feat. Zhongli x Reincarnated!GN!Reader | FINALE | wc. 5.1K
Based on 'See You In My 19th Life' | overview. this webtoon follows the story of a woman who somehow can remember all her past lives.
sum. there's always a factor chaining you from falling in love, usually you can never be bothered, but with Zhongli in your life you may have to pin down the source of your hesitation and possibly unlock new secrets from the consultant
cw. spoilers for the recent 3.4 update and intended inaccuracy of the lore
note. tumblr is so high it auto posted this on January๐๐
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PART I < PART II < PART III (finale)
Strange, Zhongli really is the epitome of an oddity. You don't know if he was previously a magician or he simply knows how to make Mora appear out of thin air. Either way, you get freebie whenever he accompanies you in your untimely stroll
Though every freebie means a reward for saving his ass from getting scammed. The amount of times he hands off Mora to a person, who clearly has insidious motives, without second thought pales in comparison to the age of the late Archon.
You thought being friends with Hu Tao has taught him something, but clearly he's an airhead at heart when it comes to money.
Then came a particular day when you and Zhongli stroll in the streets of Liyue, you both passby a travelling storyteller who's halfway of retelling the tale of the lone warrior who sacrificed their life to save a Goddess.
". . .they were heavily guarded and fought neither for the Seven Seats nor to survive. Lady Guizhong also wrote in her tale that they were buried somewhere in the Guili Plains to commemorate the Lone Warrior's good deeds."
Eons of living can grant you insurmountable patience and restraint from spitting unfiltered comments that a person may take umbrage, you thoroughly believed you've mastered those skills long ago, if you slip a crack then you'd almost be an oxymoron.
"Bullcrap."
. . .You are a moron, after all.
You gained an immediate reaction from the consultant beside you who perched an eyebrow, seemingly intrigued.
You cough between your fist, "I don't intend to vilify Liyue's folklore, but that was straight up flawed."
Coming out as a bumptious person is the last thing you want now that you've gotten a new ally, but they were talking about you, more precisely about your past life as a swordsman.
Who knows someone better than themselves? And for Achon's sake why do they have to dub you as the Lone Warrior? Ugh, now you can sympathize what Diluc feels being called Darknight Hero. Yes, you know about his alter ego, can't fool a master disguiser.
"Why do you believe otherwise?"
"Huh?" When you gaze up at him, you saw the same intensity in his eyes when you first met him as he reiterated the question.
"O-Oh. . . sorry, I just didn't expect you to be open-minded when I literally called a famous Liyue story bullcrap."
The corners of his lips tugged up in a curious smile, "Let's assume we share the same thoughts, and I want to hear yours."
You didn't understand what he meant but his compelling voice made you speak your innermost knowledge of history without a shred of a doubt, "Most content of the tale is accurate since it was written by the Goddess herself, from the description of their appearance, their background, and deeds before the spark of the Archon war, it's all veridical. However, the part where the Warrior is buried somewhere in the Guili Plains is what makes it erroneous."
"How so?" Zhongli queried almost immediately when you paused for a second to construct the proper words without offending the anyone who opposed your opinions.
"First and foremost, the Lone Warrior was never buried in the first place, for their body was nowhere to be found amongst the corpse of the warpath. Instead of saying they were buried, Lady Guizhong built a stone slab in the Guili Plains to commemorate the Warrior however, due to the circumstances of the Karmic Dept, the slab is most likely destroyed from the uncontrolled rampage of a Yaksha."
As far as you can reckon, the Yaksha who destroyed the slab must have died feeling guilty for eradicating the one memoir of the Lone Warrior. At that time, it was all a speculation from you who knows what the Yaksha must be feeling, but now all of it don't matter.
Saving Guizhong is a choice you've never regretted, Morax felt happy and contented in her presence, it's enough to suffice everything. A simple stone slab won't change your standpoint, even without one you'd gladly do it for the second time.
"What about you, Zhongli? You said we. . ."
Your voice slowly fades away with the wind to carry out amongst the trees and may Barbatos hears this conversation to let him know he had found his Y/N.
