(2/2) “My mother died on July 6th, 2005. One day toward the end of her life, we were in the subway together, carrying heavy packages, and I could see she was exhausted. She turned to me and said: ‘A ganzeh leben is a schlep.’ Which means: ‘All of life is a schlep.’ And for a moment I felt her pain. I realized I could still love her. She couldn’t love me, but I could love her. Despite all the abuse she’d given me, I could feel her pain. I resurrected this old photo after her death. She’s with her first husband. It was weeks before he was taken away. She’s only twenty years old in this picture. That gorgeous face. That youth. How could I possibly hate her the same way? It’s unfathomable. Not that she was right to be cruel, but it’s unfathomable what she went through. I once helped her type a memoir to get reparations from the Germans. At the end of her story, she wrote: ‘It was a life of horror. Having lost everything and everyone, I’d given up my struggle to live. And at that time, it would have been easier if they had killed me. But they didn’t. So on I went, living in hell.‘”
“It was my decision to leave. There were too many problems. She hadn’t kissed me in years. We’d argue over every little thing. Our son was grown and I just didn’t see a reason to stay. So I came home from work one day, packed up my things, and left. I’ve been staying with my sister ever since. It’s been a tough two years. I’ve tried to reach out but she isn’t talking to me anymore. My son isn’t speaking to me either. They want nothing to do with me. I biked over here for Father’s Day. I was going to knock on their door but I changed my mind. I decided to just let them be. I wish I’d never left. Even though we were always fighting, it still felt like I had a home.”
Evelyn Poole in 2x05.
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♇ scorpio ascendants are seen as polarising people, people who are magnetic and mesmerising, majority of the times they can catch an audience's attention, or they can be the type of person who's energy everyone is aware of but is left alone. due to this mysterious nature majority of them carry, there's this instinctive curiosity people have for them, wanting to find out any information about them and even breaking their boundaries. people see individuals with scorpio in their first house as people who are ever-changing and willing to become a better [or even worse] version of themselves.
♇ when it comes to self-identity, many of them do like to see themselves as the stereotypical mysterious and dark person, and some of them like to identify themselves as people who are students of life whose have their own fate in their hands. scorpio ascendants see themselves as people who are wise, and majority of the times they have the right to, many of them have gone through a lot of traumatic experiences that caused them to become people who are astute enough to guide themselves and other people.
♇ moving onto the impression they make on others; is that they are people who are charismatic, determined and powerful. giving the impression that they are individuals who are strong and magnetic, sometimes people with scorpio in the ascendant carry themselves to be more than who they are, so there are moments where people think of them as deceptive.
♇ the first house is part of the content that conveys about someone's personality, and to have scorpio in the first house means that their persona consists of being ever-changing, powerful, charismatic and observant, though they could also be people who are mean, grim, cold and could like to use their power to manipulate those around them.
♇ pluto being the planetary ruler of scorpio, [and yes i do know mars is as well, but im just focusing on pluto], this being the ruler of their first house means they have a lot of life lessons to get through, and sometimes this can make the individual depressed and tired with life. majority of the times having pluto in or the planetary ruler of your first house can make it seem like the kin is being punished for choices they have done in their past life. besides the negative, these people having pluto being the planetary ruler of their first house makes them someone of many faces, [not in a bad way], they can restart and give themselves a new identity to help them shift throughout life in a more stronger way than before.
♇ moving onto appearances, stereotypically scorpio ascendants do have piercing eyes, and a lot of them tend to have blue piercing eyes, like i have spoken about in my scorpio blue eyes post, scorpio ascendants vary in height but majority of the times they have this slender appearance that sometimes make them look like an owl. when it comes to the hair, there could be a lot of scorpio risings who have blond hair but still have an ominous or powerful appearance that makes them come off as striking. many of them do look good in black.
♇ when it comes to their personal ambition, scorpio ascendants are like their co-planet sharer, aries. they're adamant and have a strong desire for success. they're definitely people who strive to have influence in whatever they take action on, they don't like feeling that whatever they do or get is going to make them feel small or overlooked. due to this, this can make them someone who likes power and control, it can manifest into an obsession for it.
♇ the strengths and weaknesses that a scorpio ascendant would most likely have would include them being charismatic, reforming, high-reaching and transformative, but they can also be people who are controlling, obsessive, resentful and destructive, including, self-destructive.
♇ they project their personalities to be individuals who are the first to do a specific thing, they like to be on their own lane, they'd rather lead a crowd than follow it. thus their competitive nature, due to them normally being in situations where someone might've tried to dominate them too much; they can become people who feel ill at ease when authority is around them. because of them being people who don't like to follow rules, they can be considered as too rebellious and come off as controversial.
♇ kins with scorpio in the ascendant view the world as their own trials and tribulations, they are likely to view the world as a race they're the only competitor in but the race bringing much hurdles and obstacles, one of the obstacles having spikes and chainsaws. they perceive the world to be something to either be on top of never below, seeing the world as a ladder and having no intentions of staying on the ground.
