I'm Coming Out..sort Of.

I'm coming out..sort of.

I need to get this out of my system. I can't come out to my friends or parents. In a tiny town like mine, it'll spread like wildfire. Most people aren't accepting. I once told my dad I thought I might be lesbian because I wasn't interested in boys and he kicked me out for a night. He let me come back because I told him I was kidding. I've ignored my own desires for 3 years now and I'm less than 6 months away from the freedom of graduation. Free to explore the world and most importantly, myself. I've dated many boys and had sexual relations with them. Not once have I genuinely enjoyed it. I thought perhaps I was broken? Why didn't I enjoy this act that everyone else seems to love? And one night, while on vacation last summer, I met a girl in a coffee shop. We clicked. I was in LA visiting my sister for a week. With 3 days of my trip left, we spent every moment together. Roaming Hollywood and Sunset boulevard. The day before I left, we hooked up, so to speak. A lightbulb went off for me. It was the first time I had ever felt so intense. So passionate about someone. My vision was cleared and my confusion vanished. I am lesbian. I am attracted to girls. In the sanctuary of tumblr I can finally shout it to the world. I am a girl who likes girls.