He had always imagine what sort of interaction happens between two bards, given the fact you've once told him you play the lyre when you were a child, he's eager to see you in action.
"Hmm, as I thought, we do share commonity in the matter."
That piqued your interest, "Pray tell."
You've never met anyone who's well versed in history like you do.
"I also believe the Lone Warrior never had their deserved burial, but Guizhong made it possible to tell the tale of the mortal who made saved her life. While I personally think they're righteous, it still baffles me why would they sacrifice themselves for someone they're not well acquainted with."
You awkwardly laugh at his astute observation, feeling the perspiration forming on your forehead. Historians often ask the same inquiry; why did they save Guizhong? The tale itself didn't hold any answer for that, and a handful of Liyue citizens doubt the honor of the Lone Warrior because of thisโ Zhongli is one of them.
"Regardless of their intention, the Lone Warrior has my respect, for their sacrifice has led for another woman's salvation, it is nothing to be easily disregarded." Zhongli added, taking a few steps ahead.
"I've noticed how you accolade the people of the past, especially their noble hearts and their contribution to Liyue. It almost sounds like it's what you do to your. . . umm, deceased loved ones."
His eyes bleaked, for a moment you thought you crossed a line, but he spoke in a solemn voice, "I have actually, I've lost so many good people over the years, but I've learned to move on and look back in the past with a smile."
Yeah, you definitely crossed a line just there.
Your eyes find purchase on your shoes, "You're a strong man, Zhongli. I can only imagine how you managed to do that. Is that one of the factors you decided to become a consultant?"
He seemed to hesitate to answer, as if contemplating his thoughts first, ". . .I wouldn't say it's a defining factor, but yes."
"Do you ever look back to your loved ones without. . . hurting as much as it did on the first time?"
"It's a good thing to remember someone who meant a lot to you, but if the memory of that person is making you suffer, you need to let them go. You might feel guilty at first, but after a while you'll be able to think of them again without hurting nor feeling guilty."
Just then, a fierce wind struck and swept through their bodies. The dry leaves that hung from the branches rustled loudly as moonlight illuminated. Zhongli, who silently looked towards the clamoring branches, murmured in a low voice only for your ears.
"Do not rush yourself to move on, everyone has different pace. It might take you years or decades, even centuries and I'll still be with you, so do not worry about going through this alone."
Did you hear that? It's the sound of your heart thundering.
Before you know it, you were giggling to yourself.
Your laughter bubbles up from between your lips like a clear spring, unrestrained peals of genuine amusement. The sound is so mellifluous, he almost canโt find it in him to comprehend that it came at his expense. It makes him feel special.
"It makes me think how old you really are, you sound like you've been living for thousands of years." You jested. "You're not wrong." He promptly followed. What...? That must've been a joke, eh?
"You sure do know how to do your job. I felt better after hearing that. Thank you, Zhongli."
One moment you were facing him, the next you're suddenly squashed against his chest as he cages you in his arms protectively. Not a good position to be in when your heart began to pump rapidly as his scent rubbed on you.
You were about to ask him what was the matter when you heard an audible and heavy thump behind you followed by a burst of the Geo element. Zhongli looked down on you.
"I apologize for my action, but your life was on the line, so I acted out of instinct." Yet he doesn't make any indication to let you go any time sooner, his hold on you only tightens.
You hid your flushed cheeks by coughing, "I'm not made out of glass, I can handle myself perfectly fine." Yet you didn't move from where you are and held onto his clothes.
"Correct, a few slimes are no big deal, but I can't take any compromises when it's comes to you, Y/N."
"I-If you have time to flirt then just get on with the slimes." You demanded with a huff. You should've seen how he had looked like a lost puppy, "But I wasn't flirting with you, I'm merely expressing my thoughts regarding about you."
"That's even worse!" You exclaim, having no courage to look at him.
That night felt like some distant memory, some dream too far for him to grasp. He thought of your eyes, shimmering in the light of the moon, of your laugh, loud and joyous.
He could picture you perfectly, the warm orange of the lanterns lighting half of your face while the cool light of the moon illuminating the other side.
