learn that Tetsuji would ignore Riko's behavior, but wouldnt ignore it if Kevin fought back? In the back of his mind, does Kevin remembers the days in which things weren't like this? Like a faded memory of him and Riko playing around and laughing while Tetsuji and Kaylight talked? Did he grab onto this memory at the begging, hoping the kid he considered his brother was still in there somehow, somewhere, only to learn slowly that whatever path Riko chose had no coming back from?

Like, just imagine being a kid, grieving your mother and all of a sudden Uncle Tetsuji becomes Master and your best friend becomes self proclaimed n° 1

And then abuse becomes almost a second language, all your days feel like a fever dream , training like hell, being hurten like hell, all alone in the world, stuck in the Nest and trying to tell yourself this is what your mother would have wanted, even though the fading memories of her touch feels so different from the heavy hands and sticks you are now used to. How could someone who cradled you so gentily want this for you? But...did she ever cradled him? Or was that distant memory just a dream? It certainly felt like a dream sometimes.

Kevin really desearves to heal properly 🥺🥺🥺

no Listen kevin is doing the least healing out of everyone andrew goes to therapy he trusts people in his life he confides in neil and neil coped by running and lying and now he’s Staying he’s trying to be honest and to confide in others and letting himself love even jean is going to therapy for his water phobia and is working to trust people and is getting to the point where he can admit what happened to him was awful and he didn’t deserve it but kevin?? kevin doesn’t talk about his feelings Ever the most vulnerable we see him is when he has panic attacks about riko and what does he do? talk to the people around him? NO he chugs vodka and shoves it all down that’s all he does repress repress repress I doubt he’s even vulnerable in therapy yes bee knows the facts of the situation but when I first got into therapy I would give my life history so rehearsed and robotic and detached he can’t acknowledge how the horrible things he went through Affected him part of him still thinks the abuse made sense!!! because it was punishment for not being perfect!!! and he still believes he has to be perfect above all else!!!!