I Am Nothing In My Soul If Not Fucking Dumb

i am nothing in my soul if not fucking dumb

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

(through gritted teeth) i love being out of my comfort zone it is necessary for my personal development

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

Earth is just too loud, i wish i could go to the moon

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

why am i the way that i am and why is this the only perspective i’ll ever fully see through and why is every day a struggle and why is grief forever and why is everything getting more and more expensive and why is there no version of the future that feels right

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athenaschosenhuman

2 months ago

This is the kind of love I want. The ability to just talk and talk and talk until eternity, slow, soft love. Love that's kind.

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

the moon? a very good friend. very supportive and lovely. always ready to listen to me,, thank u moon

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

me and the followers i pulled by saying nothing and sharing other peoples pretty images

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

Heyy, I love ur content and can I request a Web weaving of being alone or loneliness? Thankyou <3

" 'So who's the strange one?' I grinned. / 'I don't know,' he said, and then shrugged. 'Sometimes I think if nobody spoke to me, I'd never speak again.' / 'That sounds sad.' / He blinked. 'Oh, yeah.' "

Screengrab from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower." A teenage boy wearing a suit sits in front of his bed. He has his hands clasped together and leans his head down against them as he cries.

"I do exist, don't I? It often feels as if I'm not here, that I'm a figment of my own imagination. There are days when I feel so lightly connected to the earth that the threads that tether me to the planet are gossamer thin, spun sugar. A strong gust of wind could dislodge me completely, and I'd lift off and blow away, like one of those seeds in a dandelion clock."

"I don't feel guilt at being unsociable, though I may sometimes regret it because my loneliness is painful. But when I move into the world, it feels like a moral fall-like seeking love in a whorehouse. Even more, I somewhere take my unsociability as evidence of my 'seriousness,' a quality which I take as necessary to my existence as a moral being. What a strange set of assumptions, as I now [...]"

Screengrabs from "The Double." A young man sits across a set of seats on a train.
In the first picture, a light from above illuminates the train. The caption reads: "Because I know what it feels like..."
In the second picture, the light has been turned off. Heavy shadows fall from the left side that cover most of the man and the chair. The caption reads: "...to be lost and lonely / and invisible."

"You're addicted to loneliness and desperation. It's the strongest emotion you've ever known, so your subconscious tells you that it's your destiny."

"as if i didn't birth loneliness / my damn self from all my damn wanting // - Taylor Steele, from ‘Shocker,’ published in Crab Fat Magazine"

"I will never forget the loneliness I knew as a child. / For a period of my life I hid behind a mask. Did not want to acknowledge any longing. / Now it is a part of me-something I can share. / Both the loneliness and the longing."

i hope you're doing well <33

Alice Oseman Radio Silence / The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012) dir. Stephen Chbosky / Gail Honeyman Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine / Susan Sontag As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 / The Double (2013) dir. Richard Ayoade / Heather Havrilesky Ask Polly: Help, I'm The Loneliest Person In The World! / Taylor Steele Shocker / Amy Dunne

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

sometimes you just gotta sit in your room and watch ghibli movies as you feel your heart overflowing with love for the little but overwhelmingly beautiful things this life can give us

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

i couldn’t help but to be disappointed in everyone, especially me. I didn’t knew anyone, i don’t know anyone. I don’t know how ti talk to them.

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

i always convince myself i dont sound that weird and then i go out in the world and get involved in anything longer than transactional small talk and its like ohhh thats right ive only been hanging out with gay people who speak in riddles

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