And it's not a secret he's enamored with you. Even Xiao can deduce the subtle smile everytime your name is mentioned. He hasn't seen an ardor look on him for hundreds of years, it felt anomalous to see him blush like a teenager.
The Traveler and the floating emergency food didn't seem to mind the two, but Paimon has been really curious about it.
If Zhongli likes you then can't he just straight up confess that in your face? Life would've been so simple if people are straightforward๐
Rough representation;
There's no concrete answer for it yet, liking Zhongli more than what you two are amidst the process of your healing would seem like he's taken you out of pity.
You don't want that type of relationship. You opt to sort yourself before consulting your mixed feelings you have with the consultant.
And by that literally means;
"You want to accompany the traveler in Jueyun Karst?" You responded with a resigned sigh.
Each day spent with him only shows a fraction of how ridiculous you probably sound to a youthful man.
Everyone in Liyue knows no mortal can get in Jueyun Karst, even if they did there would be no merit to achieve unless you're seeking for a beautiful view of the clouds.
"Yes, the adepti Ganyu had gone missing for days, the traveler asked me if I know the shortest way to Jueyun Karst, and I proposed to be their guide."
Lies.
The traveler is capable of navigating their way to Jueyun Karst.
In fact, they already left this morning and it's noon as you speak.
You only used that excuse to skedaddle your way out of the dilemma you got yourself into. You need the cortisol to die down. And that won't happen if the said dilemma is with you (e.t. Zhongli)
"Hmm. . . so, you've been in Liyue before yet you still accepted my offer to give you a tour." His statement gives off an accusatory tone, but his lopsided grin tells you otherwise.
You shot him a sheepish smile. "How can I let the opportunity of conversing with a handsome man go to waste? There's a reason why I'm an adventurer, Zhongli."
He shakes his head, "How long you'll be away?"
"Not that long, I'd say only a few hours. Why? Are you going to miss me?"
You only meant it as a joke, you didn't think he'd take it seriously.
"Yes."
You see, this is the reason why you want to avoid him.
Hah! In the end, you found yourself winded up somewhere in Yujing Terrace. You heard Glaze Lillies bloom in this area, it reminded you of My. Tianheng where a field of Glaze Lillies can be found everywhere.
"Another flower is blooming, such a beautiful sight, if only life can be as beautiful as these Glaze Lillies." You nearly yelp at the sudden voice speaking near your ear and reeled back.
"Oh, dear. I'm sorry if I had scared you." An aged lady with her gray hair tucked in a low bun spoke. "I'm fine. . ."
"Call me Madame Ping. You look quite familiar to me, child. Are you perhaps the adventurer the Wangsheng consultant was talking about?" You crane your neck at her question.
"U-Uh. . . if you're talking about Y/N L/N then yes, that would be me. May I ask what made you so certain it's me?"
"Ah! He hasn't stopped talking about you since he visited this place. That man is so stoic looking, but when he hears your name it looks like he's a different man all of a sudden."
You closed your eyes, inhaling deeply through your nose in any attempt to bring your nerves down. You had heard those words on multiple occasionsโ that Zhongli was different around you, that he cared for you like he cared for no one else. There had been a few times where that statement rang true. Some that don't.
Zhongli felt like a breath of fresh air, a sunshine on a cloudy day, a tall mountain summit from afar. You loved the way he listens to your beliefs, you loved the way he trusts you with his secrets and experiences, you loved the way he deeply cares to others, you love the way he seemed to brighten up every room he walked into.
Goddamn you love everything about that man!
Even his stupidity to pecuniary is lovable.
Somehow he managed to bring joy to the same place you always associated with agonyโ every corner of the place was happier with him around.
It's no wonder you feel something that can only be named as infatuationโ a feeling you once harbored towards Morax, but failed to realize it until your death.
But that had been so long ago, back when you were a little kid determined to become an adult. Now you're an adventurer with a thousand adventures under your belt. Now you were strong and experienced and prepared. And yet, you're still hesitating. Why?
"What seems to cause your inner turmoil, child?"
Your breath hitched and your intake became shallow, it feels like being reborn again. An advantageous thing about reincarnation is that you get to experience love in many forms, mainly familial love.
