Yuta Is Judging You

the many personas of kim theerapanyakul (x)

"I'm just frustrated. What am I to him? Why did he lie about that? Why do I feel this way? I don't get it."

GRAY SHELTER (2024). EPISODE THREE.

The idea of english as a mother tongue is so strange to me, in my head english is how ppl communicate when there's no way in common to communicate, so english as a mother tongue sounds a bit like idk email as a mother tongue ykwim? Like english to me feels like the stuff that's used to fill the empty spaces between languages

Stand with us 🍉🌿🇵🇸

‏Hello my dears I am Hamdi Al-Shaltawi from Gaza, a student at Al-Azhar University. I was studying commerce. I was unable to complete my education because of the war that took our dream and our life from us, and was the reason for my lack of joy in graduating from this university. My brothers and I. Our dreams stopped and we escaped death several times, and we decided to travel so that we could continue. Outside the country, but travel is expensive for us, so I hope you will support me so that I and my family can escape death and complete my education 💔🍉

This is my picture a year ago at my university

This is a picture published by the occupation army after it destroyed my university

Hope in the Face of Adversity: Supporting hamdi to rebuild his life

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+ the zoom in 

The third and fourth episode of Happy of the End emphasized that Chihiro is no Heavenly Human.

But he is the right person to help Keito.

I mentioned during the first two episodes that Chihiro isn't as dark as Keito.

He has color.

He has light.

Keito is dangerous because all of his interactions have been transactional and violent.

So when he reacts to Chihiro chatting with his ex, he becomes colder, he becomes crueler, and he becomes darker.

But when he sees how bothered Chihiro is with this treatment, he steps back into the light.

Because that's what's special about Chihiro. He isn't all light. He isn't so pure and bright that Keito hates him or has trouble understanding him. Chihiro has darkness as well, so for him to react to Keito's actions by crying and leaving makes Keito question how awful he must be in that moment to ignite such an emotion.

Keito is still dangerous, but, once again, Chihiro is fine with Keito's darkness. It's the cruelty that hurt.

So for the third episode to end with Keito in all black after realizing Maya was stalking him was worrisome.

Because although Keito is a Black Brooder, Chihiro has a way of bringing out some color from Keito.

But Maya is a reminder of Keito's past and that's the darkest thing about him.

I had to sit with the fourth episode for a bit because it's a painful visual examination and record of Keito's descent into darkness.

The episode began with Keito leaving his bed and Chihiro behind to stare out the window and think about his past in all black.

Although circumstances would never let him be pure, completely innocent, or blindingly white, Keito, as a child, was once light.

And in an act of desperation, after weeks of starving, he made a shift.

He still had hope that his situation would improve and that he would find security, but that quickly evaporated.

And he remained dark.

Because his life doesn't allow for hope to exist.

So a dark teenager turned into a dark adult.

And even when Keito escaped that abusive life,

He was still completely dark.

But the fourth episode ended by reminding us that Chihiro moves Keito to the light and brings out long-buried color from Keito.

So even at the every end, when it appears Keito will desert hope and embrace his darkness as he is faced with another one of life's cruelties,

And even when he begs for his suffering to end next week at his darkest moment yet,

He will wear a color, he will sit in the brightness,

And he will embrace the light.

But it'll take someone who isn't afraid of the dark to help him.

GIF REQUEST:

For perfectly normal reasons, can someone out there deliver a better quality GIF of the camera eyeing examining Daddy Chan looking fine af doing his job.

Hwang Daseul, the queen that you are.

The amount of storytelling she achieved in the juxtaposition of Dohoe and Juyeong’s two nights together cannot be overstated. It so clearly shows how different their relationship is. The first scene is sweet and awkward and so full of longing. Most of all at the end they’re cuddled close together.

But in the present it feels so different. It’s more erotic because they’re older and perhaps have more experience. It also that the emotions portrayed are different. Sex is what you can use to get closer; it’s like Dohoe is trying to use this as a shortcut to avoid all the talking and revealing. In the end, they’re no closer and perhaps have driven new wedges between themselves.

They both look to each other, but not at the same time, like gears out of sync. She really uses this moment to show that while they both want and long for each other, they’re not sure how to bridge that 12 year gap. Whatever Dohoe thinks, this isn’t about just unpausing a moment in time.

liberté, egalité, fraternité et yaoi

Why in the world would you like toxic characters? Why are you so proud of that? What is it even to be proud of? What's wrong with you?

Well, my dear Anon. If you only knew how many times I've asked myself those very same questions…

And the answers always come down to: It’s fiction.

And even though fiction is a vital part of life (just like any other art form) and you can learn a lot from it (you have no idea how many toxic people I’ve been able to avoid, before they even found out my name, thanks to my love for toxic characters and seeing their red flags), fiction is also just fiction.

The characters aren’t real, even though they can seem like it. Just because I love a character that's toxic as fuck doesn't mean I would condone real people who behave that way.

Also, I’m not hurting anyone with my obsession with toxic characters. It’s not like I'm forcing anyone to think like me (and for the love of all things holy, don't do that!).

Besides having a healthy obsession with the toxic characters I love, I’m not very emotional (for lack of a better word) about what I watch. I can be intrigued by toxic characters without either excusing their behavior and actions or hating them (because there’s enough hate in the world for me to do that shit). I can watch taboo topics and other shit that most people find triggering and not be triggered (even though I see the taboo topics for what they are). I can watch problematic stuff and see beyond it to what’s really being said (even though I see the problematic stuff for what it is).

But that’s just me. And I would never force my perspectives on anyone else because I know the majority isn’t like me (which is a good thing, btw).

So, if you don’t vibe with my shit, block me. I don’t mind.

Trust me. I’ll survive. You’ll survive. The world won’t fall apart. We’ll both be okay. Just block me.

Because I will keep loving my favorite toxic fatherfuckers. I won't excuse their behavior and actions. But I will love them.

And the only one who can stop me is ME. But I don’t want to because I love all the shades of toxic bitches and their red flags.

Like Boston from Only Friends.

And Todd from Not Me.

And Chalothon from The Sign.

And Ray from Only Friends.

And So from House of Stars.

And Yai from Big Dragon.

And Way from Pit Babe.

And Boeing from Only Friends.

And let's not forget Vegas from KinnPorsche!

And Yoden Ryoji from Dangerous Drugs of Sex.

And Yong Jie from HIStory 4: Close to You.

And Rio from The Novelist.

And Ritsu from To the End of the World With You.

And definitely Ming from My Stand-In!

I love them all because I have issues. But so do all of them, which is precisely why I love them.

Thank you for your ask.