Dead. Lol.

“It was my decision to leave. There were too many problems. She hadn’t kissed me in years. We’d argue over every little thing. Our son was grown and I just didn’t see a reason to stay. So I came home from work one day, packed up my things, and left. I’ve been staying with my sister ever since. It’s been a tough two years. I’ve tried to reach out but she isn’t talking to me anymore. My son isn’t speaking to me either. They want nothing to do with me. I biked over here for Father’s Day. I was going to knock on their door but I changed my mind. I decided to just let them be. I wish I’d never left. Even though we were always fighting, it still felt like I had a home.”

Rising Sign/Ascendant Observations

I notice people with Saturn in the first house tend to have really incredible glow-ups appearance wise. Unfortunately, these can take as long as until they reach their thirties. Usually, it happens when they hit their early to mid twenties, though.

Speaking of Saturn, Capricorn risings are usually very petite. They either have ectomorph/really small frames or are shorter than average. Obviously, this varies if another planet is in the first house or their is something else powerfully aspecting the ascendant.

Scorpio and Cap risings are usually forced to grow up fast and are prone to experiecing precocious puberty. Especially if the lifetime is extremely karmic. Also applies to Pluto or Saturn first housers.

Aries and Gemini risings also grow up fast, though, I notice they don't experience early changes in their body as much. Despite this, they're usually CSA victims/survivors. For some reason, these people are preyed on by people that are in authority or that they are supposed to be able to trust very often. When it comes to Aries rising, women are victims more often than men for some reason.

The other two points above also usually apply if Lilith in conjucting the Ascendant or in the first house.

Aqua risings are concerningly good at disconnecting themselves from their traumatic experiences. It's almost as if it's had no effect on them at all, sometimes. Usually, instead of needing help with their truama, they end up helping others.

Aries rising women are usually on the taller side and have amazonian frames. They also have really strong jawlines/high cheekbones.

The jawline thing also applies to men, but I notice that theirs tends to soften or go away with age. Aries rising women keep this most if not all of their lives sometimes.

I also notice that Aries rising people are seen as conventionally attractive more than any other rising sign. I always hear about how attractive Libra/Sag risings are, but whilst I was researching for this post, I noticed that a lot of them have at least one conventionally attractive feature or something that draws people to them. It's ironic because some of them have an almost off-putting sex appeal.

People with outer planets as their rising (Jupiter, Uranus, Pluto, Neptune, Saturn) are usually described as having an otherwordly or 'out of this world' beauty. They usually break beauty standards. But people with inner planets (Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars, Mercury) are described as having a more natural/conventional beauty.

Most Aries risings have gone through a 'red hair' phase. Rather they dyed it, wore red wigs or put red highlights in their hair.

People with Cap as their rising or Saturn in first house rarely have thick/curvy lower bodies unless Jupiter, Venus or something else is heavily aspecting the ascendant.

Aqua risings experiment with all sorts of different hair colors through their lives. Especially if they have a naturally lighter hair color to begin with.

Women with the Kitty asteroid on their Ascendant or in first house get unwanted advances very often, especially during their youth.

On the topic of age, if you have Cancer as your rising but have Saturn in your first house then you won't necessarily be the younger partner/more immature. If you have Capricorn as your rising but Moon in your first house you won't necessarily be the older/more mature partner. It could go either way for you.

Bernadette Peters at Marina del Rey

Oof.

Making this a post so it's part of the BP archives.

Simon Weil's 'The List of Temptations (to be read daily)' from her diary.

My Venus is in the 9th

classic actresses that share your Venus sign/house

VENUS IN THE 1ST HOUSE

Anna May Wong (Aquarius Venus) & Ingrid Bergman (Virgo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 2ND HOUSE

Eartha Mae Kitt (Aquarius Venus) & Linda Darnell (Scorpio Venus)

VENUS IN THE 3RD HOUSE

Lillian Gish (Sagittarius Venus) & Cyd Charisse (Taurus Venus)

VENUS IN THE 4TH HOUSE

Elizabeth Taylor (Aries Venus) & Gina Lollobrigida (Leo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 5TH HOUSE

Maria Montez (Gemini Venus) & Joan Crawford (Aries Venus)

VENUS IN THE 6TH HOUSE

Rita Hayworth (Libra Venus) & Katharine Hepburn (Aries Venus)

VENUS IN THE 7TH HOUSE

Diahann Carroll (Virgo Venus) & Raquel Welch (Cancer Venus)