It was your gateway from the gripping anxiety you feel whenever you overhear hearsay in your town about Morax.
But not once did a family ever asked you for your problems, it's not their fault being unaware of your curse and if they did ask you would've probably non the wiserโ it was because they don't share the same sentiment having to live for thousand years.
With Madame Ping, you feel so inclined to relay your thoughts as if you're indeed a child ranting problems with your mom, something about her just puts your mind at ease. And you only just met her not too long ago.
You took a deep breath and tore your gaze from the Glaze Lillies, "There's this man that I fostered feelings for, since I started liking him. . . I always felt like I'm standing over burning charcoal. Do you know what that feels like? Not being able to stop my feet from moving even for a moment. I can't run. I want to, but there's something holding me back."
"Hmm, that sounds too complex," she sighs, "then again, being young has many complexities just as we adults have. With the way you're describing it, I won't say it's holding you back, child."
You lifted your gaze at her, confusion now painted your features.
"If I were to put it, you're simply tangled up in your past."
"W-Whatโ"
"And you need closure if you want to face your feelings head on."
A closure? Is that what I'm missing? Should I vent my pent up feelings? Ugh. . . Will that really help?
Sensing your dubious demeanor, Madame Ping smiled, "You do not need to heed my words. I'm simply offering a suggestion."
"No, I'll consider it. In fact, I think it's the best course to deal with this. Thank you, Madame Ping!"
And so you dash from the place in search of something.
You run pass the vast greenery of viridescent grasses and colorful wildflowersโ a meadow, where you'd usually go for meandering while accompanied by the evening breeze or gilding sunlight. It was perfect setting of tranquility for a maladaptive daydreamer like yourself. You'd imagine yourself laying down and naming the constellations that coincidentally appear in the sky, or count the exotic birds that flew by, or hum a tune that's been lost in history.
Looking at you now versus your past self equates for hypocrisy.
An amalgamation of both morose and agitated countenance now marred your features. Any person who sees you would imagine how tumultuous your life has been, it's nowhere near nirvana.
Trembling as you arrived at your destination, you stand in front of Morax's statue and traces the meticulous handwork with the pads of your fingers. The entire place feels like him, as though youโre with him at arms reach, but too far to actually hold him.
"It's really pathetic how I try so hard to move on, only to come back to you when something is amiss in my life," you murmured, "but I'm not here to endlessly whine about every misfortune in life, I want to release this feeling in order for me to be appeased."
You heaved a deep breath.
"I love you, Morax. I still do. No amount of flowery apologies can fix the damage I made for stalling my confession to you. I was young and had a plethora of uncertainties that made me second-guess myself. I guess. . . the guilt of leaving you pushed me to the brink of watching over you throughout my consecutive reincarnations, I wanted to make sure you were happy. And now, I want to be happy too. I feel happy with Zhongli and I don't want to make the same mistake of hesitating then later regret on it."
Some days your sadness was a mild lisp. It barely scratched the surface of your voice, but today melancholy had waged a full scale assault on your vocal chords.
"I've decided I'll confess to him, not today, I still need to build the courage to face him. I'm thankful for the time we spent our earliest days together, truly I am, but it's time for me to move on. One day I will look back on our childhood and say 'I love you' once more without the lingering ache in my heart. I'll never stop coming back to you, Morax. . . so, instead of bidding farewell, I'll see you later."
It felt good to vent your feelings out that you nearly cried that day as you walk back in Wangshu Inn and now you're ready to confess your feelings to the consultant whenever you're ready. And whether he'll accept it or not is entirely up to him.
"Are you free this , Y/N?" A strange look obscured the consultant's face, what's even more strange is the fact he's not even looking you directly.
"Yes. . .?" Something tells you he's not in a good mood.
Crap. . . someone give him Mora! ASAP!
"I wish to speak with you alone. Will you come with me in Mt. Tianheng?" Asked the consultant who seemed a bit on edge this evening after you came back. His spurious stone cold expression obnubilated akin to the look of a man who's gearing up for war.