♇ moving onto their self-image, scorpio ascendants think of themselves to be people reforming and as people who want to become a better version of themselves. they are forever changing, they view themselves as people who need to survive and adapt to every situation they run upon. [sometimes this can bring a victimising-mindset, if not, then just one that is always paranoid]. they have the self-image of thinking that they're people who are protective over themselves and the possessions they have in their lives.
♇ scorpio ascendants usually do leave an impact on people's lives, majority of the time they enter quietly and leave with a bang. sometimes the impact they leave on people can be compared to the tower card in tarot, majority of the times people with scorpio energy in their first house are here to give people a lesson, especially within the themes the ascendant would land in the other party's house, for example if a scorpio's ascendant were to land in someone's third house they would teach them a lesson about sibling-hood, friendship hood, being comfortable with their verbal skills and abilities to be secure of expressing ideas.
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Anna May Wong (Aquarius Venus) & Ingrid Bergman (Virgo Venus)
Eartha Mae Kitt (Aquarius Venus) & Linda Darnell (Scorpio Venus)
Lillian Gish (Sagittarius Venus) & Cyd Charisse (Taurus Venus)
Elizabeth Taylor (Aries Venus) & Gina Lollobrigida (Leo Venus)
Maria Montez (Gemini Venus) & Joan Crawford (Aries Venus)
Rita Hayworth (Libra Venus) & Katharine Hepburn (Aries Venus)
Diahann Carroll (Virgo Venus) & Raquel Welch (Cancer Venus)
Gene Tierney (Capricorn Venus) & Eva Marie Saint (Cancer Venus)
Marilyn Monroe (Aries Venus) & Brigitte Bardot (Virgo Venus)
Dolores Del Rio (Gemini Venus) & Lupe Velez (Cancer Venus)
Jane Russell (Taurus Venus) & Natalie Wood (Virgo Venus)
Ruby Dee (Sagittarius Venus) & Grace Kelly (Libra Venus)
I guess the reason why I created this post was because I kept on seeing people say that they wish they had Venus in the 1st House, Libra Venus, or Taurus Venus because of their beauty and allure, but I just wanted to remind you all that every Venus sign and every House your Venus is in is beautiful - it’s not only Venus in the 1st, Libra Venus and Taurus Venus (although those are as wonderful as the rest). And I also made this simply because I love actresses.
Narcissa: *observes if there’s any weed in the garden before entering the area of the house.*
Narcissa: *carefully looks around before making her way to the rear of the house to find rest of the weeds.*
Narcissa: *feels relieved finding no weed in the whole garden.*
Narcissa: *finally reaches the door, straightens the folds of her dress, clears her throat and rings the bell.*
Narcissa: *enters the house holding her head high, greets Mrs Granger in a very sophisticated manner.*
Narcissa: *as Hermione’s mother leaves to get some tea, she jumps into her operation.*
Narcissa: *checking if there’s dust on the furniture.*
Narcissa: *surfing the TV channels continuously.*
Narcissa: *unnecessarily switching the LED lights on and off.*
Narcissa: *enjoying her childish acts.*
Narcissa: *suddenly notices Mrs Granger standing at the door, holding a tray, staring at her with round eyes in amazement.*
Narcissa: *immediately sits straight and tries to act normal but soon realises her efforts to look normal has gone in vain already.*
Narcissa: How Mugglish!
“I was the product of an affair. My father had sex with my mother once, and she hadn’t even told him about the pregnancy. So he never knew I existed. I was an only child. I was desperate to connect with my identity. But I had no way of finding him because my mother remembered his name incorrectly. It wasn’t until I became an adult that I was finally able to track him down. The first time we met, he sat in a chair, pulled out a cigar, and said: ‘I was expecting you to be a boy.’ It turns out that he’d had a son while he was in college, and he’d given that child up for adoption. Somewhere out there, I had a brother. I grabbed a napkin and wrote down all the information my father could remember. But it wasn’t enough. I couldn’t locate my brother. Soon I got busy with my family and my mind moved on to other things. Then two years ago I was on Ancestry.com, and I got a ping. It wasn’t like: ‘Oh, here’s your brother.’ But it was a match of some sort. And I’m really good at investigating that stuff, so I found him on Facebook and sent him a message. After we confirmed things with a DNA test, Eric and I hit the ground running. We call each other ‘brother’ and ‘sister.’ We’ve visited each other’s families. We look alike. We think alike. I’ve shared my poetry with him. He shares his music with me. We’re both divorced, and middle-aged, and experiencing similar things. So there’s so much to talk about. We have these text conversations that last all morning. I’m not that same teenage girl anymore—desperate for connection. I don’t have a void that I’m trying to fill. But he’s just been such a nice addition to my life. I love having a brother.” #quarantinestories
Margaret Atwood, from The Blind Assassin
au where everything is the same except sirius black is played by jonathan van ness from queer eye
Bernadette Peters and Gabe Kaplan in a promotional photo for Tulips (1981)
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