Bellaluna2 - Untitled

Press footage of the original Broadway cast of Sunday in the Park with George (1984)

“I knew if they ever found out about me, I’d end up like Johnny Yablonsky. Johnny was soft, he was feminine, he was clearly gay. The neighborhood guys would make him blow them; then beat the shit out of him. He always had a lot of bruises, and absenteeism. He was so defeated. I’ve always assumed he killed himself. And I didn’t want the same thing to happen to me. It was a lot of fear, and shame. The fucking shame. I participated in my own self-negation. I laughed at all the jokes. I tried to tighten up on the masculine stuff. I’d stand in front of the mirror. I’d practice my walk, my diction, the movement of my hands. Somehow I managed to make it out of that town alive. During our first Christmas break at college, I went with my friend Howie to visit his family in Long Island. Afterward he dropped me off at the airport. He thought I was flying home. But I caught the Greyhound Bus to New York City. I put all my stuff in a luggage locker and started walking down 5th Avenue. It was night. It wasn’t lit up like today. All the storefronts were dark; it was like lyric poetry to me. Unopened boxes full of mystery. All I knew was I had to get to Greenwich Village. I kept asking people—is this the village, is this the village? They kept saying: further south, further south. Finally I get to the corner of 8th Street and 6th Avenue, and I’m waiting for the light to change. And this guy starts hitting on me. A few years older than me, good looking. His name was Charlie. And he put a spell on me immediately. From the very first moment, I had a hard-on for Charlie Bacchus. I felt safe with him. He took me to my first gay bar. Then afterward we went to his mom’s loft apartment on Washington Square. She happened to be in Rome. So it was just me and Charlie Bacchus, in this gorgeous apartment, with the door closed, cut off from the rest of the world. There was sex, beautiful sex. First time I’d ever had sex with my shoes off. The next morning I came out of the shower, and wrapped a towel around me. Charlie said: ‘What are you doing? Take that off. You’re beautiful.’ He said it so gently, like someone looking at a painting. And it was my first profound lesson in shedding shame.”

Lucius/Narcissa

From the “Send Me Ships” prompt for @bellaluna2

Okay, so the first time I did it, tumblr ate it! So I had to completely redo it…

Gives nose/forehead kisses:

Lucius. Actually, Narcissa started it but then Lucius liked it so much he picked it up and it became his habit. The general pattern is nose kisses when he’s leaving the house, forehead kisses when he’s leaving the room.

Gets jealous the most:

Narcissa. She’s been that way since she was a child but it’s one of the things that drives her ambition.

Takes care of on sick days:

They both do in different ways. Lucius is more doting (so much so that Cissa ends up kicking him out of the room most of the time because she needs her space.) She checks on Lucius when he’s sick but is usually of the ‘oh, you’ll be fine’ attitude.

Drags the other person out into the water on beach day:

Hahah - this is kinda funny to picture the way I’d originally meant it. But on vacation without any other worries? Narcissa.

Brings the other lunch at work:

Narcissa. A lot of times it’s her excuse to see him in the middle of the day whether they meet somewhere or she brings him a tray wherever he is in the manor. (If she doesn’t have her own plans, that is.)

Tries to start role-playing in bed:

Lucius. …if you’ve been her long enough, you know why. hahaha

Embarrassingly drunk dancer:

Also Lucius

Firmly believes in couples costumes:

Okay, so they don’t celebrate Halloween really BUT - Lucius. Anytime they go to an event/ball/party/etc. they wear matching or coordinated outfits. Lucius brought it up the first time they went to a function as a couple and though it sort of surprised Narcissa at the time, it was always a given ever since. In fact, most days they’re outfits are at least coordinated.

Lucius loves it because it’s his way of telling everyone he’s the lucky bastard that landed Narcissa.

Breaks the expensive gift rule during Christmas:

They don’t even have this rule, but Lucius. Those few Christmases where it was difficult to celebrate anything, he still surprised Narcissa with amazing gifts.

Makes the other eat breakfast:

Narcissa. She makes sure Lucius eats even if it’s just a croissant on the way out.

Remembers anniversaries:

Both

Brings up having kids first:

It was never really discussed. Because they’re marriage was all but arranged, it was discussed for them and made very clear what the expectations were.

Kills the bugs:

Narcissa

Lucius ignores them and suddenly remembers something that takes him away from the bug’s vicinity.

First to define them as a couple:

Again, this didn’t really come up because of the way their formal courtship went but Lucius.

Who hides their guilty pleasures longer:

haha, Lucius.

Snorts while laughing:

Narcissa and it’s one of Lucius’ favorite sounds in the world. He’s happy the rest of the day whenever he manages to make Narcissa laugh that hard.