His ominous mien warranted your logic to say no to him, but you're too far on the line of sanity to even refuse the man you like. "Sure."
>> TIMESKIP. . .
You thought not confessing early to Morax before your death was the worst decision you've ever made. Think again, 'cuz this is most definitely the worst, baddest and stupidest decision ever.
You never made it a point to come back to this placeโ it brought back a storm of memories, some of which were more comfortable being shoved to the recesses of your mind and be kept there for eternity. But for whatever reason, you feel inclined to follow him and disregard the uneasiness of returning in Mt. Tianheng.
Zhongli has been strangely quiet all the way here, at this point he'd be randomly stating facts, not be a complete mute-walking pillar.
Thus, you suck up your inner turmoil and deal with it instead of fleeing right off the bat.
"You're strong for keeping your head up this far." He accolades suddenly to particularly no one, except if he was referring to you.
"Me?"
He comes to an abrupt stop and finally, FINALLY faces you. And shit do his visage screams he's not playing around. He's not here to be buddy-buddy with you. He looks genuinely distress.
About what though?
. . .
. . . . .
. . . . . . .
Oh. . .
Oh no!
Did he see through your lies earlier? That you're supposed to be with the traveler in Jueyun Karst? Double shit! Not good!
A thin sheen of sweat accumulated on your forehead as you try to come up with an excuse, "U-Uh. . ." but came up with nothing.
You mentally prepared yourself for a parade of admonishing words from Zhongli, you genuinely thought he's going to nitpick on why you shouldn't have lied to him and probably question the motives behind your action. At least that's what you thought.
"This guilt is unbearable even for an immortal."
"Yes, I know I lied about going with the traveler inโ. . . Huh?"
What?
His eyes seemed to shine brighter than the stars as he stares deeply into yours. You sense an underlying promise in those determined orbs, it instilled the feeling of anticipation and anxiety.
"I am Morax."
The air suddenly became suffocating for YOU. Breathing gets hard. Thereโs this feeling in your chest thatโs gnawing through your body, affecting your every movement.
Conflagrated flames and scalding ice, the physical feeling tied up in all the emotions that seem to leak from ZHONGLI'S featuresโ fear, hope and adoration churned his guts.
An unkempt strand of your hair overshadowed your eyes from Zhongli's standpoint. It seems as though he made the decision that'll compromise the friendship he had built with you.
Being the bearer of the knowledge of your reincarnation didn't come easy for an immortal who's supposed to be imposing as a mortal.
Ever since he saw you paying respect for his passing, his instinct is blaring at him to tell you his true identity. Though he has to admit it's not entirely his gut-feel that added a major factor of what he had done nowโ it was his selfishness, yet again.
He had gone through multiple scenarios of what your reaction may be; Would you laugh at his face? Are you going to dismiss his claims and think it's a prank? Will you run away from him?
Not like it matters to him.
You can do all of those and he'd still want to be with you.
Heck! He knew you were telling a fib about your involvement in the Traveler's quest and it didn't change his feelings for you.
". . ."
As crickets filled his ears, he takes a feeble step forward and spoke in a solemm voice, "You must have a lot of questions, I can guarantee to answer all of them but know that it was never my intention to prolong your suffering by hiding my identity."
He knows.
He GODDAMN knows!
Your words broke up and all you could mutter were stuttering sounds. Hot tears streamed down your face, and squeezed your eyelids shut in the hope the tears would stop. Your choppy breathing and watery eyes remained for quite some time as stand there unmoving. What else is there to say?
Before you know it, both of your shoulders were grasped in a firm but gentle grip of gloved hands. There's so many mixed feelings stirring in a boiling pot, and you can't make out a definite conclusion until you arrive in some sort of resulting point.
Are you angry for his decision to play dead? Betrayed he kept this from you? Pained that he didn't trust you? Relieved that he's really alive in the flesh? Happy that he knows it's you and you don't have to pretend around him? Which is it?
Amidst all the chaotic thoughts, you still feel safe in the presence of Zhongliโ Yes, Zhongli. You hate how it feels so warm, you hate how you want to bask in his embrace, you hate the solace you find yourself in when he's around even in your worst time. Just then, similarly back in Inazuma, the sky shed tears to empathize your mourning heart. The heavens really find your suffering amusing.
