Hit Me Baby One More Time 🎶

dude your intricate ritual just fucking bit me

Seeing Aji-san voicing Hijikata in Blue Wolves of Mibu fuels my thing about Shinsengumi!Totomaru LMAO

HELP I HATE HOW I KEEP MASHING MY INTERESTS TOGETHER

While I haven't read the manga for Ao no Miburo, I have been a huge fan of Hakuouki for years now... So here goes nothing

Totomaru owes a lot to the Shinsengumi. Being a lowly ronin that he is, he was scouted by them and gave him a home and a purpose - to protect the bakufu.

But now that Japan is opening up its borders, their lives are slowly changing. The shogunate's hold on power is slowly weakening as it is, but Toto is determined to serve his role even if he's not particularly good at the sword. (He is, but he doesn't think too much of himself)

With the shogunate being in a panic, they began experimenting on how one could increase the physical strength of someone, and the Shinsengumi were the experimental subjects.

You could argue that the medicine worked, but unfortunately, it turned them into blood sucking monsters. They weren't called the Wolves of Mibu for nothing, but even then, he was determined to do his job that he has sworn to do, even if it was getting more and more of a chore to keep his own consciousness. He would end up repeatedly hurting himself to distract him from his own blood loss only to be disappointed that he would heal just almost immediately.

One day, Kondo himself called upon Toto, and assigned him a job. He was to keep tabs about this person named Ron Kamonohashi as he was being suspected of being an imperialist, and could be an instrument to completely destroy the shogunate, and his orders were if he were to suspect that Ron is against the shogun, he would have to kill him.

But Ron, as eccentric as he is, was actually an Oni - the original article on where he was based, and there was honestly no way to kill Ron. He's effectively immortal, except without the insane bloodlust that Totomaru is suffering from and Ron honestly doesn't give a fuck about the shogun nor the empire.

The same couldn't be said for his family, however. When the borders had opened, they managed to secure allegiances overseas and they were planning to control Japan from the shadows, and as Japan enters a state of upheaval, the two of them become friends then lovers as they both just try to live their not normal lives.

So it's like the assassin trope thing but you fall in love with your target LMAO

Also, drinking Ron's blood suppresses Toto's bloodlust.

feelin soft . ..

(guy whos scared of everything and feels guilty about everything) sorry i got scared and felt guilty

Currently thinking of the scene where the ferris wheel is about to fall on them and Noe covers Vanitas and his fingers are in his hair.

Western au pt.2

me when im not a perfect flawless human being with perfect appearance, intelligence, morals, personality:

Rewatching Hannibal hits different after actually going to therapy.

That scene (S1E1) where Franklin cries in session and has to beg for a tissue? I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s a moment that's easy to overlook, but it says everything about Hannibal as a “therapist.”

In every real session I’ve had — individual or group — the tissue box is right there. Within reach. Sometimes it’s passed to me without a word. Because emotions are expected in therapy. You're not supposed to feel like you're interrupting, or worse, inconveniencing your therapist for needing something so basic.

But Franklin? He’s practically apologizing for needing comfort. And Hannibal doesn’t even look surprised — they clearly meet weekly. He knows Franklin gets emotional. So why not just place the box by his side beforehand? Is it about control?

And then the room itself. It’s massive. Dark. Imposing. It doesn’t invite vulnerability, it demands performance. It makes the patient feel small — like they’re being judged, not understood. And honestly, that fits. Because Hannibal isn’t there to help Franklin. He’s just observing. Curating. Playing the role of “therapist” while providing none of the support.

It hit me that the younger me kind of sided with Hannibal in that scene. Found Franklin annoying, whiny, maybe even gross (that tissue shot. yeah, the show knows what it’s doing). But now? After living with anxiety, after learning what a good therapist actually feels like?

It’s crystal clear who the real asshole is.

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