Backwoodsnbrush - Mountains N Stuff

Silverton, Colorado - by Justin Scudney

I don’t think self-neutrality should always be treated as a stepping stone on the way to a commodified form of self-love. Sometimes, perhaps, self-neutrality is enough on its own, and might even be more helpful.

Example:

“I feel worthless” doesn’t need to become “I have value.” Instead, it would honestly be healthier to realize that “value” is a vague concept with little to no bearing on your right to exist.

“I’m useless,” doesn’t need to become “I have potential.” Who honestly gives a fuck if you have potential, except for people who want to use that potential for their own gain? We don’t exist to be a vessel for potential. We exist merely because we were born to exist.

“My life has no purpose,” doesn’t mean you need to find an all-consuming passion to give your life meaning. Life doesn’t really need to have a grand meaning, that’s just something human beings decided. You can still live a fulfilling life just by focusing on what you like now.

“I’m nobody.” Why do you need to “be someone” in the first place?? Everyone is always trying to be somebody, what’s so bad with just enjoying yourself and your friends and good food and laughs, without any expectation of being a person that others can identify and judge?

Conclusion: Self-love can have many benefits, but sometimes it has foundations in toxic productivity culture, capitalistic ideals, and an unhealthy pressure for us to be socially and financially valuable. In those situations, it’s best to just throw away the whole suitcase and realize that you don’t need to be judging your existence based on made-up ideals.

I feel like I’m always holding back when it comes to self expression in any form because I feel like the circumstances always need to be perfect. Is the blog audience appropriate enough, do you know what you are talking about enough, do people want to listen enough, are you really that exciting enough? Enough with the enoughs, at the end of the day I don’t even really care about these things. At the end of the day the majority of the joy in this will be in the writing and creating, and in the years later looking it over and laughing. It really isn’t about those other things. Say people do end up liking what I have posted? Well ya know we can cross that bridge when we get there sort of thing. Hiking, social working; it may not be everybody’s thing but they’re my things and that’s entirely okay. Another enough question that did just float by is: “is this private enough?”. Well that enough needs to be considered. 

sennarelax

 Terme Di Saturnia, Tuscany

A gorgeous lakeside spot deep in the Otago region of New Zealand’s South Island.

1979

it WAS for him