In your haze vision, he was moving his lips but the words fell on deaf ears, your sense of hearing refuse to comprehend the meaning behind his statement. It's probably for the best.
Zhongli, the ever so keen who promptly took notice, snaked his arms around your shoulders and pulled you in a somber embrace and gently placed your head in his chestโ an act of shielding you from the dangers of the world and offers you a safe haven.
The veil dropped and walls crumbled.
Your feeble hands grasped his flaunting waistcoat like a helping hand. Your scream synchronises with the thundering and the minimum space between you muffled the cries. Your undecipherable emotions echoes with the storm like a reflection on the mirror.
And everything leads to the man desperately clinging to your bare fingers on the cliffside of a bottomless pit you dug yourself into.
"Look at me."
Compelled to do so, you lifted your blurry gaze. A Geo Archon known for his wisdom and strength, is standing in his barest version. The version of a man who weeps only in the presence of whom he loves and trusts.
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"Z-Zhongli. . ."
A single index finger met your quivering lips, "Shh. . . The rain isn't stemmed from sadness. So get drenched, and be refreshed. I hope it washes away the hot bitterness felt by your heart. When that hurt washes away, let's return home together."
". . . Together? It sounds surreal. . . I don't want to believe it."
"May I kiss you for proof?"
You're too absorbed in the heat of moment that every rational decision flew out the window, but maybe the most rational thing to do is to indulge yourself.
You nodded, with your permission Zhongli has never been the happiest till this day.
His lips descended on yours with fervor, immediately you can feel his desperation, his love, his determination, his griefโ it's overwhelming it almost knocked you on your feet. Quite fortunate he has his hand on your back to keep you steady while the other is on your cheek as he drowns you in his presence.
You feel hot, it's unusual during the rain shower, but the hypnotic intimacy he applies in his action takes your breath away.
Heat pooled in your stomach, the prospect of kissing Zhongli is something you didn't know you'd be craving for more and your heart skipped a few beats.
Your whole body tingled, the feel of his towering frame leaning on you as he encased you in his arms felt like you're ascending to Celestia.
Albeit slowly, you felt yourself gradually being pulled up to the surface accompanied by the hands of your savior.
It still wasn't clear if he's dreaming this moment, but there was raw emotion in the way you weave your fingers through his free tresses and caress his scalp. Zhongli kept his eyes half open, sneaking a guilty glance at you every time he comes back for air to assure himself this isn't a product of his imagination.
He doubts the authenticity of it all. He's not sure if nature rooted for this moment or if Celestia tricked him into this perfect present to appease his guilt, but every passing second makes him want to stay in this illusion and for the first time in eons, he felt like a little dragon discovering new treasuresโ he discovered you yet again.
Slowly, the pull apart, chest heaving and face flustered.
Zhongli suddenly felt more guilt, he had acted out of the line and kissed without properly courting you, not so gentlemanly. The smile on your face, however, eased the guilt in his heart and subconsciously mirrored your smile, it was simply contagious.
"It's really you, huh? I can't believe I didn't realize it was you." You placed your palm on his cheek as to reassure your sanity, in response he leaned impossibly closer to your hand.
"Words cannot describe how much I want to expose myself to you, and how apologetic I am for staging my death. Had I've been aware of your existence and your knowledge of the past, I would have come up a different solution and not cause you more pain."
Yeah, it really is him. No other man can look after your feelings like he does, and there's no other man lovable as him.
"I really want to ask how did you know, not only of my reincarnation, but also my awareness of my previous life. Is it because you were a former Archon?"
Heaving a deep sigh, he pressed his forehead on yours, his fingers traverse down the corner of your lips until it wipes away from what it looks like the remnants of your tears.
"I don't need to be an Archon to know it's you. Your kindness, compassion and everything beautiful will always attract me no matter what form you may take. No other being can impersonate someone so precious as you, Y/N. It's why I knew it was you the moment you wear your heart on your sleeve."
Times like this always reminds you why you fell for him so hard.
