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We need to talk about Pete...

and his crisis in episode 9.

Background

Pete has been shown to have some type of religious awareness

He is also shown as a parallel to La Virgen in episode 7 as he watches over the party as she does. *I'm Catholic, but I'm not even going to touch on this because that is a whole 'nother post.

Questioning Faith

However, in episode 9, when he enters the Buddhist temple, he questions Vegas because the monk was speaking about the first percept - Do not kill.

Pete doesn't understand how Vegas, who just killed Don and Wang, enjoys listening to this sermon on not killing, while Vegas says that it helps him relax.

Pete isn't feeling peaceful or calm but can't figure out why.

Questioning Himself

When Vegas suggests making merits together (because they have both killed together and need to atone), Pete is hesitant, but as always, obedient.

Remember, Pete does not see good or bad, so having to atone for wrongdoing without a punishment could be why he looks so confused. Or it could be that Vegas shows concern for his soul beyond this life.

Up until then, the music is light and ethereal. However, the SECOND Pete agrees to make merits together, the music stops. There is no music at all. Even when Vegas puts his hand on Pete's back, there is no music. You know when the music does start?

The moment Pete has a reaction to the touch is when the music begins again, but it's not the same music as before.

Bonn Fields' "Never Given a Chance"

This is the song ("Never Given a Chance"...uummmm), and it's suspenseful. I'm not a music person, so I can only describe it as being in a minor key with lots of dissonance (lack of harmony between notes/tension/unsuitable elements). And you know where we hear that dissonance ?

After Pete moves away from the touch, he does the same movement he did in the first image while looking at the shrine - he wipes his face and then his hair, but the comfort he felt before in the first image is gone. Dissonance

The next time we hear dissonance is the first time he looks at Vegas after the touch when Vegas asks him to take the water. He is conflicted. He is feeling something different while Vegas is back to the norm of being a superior bossing him around. Pete responds "Yes, sir" but...

When he gets up to leave, we hear lower notes being added as the camera lingers on Vegas.

The last time we hear dissonance is after Pete throws out the water and is trying to reset himself. This time, it's high pitched symbolizing Pete's internal conflict is reaching its climax. He is trying to focus on his assigned duty but is still thinking about the touch.

When the music stops

The SECOND Pete goes back in and sees Vegas is gone, the music stops. It is silent until he picks up the note, and then a quick burst of ominous music begins when he finishes the note about doing it again, so they can see each other in the next life.

So what?!

Pete is not at harmony with himself here (dissonance). He can't find the smiles to joke this away like he normally does. Throughout this whole sequence, he doesn't even smile once. Previous to this, every interaction he has had with Vegas, he smiles through it, but the smiles seem to last less with each interaction. Here, he is experiencing raw feelings that he cannot brush aside, and Vegas touching his back in such a spiritual space in broad daylight while the monk speaks about not killing and his brother is sleeping right behind them has thrown him off. He isn't reacting to the touch, but the way the touch makes him feel regardless of the external elements. Pete is not uncomfortable with the touch and that's why he is conflicted. The music demonstrates this by starting when Pete reacts to the touch rather than beginning when Vegas touches him and ends when Vegas is gone. Even if Vegas is playing with his prey [I already wrote about truly believing he's attracted to Pete], Pete just realized he is attracted to the way Vegas makes him feel (his authentic self) which puts him in conflict with his duties, his loyalties, and his façade. He failed his mission because he was distracted and knows Vegas is playing with him, which makes that realization of attraction even more difficult.

And you know what Pete likes when people fail? Punishment. He says he's going in that house to clear Porsche's name, which is most likely true, but he is also looking for something.

ta and barcode looking at the camera like they’re on an episode of the office while bible is teaching them maths

+ the zoom in 

— Friedrich Nietzsche

For the Love of Safe Sex (pt. 13)

HIStory 4: Close to You.

macau saying "that was fast!" after pete and vegas kissed is really making me think about what vegaspete looks like from macau's point of view. imagine you're macau, your older brother has been shot four times by the major family and hospitalized. a guy you kind of know because he's your cousin's bodyguard shows up at the hospital and starts taking care of you and your brother. until now you've had like three conversations with him total. after a month of this weirdness you overhear this guy call your brother his owner and himself your brother's pet casually in conversation, and for some reason they start making out about it. like isn't being a teenager already hard enough

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Listen, I understand being curious about celebrities' lives. If you see a celebrity doing a bunch of gay things you might think "hey, maybe that artist is queer" but that's as far as it should go. You should never harass, or threaten, or force anyone to come out. That is fucking disrespectful and wrong. Queerness is about including anyone who feels that they do not fit into normal society, there is no one way of being queer. It's not a box, it's free and open and that's the beauty of it, so how about we fucking stop forcing queer people to come out, or label themselves, it's none of your business.

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04.08.23

The third and fourth episode of Happy of the End emphasized that Chihiro is no Heavenly Human.

But he is the right person to help Keito.

I mentioned during the first two episodes that Chihiro isn't as dark as Keito.

He has color.

He has light.

Keito is dangerous because all of his interactions have been transactional and violent.

So when he reacts to Chihiro chatting with his ex, he becomes colder, he becomes crueler, and he becomes darker.

But when he sees how bothered Chihiro is with this treatment, he steps back into the light.

Because that's what's special about Chihiro. He isn't all light. He isn't so pure and bright that Keito hates him or has trouble understanding him. Chihiro has darkness as well, so for him to react to Keito's actions by crying and leaving makes Keito question how awful he must be in that moment to ignite such an emotion.

Keito is still dangerous, but, once again, Chihiro is fine with Keito's darkness. It's the cruelty that hurt.

So for the third episode to end with Keito in all black after realizing Maya was stalking him was worrisome.

Because although Keito is a Black Brooder, Chihiro has a way of bringing out some color from Keito.

But Maya is a reminder of Keito's past and that's the darkest thing about him.

I had to sit with the fourth episode for a bit because it's a painful visual examination and record of Keito's descent into darkness.

The episode began with Keito leaving his bed and Chihiro behind to stare out the window and think about his past in all black.

Although circumstances would never let him be pure, completely innocent, or blindingly white, Keito, as a child, was once light.

And in an act of desperation, after weeks of starving, he made a shift.

He still had hope that his situation would improve and that he would find security, but that quickly evaporated.

And he remained dark.

Because his life doesn't allow for hope to exist.

So a dark teenager turned into a dark adult.

And even when Keito escaped that abusive life,

He was still completely dark.

But the fourth episode ended by reminding us that Chihiro moves Keito to the light and brings out long-buried color from Keito.

So even at the every end, when it appears Keito will desert hope and embrace his darkness as he is faced with another one of life's cruelties,

And even when he begs for his suffering to end next week at his darkest moment yet,

He will wear a color, he will sit in the brightness,

And he will embrace the light.

But it'll take someone who isn't afraid of the dark to help him.