Thank you for sending this in! It’s been a while and I very much enjoyed it :-)

people aren't born bisexual. people become bisexual the first time they see Bernadette Peters, Tim Curry and Carol Burnett dancing to Easy Street in Annie (1982)

”The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any”

The Power of Pluto👺

Where is your power?

These notes can also be read if you have a planet in your 8th house. So if you have sun in the 8th house you can read the ”sun aspecting pluto” part.

Sun aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your personality and way of asserting yourself. You give off an aura of power. You are extremely goaldriven and have an almost scary way of getting what you want. You are strategic and calculating. Offending you or looking down on you is not even an option because you will make them pay.

Moon aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your extreme sensitivity. Being able to feel what others are feeling and thinking to the point of knowing exactly what their next move will be and moving faster than them. You know whos calling only by hearing your phone vibrate without looking at the screen. You even scare yourself sometimes. You sense whos behind you without looking.

Mercury Aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in what you say and what you hear. You observe every little word, every change in tone. Its impossible to lie to you. You know exactly what to say to hurt someone and you know what to say to make someone feel better. People cant sleep because they lie awake thinking about that thing you said to them 10 years ago. Able to make your voice sound deadly serious and even scary.

Venus aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in how desireable you are. People take one look at you and they fall in love. You would never admit it because you hate sounding shallow but you know the power you hold. One look from you can make someone obsessed with you for years. People dont care what it takes to be with you. Your beauty makes people burn with hate. But can they take your beauty away from you? No and that whats make them feel so powerless. They can kick, spit and bite all they want but your beauty and charm stays.

Mars aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your physical body and how goaldriven you are. Nobody can get in your way. Constantly impoving and becoming better and better. You refuse to stop until you are the best. Winning competition after competition because you are addicted to the feeling. Your determination is dangerous. You are the kind of person who works out until you drop the weights on the floor and falls down.

Ascendant aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your way of having the upperhand everywhere you go. People cant hold eyecontact with you because you look straight into their soul. Your presence is felt by everyone, even children. You can make a whole room with people quiet. You see someone who want to take that power away from you and you get rid of them before they have the chance to even try. You can command respect from a whole prison full of thugs. You are the kind of person to walk into prison and beat someone up on the first day to show what they have to expect. You are an expert at making people respect you.

Midheaven aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in not being seen. You refuse to let society see or know too much about you. You leave people wondering. You are the kind of person with a twitter account where you only repost others tweets but never write something on your own. You refuse to let them get a taste of you. People know nothing about what goes on in your life and you know why it has to be that way. You know people will sabotage if they know to much. Everyone knows your name but they dont know you.

© 2022 Zeldas Notes

scorpio: a rich conspectus

*the zodiac sign of Scorpio, Luigi Gonzaga (1500/2-1532), with inscription: Qui Vivens Laedit Morte Medetur (Who wounds when alive, heals when dead).  

The aforementioned phrase is all you need to know about Scorpio. They will cut you down to size for seemingly no reason only to build you back up when they see you down and out. This is the Pluto in them. They’re not designed to make sense - hell, I’m sure they don’t even understand why they do the things they do. Scorpio is the zodiac sign that is possibly the most unnecessarily calculating and sneaky yet they’re intensely irrational and emotional as well. They are always on guard expecting someone to cross them which makes them paranoid about betrayal. The paranoia leads to the sneakiness. It’s as if they always have to stay ahead of you just in case you do something to betray them/their trust. I enjoy watching their emotional and mental gymnastics most of the time, because I can’t understand why that behaviour is necessary and I wonder if they ever get tired. They’re the ones who confide to their closest friend their guilt over the shitty way they’ve treated their family/friends/love interests. This is the only zodiac sign represented by an INSECT…a poisonous one, but an insect nonetheless. Like the scorpion and the frog, it’s in their nature to sting. Since they’re so full of venom, they feel the need to distribute it on others and/or self-immolate on their own bile. You see, even if their perfect match fell into their lap, they are too controlling, self-destructive, reactive, and stupid to not destroy it. It’s funny hearing Scorpios call themselves “loyal and honest” yet they are constantly playing the game of not revealing, and leaving things unsaid, to people they claim to “love”. Very passive aggressive. But of course, unlike everyone else, there’s separate laws for them because they are “super sensitive and scared of being hurt” LOL. It’s funny that they brag about being “super-tough” annihilating machines, yet are such snowflakes that they demand special treatment and require protection in case they get hurt. Fascinating.