VENUS IN THE 8TH HOUSE

Gene Tierney (Capricorn Venus) & Eva Marie Saint (Cancer Venus)

VENUS IN THE 9TH HOUSE

Marilyn Monroe (Aries Venus) & Brigitte Bardot (Virgo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 10TH HOUSE

Dolores Del Rio (Gemini Venus) & Lupe Velez (Cancer Venus)

VENUS IN THE 11TH HOUSE

Jane Russell (Taurus Venus) & Natalie Wood (Virgo Venus)

VENUS IN THE 12TH HOUSE

Ruby Dee (Sagittarius Venus) & Grace Kelly (Libra Venus)

I guess the reason why I created this post was because I kept on seeing people say that they wish they had Venus in the 1st House, Libra Venus, or Taurus Venus because of their beauty and allure, but I just wanted to remind you all that every Venus sign and every House your Venus is in is beautiful - it’s not only Venus in the 1st, Libra Venus and Taurus Venus (although those are as wonderful as the rest). And I also made this simply because I love actresses.

(½) “My childhood was dominated by her stories: living in the ghetto for two years, surviving off potato peels, running like an animal from the Nazis.  She was the only one who survived.  I have no grandparents.  No aunts or uncles.  Her entire family was killed.  We rose up from the ashes.  And my mother became a monster.  She deprived us like she was deprived.  My brother and I were always made to feel like a burden.  Like we were leeching from her.  There were no special occasions.  No birthdays.  No cake.  Everything was counted.  Everything was calculated.  Whenever I asked for something, I was made to feel responsible for World War II.  She’d say: ‘I didn’t survive Hitler to get you a bag of potato chips.’  She never let me feel like we were in America.  I felt like I was the one wearing stripes.  I’ve dreamed about Hitler since I was child.  He tells me I’m a mistake.  And that I should have been killed.  I remember when I grew older and started visiting the houses of friends.  I saw how their parents treated them.  How they were given gifts.  And how they were loved.  It felt like I was crawling out of the sewer, after the war, and learning that this entire time, some people had been living normal lives.“

”The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any”

The Power of Pluto👺

Where is your power?

These notes can also be read if you have a planet in your 8th house. So if you have sun in the 8th house you can read the ”sun aspecting pluto” part.

Sun aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your personality and way of asserting yourself. You give off an aura of power. You are extremely goaldriven and have an almost scary way of getting what you want. You are strategic and calculating. Offending you or looking down on you is not even an option because you will make them pay.

Moon aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your extreme sensitivity. Being able to feel what others are feeling and thinking to the point of knowing exactly what their next move will be and moving faster than them. You know whos calling only by hearing your phone vibrate without looking at the screen. You even scare yourself sometimes. You sense whos behind you without looking.

Mercury Aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in what you say and what you hear. You observe every little word, every change in tone. Its impossible to lie to you. You know exactly what to say to hurt someone and you know what to say to make someone feel better. People cant sleep because they lie awake thinking about that thing you said to them 10 years ago. Able to make your voice sound deadly serious and even scary.

Venus aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in how desireable you are. People take one look at you and they fall in love. You would never admit it because you hate sounding shallow but you know the power you hold. One look from you can make someone obsessed with you for years. People dont care what it takes to be with you. Your beauty makes people burn with hate. But can they take your beauty away from you? No and that whats make them feel so powerless. They can kick, spit and bite all they want but your beauty and charm stays.

Mars aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your physical body and how goaldriven you are. Nobody can get in your way. Constantly impoving and becoming better and better. You refuse to stop until you are the best. Winning competition after competition because you are addicted to the feeling. Your determination is dangerous. You are the kind of person who works out until you drop the weights on the floor and falls down.

Ascendant aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in your way of having the upperhand everywhere you go. People cant hold eyecontact with you because you look straight into their soul. Your presence is felt by everyone, even children. You can make a whole room with people quiet. You see someone who want to take that power away from you and you get rid of them before they have the chance to even try. You can command respect from a whole prison full of thugs. You are the kind of person to walk into prison and beat someone up on the first day to show what they have to expect. You are an expert at making people respect you.

Midheaven aspecting Pluto: Your power lies in not being seen. You refuse to let society see or know too much about you. You leave people wondering. You are the kind of person with a twitter account where you only repost others tweets but never write something on your own. You refuse to let them get a taste of you. People know nothing about what goes on in your life and you know why it has to be that way. You know people will sabotage if they know to much. Everyone knows your name but they dont know you.

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