"As for your memories of the past. . . you weren't exactly being cautious of your words when you were speaking to my statue. No normal mortal has ever called me Morax other than you."
Oh. . . you were rather grateful for it.
"So, you're saying I'm not normal to you?"
"Y/N, reincarnating while retaining your memories is not exactly a trait of a standard normal mortal." He does have a point.
"Hey, look. The rain has stopped."
Hands adorned of scars, bruises and wounds that once grasped the pointed end of every sharp edged rocks are now held by the calloused hands of another fighter.
You watch as the lustrous moon rose up the sky, pride was balm from its full fledged form, exuding sufficient fulguration for the inky night and the prodigious number of stars turned into extraordinary bright white hued after the rain. For the first time, the deepest somber night just came out of its humble abode.
He kept his eyes on you and his forehead glued on yours, it looks like he's not planning on letting you go any time sooner, "Indeed, it seems like your heart has eased up too."
"Yes, and I have you thank for that." You gently grabbed the wrist caressing your face and rubbed figures of eight. "Thank you for having the courage of revealing your true self, it have me the right to courage to fess up what's on my mind."
You pulled away from his embrace and took his hand on yours, you can feel his burning eyes fixated on your actions, "I never got the chance to confess everything when I was dying in your arms. I thought it was for the best, but I'll say it now."
Watching you straighten your spine, Zhongli couldn't hide his anticipation. He has vague idea what you mean, but he didn't want to keep his hopes up, so he remained calm and let you continue.
"I love you. Whether you're known as Morax, Rex Lapis, Zhongli or any other names, I'm hopelessly in love with you because to me you're the dragon who kept me safe from the dangers and prioritize me over your own happiness. You're my first friend, my first confidant, my first partner in crime, my first protector, my first crush and most importantly, you're my first love. You're my every first, and you'll be my very last."
Every joyful feeling known to man hit Zhongli like a meteor and he couldn't help himself to claim your lips once again. This time he was more gentler and more on conveying his overjoyed expression. The kiss was brief as he pulled away immediately.
"I have always adored you, Y/N. Your death nor your lack of reciprocation doesn't make my feelings any different. Do you remember the promise I made? I will take you at the highest peak of the sky, I meant it literally that time, I'm more willing to fulfill that promise both literally and figuratively.bI'm grateful to have met you in my life, and I'm more grateful that you feel the same as I do. I will do my best to keep you happy, Y/N."
"Dummy! I should be the one saying that." Your eyes began to feel moisture yet again. "Would you look at us. It took us a couple thousands of years before getting to this point, it's almost laughable and Iโ ACHOO!"
". . ."
". . ."
"Let's head back. It almost slip my mind humans are quite fragile even just a few drops of rain, and your drenched clothes are not helping."
"Aren't you the one who told me to get drenched and be refreshed?" You replied sardonically, though the lovesick smile on your face betrays you.
He chuckled, "Let's continue this back home."
Home with him. It sent the elephants stomping in your stomach. Forget the fluttering butterflies!
He intertwined your fingers with his as you both walk back with goofy smiles, "Yeah, let's head home."
An idyllic hilly meadow greeted your sight as you stand tall after an arduous journey. Beside you is the prize worth of every gems in the world. As your blood-soaked hand held his, the two of you embarked a new journey towards tomorrow.
And this this time, you won't be alone. Mazes may seperate you two along the way, you'll always find your way back to each other's arms. A farewell between star crossed lovers doesn't exist, for they will meet later on at the end.