Scorpios honestly think most signs find them “sneaky” and “mysterious” but the reality is that they just don’t feel inclined to tell their business to everyone. They feel that they have to stay one step ahead because they feel like they can pick up on certain patterns and behaviours from other people. Like Virgos, they do overthink, but they’ve literally predicted the future when it came to certain situations, believe it or not. I don’t find them particularly mysterious, especially if you start observing them. After a small amount of time you can tell what their triggers are because they’ll start to act from their shadow side (shit talking, shit stirring, manipulating, backstabbing, etc). Scorpios, like Cancers and Virgos, are primarily a defensive sign - they generally don’t come at you unless you come at them first. Where it gets tricky is if you’re dealing with an unevolved and/or insecure Scorpio (of which there are MANY, hence the hate this sign gets). Those people don’t just go for the defense, they are equally as offensive as they are defensive. Those Scorpios tend to be toxic people who confuse someone outshining them or not falling in line kissing their ass as an attack, they’re like all the other fixed signs (as well as Sags and Virgos) that way. Further proof of how pathetic they are is the feigned indifference to being hated and also felt the need to summon other Scorpios to defend what’s left of their deservedly shit reputation. Cancer and Scorpio are the signs for survival/self-preservation. If they feel their survival is at stake, even the nicest Scorpio will hit overdrive and do their absolute best to evade or shut down that threat. Remember, like Aries, Scorpio is also ruled by Mars. However, that warrior Martian spirit is intensified by the presence of Pluto. The two planets together (and both rule Scorpio) can be really destructive - and Pluto makes sure the damage lasts. Pluto is an abysmally RUTHLESS planet.

Like the rest of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Aquarius) Scorpios have a HUGE ego but they also tend to be about value. Evolved Scorpios value authentic, preferably intense, emotional interaction and connection. Devolved Scorpios value obsession, worship, sadism, and sycophancy. This is a sign of passion and extremes. Moderation is not in their makeup and the balance embodied by the previous sign of Libra is the anathema to their very being. So that means if Scorpio discovers that another person has used that connection or those interactions to play them for a fool…it can get ugly real quick. Their intensity cuts both ways. It’s a violation of one of Scorpio’s primary values. Hence they, the sensitive water signs that they are, get hurt to the core. It hurts. And so they take protective measures. That could mean severing the connection with you. Why? Because they valued that connection and it’s been exploited. They don’t know how to live with that. Hence they cut you off. It may seem unfair. But that usually is because the person Scorpio sees as exploiting the connection, didn’t value the connection. It could also mean an aggressive, combative interaction with them - although interestingly enough, that’s actually kind of uncommon with healthy Scorpios. It’s hard to explain. It’s not like Aries, the sign whose Martian association they share. When Aries blows, it’s destructive but they get over it really quickly. Scorpio does NOT. It generally takes longer for a healthy Scorpio to blow and when they do, it’s more like a volcano erupting in that whatever happens, however things are resolved, the landscape of the relationship is permanently changed. Aries is a destructive storm that blows over. Scorpio changes the landscape. From what I have seen, if anything, despite their sneaky ways, oddly enough they’re some of the realest signs in the zodiac. They’re like Sags because they’re blunt and don’t like to sugarcoat anything and that’s what I like about them. But then again, I don’t like overly fake, pc people.

Scorpio takes all that Martian energy and weigh it down with the destructive lead weight of Pluto. Incidentally, lead is the metal associated with Scorpio; iron is Aries’ metal. Lead is softer than iron. But lead is also toxic. It can poison you very easily in small amounts. It also is one of the few sure containers of radiation. If a toxic level of radiation is coming your way, you better jump behind some lead real quick. It will block and protect you. But if that lead container is opened, you get exposed to a level of damage that can’t be cleaned up, at least not easily. If you get wounded by an iron weapon and aren’t killed, you can most likely be fixed. However, if you get poisoned by lead…well, you better act fast cause if you don’t, you’re toast. In other words, Scorpios can be TOXIC. And as self-aware as they like to think themselves as, they have fixed-sign delusions of grandeur and they won’t necessarily see that they are toxic. About the vengeful part: yes, they also make a mission out of seeking revenge. This is a misuse of Scorpio energy, and too many of them do it. Scorpios should always avoid that behaviour as best they can because, like Saturn (planet of karma) -ruled Capricorn (and unlike Pisces, as well as a lot of the fire signs - damn, you people get away with murder!), Scorpios always pay for their misdeeds, sooner or later. And it’s usually kind of ugly. Deservedly so. So it’s best for them not to dish it out.

If you don’t know who you are, they will ruin your life if you let them get close enough to you. They’re good as acquaintances if you’re looking for someone to have a good time with and keep it real with you about certain things, but I wouldn’t advise the insecure to get too close to them. Needless to say, I’ve never had my life ruined by a Scorpio but I’ve observed what they’ve done to other people and I definitely keep my doubts about Scorpios, as well as my distance; again, they only ruin someone’s life if they think that person is weak (nice, very understanding, give a lot of grace, etc.). When they meet their match (usually a Gemini, Aquarius, Capricorn, or a fire sign) they’re total cowards. They’re like Virgos because they think that they know everything and will tell you what you need to do in a heartbeat but can’t listen when you tell them the same. They will tell their business, but not everything and when you find it out, you had no clue. Unhealthy Scorpios are always best avoided - and you’ll know them by their tendency to always be bullying, underhanded, controlling, dirty, lowdown, abusive, hateful, mean-spirited, scathing, draining, willfully destructive, miserable, don’t like themselves, vengeful, irritable, nitpicky and, mostly, to have a need to control every little thing and every person in every environment they are in. They’re wayyy crazier than Cancer is made out to be. However, their “sexy” and “dark” archetype along with their courage/fixed-sign audacity and compulsion to take things to the limit makes them exciting/interesting to others, hence others turn a blind eye to their antics and ways.

