Childhood Was So Crazy. My Parents Were Kind Of Young. A Meal Seemed To Last Forever. I Could Run For

“I knew if they ever found out about me, I’d end up like Johnny Yablonsky. Johnny was soft, he was feminine, he was clearly gay. The neighborhood guys would make him blow them; then beat the shit out of him. He always had a lot of bruises, and absenteeism. He was so defeated. I’ve always assumed he killed himself. And I didn’t want the same thing to happen to me. It was a lot of fear, and shame. The fucking shame. I participated in my own self-negation. I laughed at all the jokes. I tried to tighten up on the masculine stuff. I’d stand in front of the mirror. I’d practice my walk, my diction, the movement of my hands. Somehow I managed to make it out of that town alive. During our first Christmas break at college, I went with my friend Howie to visit his family in Long Island. Afterward he dropped me off at the airport. He thought I was flying home. But I caught the Greyhound Bus to New York City. I put all my stuff in a luggage locker and started walking down 5th Avenue. It was night. It wasn’t lit up like today. All the storefronts were dark; it was like lyric poetry to me. Unopened boxes full of mystery. All I knew was I had to get to Greenwich Village. I kept asking people—is this the village, is this the village? They kept saying: further south, further south. Finally I get to the corner of 8th Street and 6th Avenue, and I’m waiting for the light to change. And this guy starts hitting on me. A few years older than me, good looking. His name was Charlie. And he put a spell on me immediately. From the very first moment, I had a hard-on for Charlie Bacchus. I felt safe with him. He took me to my first gay bar. Then afterward we went to his mom’s loft apartment on Washington Square. She happened to be in Rome. So it was just me and Charlie Bacchus, in this gorgeous apartment, with the door closed, cut off from the rest of the world. There was sex, beautiful sex. First time I’d ever had sex with my shoes off. The next morning I came out of the shower, and wrapped a towel around me. Charlie said: ‘What are you doing? Take that off. You’re beautiful.’ He said it so gently, like someone looking at a painting. And it was my first profound lesson in shedding shame.”

Meeeeeeeeeee

MARS IN THE 1st HOUSE: Observations

Life is a battlefield for those with this placement, and they are in the mood to conquer. Their sense of energy is abundant and their incredible ambition allows them to achieve anything they set their mind on. Mars loves being in the first house and this offers the native many benefits. People with this placement live for an adrenaline rush. They can find this through risky activities and competitive sports. They love a good argument, to them it’s a game. They know that when it comes to a true disagreement there is no right or wrong answer, so they instead focus on being the best. Sometimes they can be quite ruthless in the delivery of their tactics, but ultimately these natives are pretty lighthearted. If anything, people who have Mars in the first house are just chasing after a good time. They uplift everyone’s spirits and motivate others to take action. Obviously, these people make for fantastic leaders. People with Mars in the first house know what they want and they know how to get it. They also have the energy to match this and will work hard to achieve what they believe to be rightfully theirs. This inspires others, people with Mars in the first house really are the blueprint. Sometimes there is a tendency to act without thinking, this can be good or bad. In situations where it is required to be quick on your feet, people with this placement rise to the occasion. However, in a situation that requires a sense of patience and tedious detailed efforts, they may struggle. These individuals may also struggle with high levels of aggression. It is common for people with this placement to be known for an act of violence that they inflicted. Even if those with this placement have never resorted to violence, others know that they are very much capable of it. These individuals also struggle with acts of violence being inflicted upon them, this is why they put up an aggressive front to protect themselves. They would rather swing first than take a hit. People with this placement also struggle with compromise. This can prove to be a major problem within personal relationships, and there is a tendency to dominate romantic partners. They can be possessive and don’t like the idea of others looking at their partner. They are pretty unapologetic and set in their ways, so it can be difficult to point this behavior out because they take it as a direct hit to their ego. These individuals need to remember that they still deserve love and appreciation even if they made a mistake. They want to punish themselves more than anyone, and when they do this they only set themselves back more. Failure hits them deep, but they bounce back quickly. People who have Mars in the first house believe in themselves on a fundamental level, and they always know that they could be better. They have the foresight to know when it’s the right moment to push past their own limits, especially when it comes to physical activity. These individuals are incredibly sexy, their bodies are sculpted to perfection. There is a sharp gleam in their eyes that excites others, and their smiles look dangerous. Even if they are not an athlete, others will assume so. People with this placement are just as thrilling to look at as their personalities are.

