I Am She. Nail Biter. Skin Picker. Pube Plucker. Lip Biter. Eye Crust Flicker. Knuckle Cracker. Eyelash

someday 🐞

been feeling a lot like him lately

what if we got lost in the woods & performed dark rituals & engaged in homoerotic acts of cannibalism to survive the frozen winter (and also we were girls)

she has little moon earrings- i have star clips in my hair. she goes to the local community college and plans on transferring to the major university- im in a sorority and my life is intertwined in the large school's greek life. she's a local- im seven hours away. she grew up on vast expanses of land, caring for life and surrounded by her family's love- i grew up in a cluttered house that sucked the soul out of anyone who dares to enter and every time I go home i lose a little part of myself. she listens- i talk. she calls be pretty and for once, i believe it. she smiles and i laugh in her tiny car and we stare at each other in the lamp light of a small parking lot after missing our desert reservations. she walks me to my car and we both ask if we could kiss each other, our laughter ringing in the air next to the papa john's we had to bathroom break in because we asked at the same time. she hesitates so i pull her in and it isn't rushed or desperate, it's just gentle and full of potential for something beautiful and she cradles my face and my hands are on her hips and we're next to my beat up car. she tastes like the chocolate milkshake from earlier that night and i can only assume i taste of the cigarette i smoked earlier on that she called "hot". she is a middle child and im the eldest and we still talk and she didn't ghost me and oh, I think something beautiful can come out of this.

Thx @garciailoveyou for the tag!!! My music is a little all over the place.

B: Bonfire by Childish Gabino

O: Ooh La La by Faced

X: X by J Balvin

O: One of Your Girls by Troye Sivan

F: Femininomenon by Chappel Roan

L: Lillies by Ethel Cain

I: I Wish my Baby was Born by The Be Good Tanyas

V: Vroom Vroom by Charli xcx

E: Everywhere Everything by Noah Kahan

S: Sun Bleached Flies by Ethel Cain

@firenati0n @autumnentirely @kimstills

Write out your URL with songs

Tagged by: @cozy-writer (thank u 🫶🏼 I love doing this shit)

SKIN OF MY TEETH - Demi Lovato

Cut - Tori Kelly

All Too Well (10 minute version) - Taylor Swift

Right where you left me - Taylor Swift

LUNCH - Billie Eilish

Espresso - Sabrina Carpenter

Thing u do - Tori Kelly

The Only Exception - Paramore

JOLENE - Beyoncé

EAT ME - Demi Lovato (ft Royal & the Serpent)

Misery Business - Paramore

I Hate It Here - Taylor Swift

L-O-V-E - Nat King Cole

You’re On Your Own, Kid - Taylor Swift

No pressure tags: @unsuub @jareauism @tenaciousarcadeexpert @devrxes @spicybleach @theunholyvirginemilyprentiss

Im so obsessed w her I’m ill

Jennifer Jareau the woman you are

silly goofy post

one thing about me is that I WILL be trying and failing to rhyme, just for sillies. 

To create

I have been itching to create something,

to have my fingers covered in bright paint.

I just want to make something worth loving.

Bright colored art to make life seem less quaint,

dull tones to assure you, it will be alright.

Paintings big enough to cover a wall.

Five sculptures, all worth being basked in light.

Too much art to fill just a single hall

I want to cover canvas with dark ink.

To make something that evokes emotion

With shadows and highlights that make you think.

Maybe it will be a dark, vast ocean.

All I can say is that until I do, 

I must settle and cherish the sky’s blue

At the moment

Dried mascara stains

Little marks on my legs, arms, and shoulders.

Numbers on the scale. 

Numbers on my plate.

Tears in my eyes

Lists

So many lists

Things to do 

Things to write

Words to say

Words that will never be spoken

People to talk to. 

People to avoid. 

Breathe in 

Breathe out

Hold it in. 

Suck it in. 

Suck it up. 

Walking on eggshells

It’s all so dirty. 

Clothes on the floor. 

Papers on my wall. 

God can’t be found here. 

Scrubbing my skin until I am raw all over

Ice cold showers. 

Grades are dropping. 

They are all leaving. 

I can’t breathe. 

I can’t do it. 

Is this who I have become?