Resenting Yourself For Where You Aren’t Won’t Change Where You Are.

i want to be so kind it echoes backwards in time and undoes the things that hurt you. i want to be so kind it radiates from me. i want to be so kind that i make someone else find faith in humanity again. there’s not much i can do, i’m small and weak and i only know so many words. but i know i can be kind. and sometimes, i believe, that changes the world.

Sad Girl Hour

Do you ever feel like you are never going to find the right person? Like love is not going to be a subplot in your life’s movie? If so then I feel you. For the past two days I've beating myself over not being pretty enough, or not having enough experience compared to my friends and family. I am 19 years old and have never had my first kiss. Never been in any type of relationship either. Most of the time it does not bother me, but there are moments out of the blue that just hit me. Im reminded of my shyness and my awkward tendencies and I berate myself. No one is unloveable except Hitler and the like but this isn't the post for that. Love is so complicated. My biggest fear is being alone. Ironic because I isolate myself from everyone I'm close with because I also fear rejection. How do some people my age have everything figured out? I don't comprehend how people can be so open with others. This is a very depressing first post but I just wanted to let you know that if you feel the same way, you are not alone. I hope you don't feel this way, but if you do, I pray that it passes quickly. Stay Beautiful loves. 

School Mindset

how to get into the academia mindset and look forward to romanticizing school and studying, while making it more enjoyable

1) Spice up your uniform, by adding jewelry, perfume, hair accessories and keeping your uniform neat and tidy

2) Bring a book to school every day, even if you don’t read it, you can feel like rory gilmore :)

3) Choose your personality for the year, but don’t forget to be yourself at heart. You can be mysterious but also be yourself around the friends you make.

4) Study hard for tests, light a candle when doing so and write by the warm flickering glow.

5) Make a playlist for your journey to and from school, including your favorite music and some of the songs which set you up for the day.

6) Get up a little earlier (unless you are like me and physically can’t get up until you are at least 10 minutes behind schedule) to make sure you can spend time on your hair or makeup if that’s something you enjoy.

7) Try your best to be confident, and be friendly to people around you. At least be approachable as this will help you gain real popularity and not just the fake type.

8) Enjoy every moment and romanticize every detail in your day, from the rain on the windows of your school while you study in chemistry, or laughing with your friends over lunch.

9) Make an effort to switch up your study location, for example in a coffee shop, a park, or a library.

10) Enjoy yourself, because your education experience (although you learn throughout your life) doesn’t last forever. make the most of it while you can, and make memories that stay with you forever.

ps. don’t take yourself too seriously :)

I feel so left out. I don’t know why, but I feel as though people don’t actually like me. So I slowly distance myself from people and eventually I have no friends.

“One day it just clicks… You realise what is important and what isn’t, you learn to care less about what other people think of you and care more about what you think of yourself. You realise how far you have come and you remember thinking that things were such a mess they’d never recover and then you smile. You smile because you’re truly proud of the person you have fought to become.”

— Unknown

What other people think and say about you is none of your business. The most destructive thing you would ever do is to believe someone else's opinion of you. You have to stop letting other people's opinions control you.

— Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me for I, too, am fluent in silence.

R. Arnold

imagine, you’re in paris. la vie en rose is playing as you’re watching the rain pour from your window, looking at the eiffel tower, sipping on a glass of rosé, preferably with your love.