❤️

“I was the product of an affair.  My father had sex with my mother once, and she hadn’t even told him about the pregnancy.  So he never knew I existed.  I was an only child.  I was desperate to connect with my identity.  But I had no way of finding him because my mother remembered his name incorrectly.  It wasn’t until I became an adult that I was finally able to track him down.  The first time we met, he sat in a chair, pulled out a cigar, and said: ‘I was expecting you to be a boy.’  It turns out that he’d had a son while he was in college, and he’d given that child up for adoption.  Somewhere out there, I had a brother.  I grabbed a napkin and wrote down all the information my father could remember.  But it wasn’t enough.  I couldn’t locate my brother.  Soon I got busy with my family and my mind moved on to other things.  Then two years ago I was on Ancestry.com, and I got a ping.  It wasn’t like: ‘Oh, here’s your brother.’  But it was a match of some sort.  And I’m really good at investigating that stuff, so I found him on Facebook and sent him a message.  After we confirmed things with a DNA test, Eric and I hit the ground running.  We call each other ‘brother’ and ‘sister.’  We’ve visited each other’s families.  We look alike.  We think alike.  I’ve shared my poetry with him.  He shares his music with me.  We’re both divorced, and middle-aged, and experiencing similar things.  So there’s so much to talk about.  We have these text conversations that last all morning.  I’m not that same teenage girl anymore—desperate for connection.  I don’t have a void that I’m trying to fill.  But he’s just been such a nice addition to my life.  I love having a brother.” #quarantinestories

🤍 Sensibile Placements to have in your chart 🤍

When I refer to sensible in this post, I don't refer to emotive as a feeling! Just sensible points for you!

🤍 4th house placements

🤍 8th house placements

🤍 12th house placements

🤍 Saturn in Cancer/Leo/Scoprio

🤍 Moon in the 2H/6H/8H/12H

🤍 Moon aspecting Pluto

🤍 Neptune aspecting the Sun

🤍 Saturn aspecting the ascendant

🤍 Saturn in the 1H

🤍 Lilith aspecting the ascendant/moon

🤍 Lilith aspecting Venus

🤍 Venus aspecting Saturn

🤍 Saturn aspecting Moon

🤍 Capricorn Moon

🤍 12H Moon

🤍 12H Venus

🤍 Venus harshly aspecting the ascendant

🤍 Lilith in the 1H/4H/8H/12H

🤍 Pluto/Lilith in the 11H

🤍 Pluto/Mars/Neptune in the 12H

🤍 Sun in the 12H

🤍 Gemini Lilith/Lilith in the 3H

🤍 North Node harshly aspecting the Moon or Saturn

🤍 South Node aspecting Saturn/Moon/Sun

🤍 Uranus aspecting Venus

My Venus is in the 9th

classic actresses that share your Venus sign/house

VENUS IN THE 1ST HOUSE

Anna May Wong (Aquarius Venus) & Ingrid Bergman (Virgo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 2ND HOUSE

Eartha Mae Kitt (Aquarius Venus) & Linda Darnell (Scorpio Venus)

VENUS IN THE 3RD HOUSE

Lillian Gish (Sagittarius Venus) & Cyd Charisse (Taurus Venus)

VENUS IN THE 4TH HOUSE

Elizabeth Taylor (Aries Venus) & Gina Lollobrigida (Leo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 5TH HOUSE

Maria Montez (Gemini Venus) & Joan Crawford (Aries Venus)

VENUS IN THE 6TH HOUSE

Rita Hayworth (Libra Venus) & Katharine Hepburn (Aries Venus)

VENUS IN THE 7TH HOUSE

Diahann Carroll (Virgo Venus) & Raquel Welch (Cancer Venus)

VENUS IN THE 8TH HOUSE

Gene Tierney (Capricorn Venus) & Eva Marie Saint (Cancer Venus)

VENUS IN THE 9TH HOUSE

Marilyn Monroe (Aries Venus) & Brigitte Bardot (Virgo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 10TH HOUSE

Dolores Del Rio (Gemini Venus) & Lupe Velez (Cancer Venus)

VENUS IN THE 11TH HOUSE

Jane Russell (Taurus Venus) & Natalie Wood (Virgo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 12TH HOUSE

Ruby Dee (Sagittarius Venus) & Grace Kelly (Libra Venus)

I guess the reason why I created this post was because I kept on seeing people say that they wish they had Venus in the 1st House, Libra Venus, or Taurus Venus because of their beauty and allure, but I just wanted to remind you all that every Venus sign and every House your Venus is in is beautiful - it’s not only Venus in the 1st, Libra Venus and Taurus Venus (although those are as wonderful as the rest). And I also made this simply because I love actresses.

Guilty.

637. Slytherins that are thought to be great in all the work that they do but are actually really lazy so they just try to find the easiest/fastest/most efficient way to achieve their goals without having to put extra effort. This makes them seem very smart and at the same time they don’t need to work that hard, thus killing two birds with one stone

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Dear god. ❤️

Bernadette Peters, Madeline Kahn, and Glenn Close backstage at Carnegie Hall during the gala benefit, “Sondheim - A Celebration at Carnegie” (June 1992)