I ain't no snitch, but someone, who I am now indebted to and love dearly for this gift, sent me the finale of GAP the series. I will watch it through the official YouTube channel next week (I did what I said I would and watched it) because I understand the viewer count matters, but in case you want to know if my list of demands were met and if my crazy ass will shut the eff up now...
SPOILERS
Sam has pink ON HER BODY! It is ON HER BODY! The pink is ON HER BODY! It was her wedding dress! This is the hardest I have ever had to work for a color exchange. TWELVE EPISODES! I feel like I cut and dyed that fabric myself, then sewed it by hand. I was sweating, y'all, but it FINALLY happened, and it was glorious!
The entire wedding was pink. Pink everywhere! Pink on everyone!
We already knew they had pink rings, but they looked extra beautiful this week WITH THE PINK WEDDING DRESS!
I thought Sam would return to her Blue Beauty ways like her sister Nueng, but I am elated that this Black Brooder (Gray Gal) FINALLY picked up her wife's color, and this speech was amazing because it touched on the reason colors are important - they make life magical!
And we got Saint for OVER six minutes.
You sly mf, Saint. I love you!
Is it clear who the terrorist is?
liberté, egalité, fraternité et yaoi
Awesome growing trend
Talking more about First Kill and how the queerness is well written but the rest is “not” thus purposefully fulfilling the shitty teen tv drama niche but for gay ppl:
Lesbian main characters are BOTH main characters they get equal time devoted to their history, motivations, feelings, and family dynamics throughout the story
Calliope, Juliette, and Ben are already fully comfortable in their sexualities and their families are fully accepting and don’t ever question it or say anything even mildly homophobic, even the shitty relatives
Calliope: She is a darkskin lesbian that is not treated as a love interest but as a main character in love. She’s ADORED by her girlfriend. She’s framed to be gorgeous, intelligent, sensitive and kind by the narrative. She is also treated as the child she is by her family!
The Burns: healthy, loving family, the adopted kid is THEIR kid, no one dies, they are NEVER villainized, they communicate with eachother, their love and devotion to eachother is apparent, they are actually all fleshed out characters with distinct personalities and motivations
Juliette: she feels like an outcast and sort of is one, but that’s due to her own internal conflict and social awkwardness not any external conflict with peers who are kind to her!
Ben: he’s a star athlete/jock, but still emotionally available and kind, a stellar student, well liked, loyal, the lil communication game he has with Juliette??? Hello???
Small queer things: Cal being friends with her ex, Ben and Juliette dating and figuring themselves out and staying best friends, killing off the closest case jock that refused to meet Ben even halfway and kept disrespecting him, NONE of the characters experience homophobia, tentative respect from parents about their “monster” gfs
The lore exists and is very plot relevant. And its also interesting and poetic?
Basically, this show lacks horrible stereotypes and is therefore a lesbian teen drama made for the genuine campy fun of it!
OUR DATING SIM episodes 7-8
I absolutely will die on this hill, access to fiction that makes your skin crawl and open discussion about it is the best way to keep that skin crawling fiction from happening in reality.
It doesn't matter if it is ~positively~ or negatively portrayed. If you censor it, we don't talk about it, then we can't protect against it.
*la petite mort (a little death, and just not the sexual kind), but a death nonetheless.
Episode 9 highlighted that Vegas is aware that his life is surrounded by death.
I joked last week that Pete would be the one to kill Vegas if Vegas kept up his behavior, but...
While fighting with his dad, Gun smacks the book Vegas is reading on the ground, symbolizing not just the end of a childhood, but the end of being Gun's child.
The book is about an alien invasion that sacrifices humans' unique individuality, which reflects Vegas and his father's relationship. The book's overall theme is that in order for a metamorphosis to occur, the old form needs to die.
During that fight, Gun tells Vegas that he will never be the best in this life as he is right now
But Pete brings up something Porsche mentioned to Kinn before during their main vs. minor family competition conversation
Why can't Vegas just be...himself? Why does he have to be "Vegas, from the minor family, always under the main family"? Why does he have to be Vegas, the bad guy? Because he has been written that way by his family? Even on the phone with his dad, Vegas asks "Do you think I want to be here?!".
He doesn't but doesn't know how to escape. It's an incomprehensible aspiration. Korn tells Kinn that "in this business, once you get in, it's hard to get out" so how bad is it for someone born into it? The only escape is death.
Vegas has been shown to be the villain...for Pete (Gun is the actual protagonist of the series because everyone conflicts with him, even his own sons), but what happens when Pete, the hero of the story, doesn't see Vegas as a villain?
Khun's questioning of Porchay emphasized what has to happen in the storyline between the hero and the villain.
The bad guy, Vegas, has to die, so Pete, the hero, can live. But according to our hero, there are no absolutes, so *THIS* version of Vegas must die, not the whole being. In order for him to remove himself from "Vegas, from the minor family" and "Vegas, Gun's son", he must end *this* life, so he can meet Pete in the next one as two equals that share both good and bad instead of being consumed by one.
Even though Pete is the one being held hostage and tortured, the one who begins to die in this room is Vegas. When they have sex, Vegas will notice just how much of himself he has buried and what Pete, the one who knows exactly how it feels to be beat down but still sees the bright side, is awakening. He can't grow in the darkness, and Pete offers light.
Pete is killing some part of the Vegas that can't escape, but the final blow will come when the family's face each other. Vegas, once again carrying out his father's plans for the minor family against the main family, will realize his life is not his. Pete might not deliver the actual shot, but somehow Pete will be the reason that Vegas decides this version of himself can't continue to exist. Because before he can change, Vegas Theerapanyakul has to die.
*la petite mort - an expression that means "the brief loss or weakening of consciousness" and in modern usage refers specifically to "the sensation of post orgasm as likened to death.