If others have had the unfortunate experience of dealing with an unhealthy Scorpio, I don’t blame them for being wary of all members of the sign. But it just might be a good idea though to remember that evolved Scorpios (eagles) are actually really good to have in your corner. They’ll have your back, they’ll recharge you, they’ll show up to help in times of trouble. Like the other water signs and Leos, Scorpios are other people’s power chargers - they tend to power up the people they love and value. They tend to recharge people. That’s why folks so often ask them for advice or help. And if they love you, they will help you. A lot of times, you may not even see them every day, and then all of a sudden trouble hits you and there they are, sleeves rolled up and ready to dive in. The recipient may not realize it until they do something that damages the relationship (connection) and then they sever it. Suddenly, you’ve got lower energy levels and you can’t figure out why. It was them, charging you up, and now they’re gone. Cancer, Taurus, Capricorn, and Scorpio are the main signs that have a lot of internal power - which must never ever be willfully misused. But with the Plutonic/Martian Scorpio, it’s imperative that they don’t misuse their internal power, because it always comes back to them. With great power, comes great responsibility. Like I said, their intensity cuts both ways. And even if you fail to understand the value of your connection and violate it to the point that a Scorpio cuts you off, a healthy Scorpio will not take vengeance. They know better. As with Cancers, just don’t threaten their survival and you’ll be fine.

previous tea: capricorn • aquarius • pisces  • aries • taurus • gemini • cancer • leo • virgo •  libra •  scorpio

Oh. My. God.

Bernadette Peters recording “Rose’s Turn” for the Gypsy (2003) cast album

Doctor Lilith Sternin Crane

Cheers - How to Win Friends and Electrocute People

QUICK RANDOM BREAKDOWN

MARS PC PLUTO CONJ. ASC SAGITTARIUS

Ego has been boosted today

SAGITTARIUS RISING

- by first glance people might find your legs/thighs/butt sexy

- exuberant and sunny disposition that people find attractive (girl next door type)

- big dazzling smile/playful smirk

- playful and teasing when first meeting people (especially people your attracted to)

PLUTO CONJ. ASC

- sexy, deep, alluring stare

- when first meeting people you have an noticeable intense presence (especially to people who are attracted to you)

- rbf

- dominating or you just simply demand respect in your glance and how you present yourself

- bratty

PLUTO 12H

- being private about your sexual experiences/sexuality

- people might be curious as to what you’re like in bed

- dark secret sexual fantasies

- very passionate behind closed doors

- potential imposters syndrome when it comes to how you preform and how you appear sexually

And yes this is my placement in my chart 💋

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First of all, I know that Lucius and Narcissa are NOT good people; and even after the story ends, they are blood supremacists. I am talking about them as a couple and parents ONLY. Now that being said, Lucissa love is extremely underrated and misunderstood in the fandom -specially by those who only saw the movies. Lucissa is the most devoted and well suited couple; their wedding survives 2 wars and many challenges, such as their son’s life being risked. During Voldemort’s return Lucius was humiliated, and Narcissa never left his side and was the only person who treated him with respect in their own manor, which was a death eater base at that moment. She even defends him against her own sister, “If Lucius hadn’t-” [Bellatrix began.] “Don’t you dare-don’t you dare blame my husband!” (6th book) And when Harry taunts Narcissa about Lucius being in Azkaban, “I expect Potter will be reunited with dear Sirius before I am reunited with Lucius.” And 2 more examples: “Malfoy glanced sideways at his wife. She was staring straight ahead, quite as pale as he was, […] but beneath the table her slim fingers closed briefly on his wrist. At her touch, Malfoy put his hand into his robes, withdrew a wand and passed it along to Voldemort.” And during the big battle: “Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy running through the crowd, not even attempting to fight, screaming for their son.” And when they met Draco they stuck together. Anyways all I am saying is Lucissa is one of the most well suited and established -canon- couple in the HP series, and I think people misunderstand them so much; specially Narcissa, she loves her husband and her son she will stick by their side even after all. I know she is not a good person (she IS much like her husband a blood supremacist, causing tension in family meetings with Scorpius because Draco didn’t had the same beliefs anymore) TL;DR: Lucissa may be 2 bad people, but they really love each other, and Draco, deeply.