โ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. werp that will wrap up this series, I'll be working on with all of your requests and if I can insert the Xiao version of this then it's considered lucky. thank you everyone for supporting this fic, for encouraging me to continue more than one part and sharing your thoughts about it. i value comments more than anything so pls tell me what you think, I don't reply to all comments but I read all of them ๐๐
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ยฉOTAKUWORKS | FEB 2023
ur on to smth ๐
please consider; tighnari having nesting behaviour. he cannot help but want to be somewhere โฆ comfortable. safe. somewhere that smells good. consider, too, this behaviour getting even worse as his rut approaches - because of course he needs to have somewhere exceedingly soft and private to pin you beneath him and breed you and get out all of that needy energyโ
but also consider: you and he are not yet in a relationship, and though he can feel the grip of hisย โsensibleโ nature loosening, he is above all a Nice Young Man. as much as he may want to, he canโt simply drag you away for the duration of his rut and have his way with you.ย
now. his ears are sensitive; so is his nose. and the smell of you, the scent of you wafting over towards him when you lean in to give him a report of your patrol or shyly sit beside him or ask him a question โฆ itโs almost enough to push him over the edge. so what if he kept the cardigan youโd once shrugged off, complaining it was too hot (and then complaining you could never find it again). so what if he kept a towel you used to dry off after accidentally falling into the ravine when searching for lunar lotus for him - the laundry havenโt noticed itโs gone missing. itโs just one towel, rangers go through so many of them โฆ
and so what, too, if one day whilst youโre out he slips into your little tent. so what if he reaches into your laundry basket and takes a few โฆ mementos. buries his face into them, tail swishing from side to side in pleasure, ears twitching. youโll be too embarrassed to mention itโ
and itโs fine, too, if he spends his rut with one pressed against his face and the other wrapped around his cock whilst he imagines heโs fucking into you instead of his own fist, face flushed, eyes squeezed closed, his high-pitched whining caught by the fabric that still smells like you. nobody has to know.ย
this was so like i cant even describe into words the cookery
synopsis : you crushed on him for months, watched him dodge every advance like you were malware. so you dressed up a little, played a little dumberโand now heโs got you spread out in pixels and moaning in surround sound. worst part? you kinda want him to do it again.
tags/cw โ masturbation, degradation, praise kink, dacryphilia, marking, overstimulation, explicit language, filming, voyeurism, fingering, oral (f receiving), unprotected sex, creampie, squirting, rough sex, dirty talk, power dynamics, obsession, lingerie, virgin weeb satoru, questionable but effective way of seducing ur crush. 13k wc, 18+ only, minors DNI.
a/n : plz don't nitpick about how a fashion vlog shouldn't be like that bc that's the point. toru doesn't know the difference because all he watches is 2d girls
the compressorโs peaking again.
satoru squints at the waveform, drags the threshold down two decibels, then listens back to the same three-second clip of voiceover for the tenth time. itโs a podcast intro, some wannabe influencer droning about mindfulness. he doesnโt care. heโs just here to make it sound less like it was recorded in a bathroom.
โsounds like shit,โ he mutters, even though itโs clean. crisp. perfectly balanced.
it doesnโt feel right. nothing ever does. he tweaks the bitrate, checks the export codec, wonders if he should build a custom ffmpeg preset. maybe write a quick script to batch clean all future filesโsomething to shave off a few milliseconds of his life. his fingers hover over the keyboard, itching for efficiency, for control.
ping.
discord overlay glows in the corner of his ultrawide monitor, a neon-green intrusion on his meticulously organized desktop. he freezes. the notification pulses like a heartbeat.
you.
he stares at it, lets it sit there like itโs radioactive. doesnโt even remember keeping you added. your usernameโsomething stupid with a heart emojiโfeels like a splinter under his skin. he shouldโve purged his contacts months ago, but here you are, slipping through the cracks of his digital fortress.
hey. remember when u edited our project? can u help me trim some vids plsโฆ
his jaw tightens. of course youโd ask now, at 2 a.m., when heโs neck-deep in audio plugins and caffeine. his fingers hover over the keyboard, poised to dismiss you.
โno,โ he types, then erases it.
โwhat kind of vids,โ he tries, but deletes that too. too eager. too curious.
after a solid twenty-five seconds of overthinking, he finally sends:
i guess. send what you have.
he leans back in his chair, the leather creaking under his weight. his room is a cave of glowing screens and scattered energy drink cans, the hum of his overclocked pc the only sound besides his own shallow breathing. he shouldnโt care. youโre just another art student, another distraction. but his pulse betrays him, thudding a little too hard in his throat.
flashback.exe
he hated group projects. despised them. a bunch of useless art students in overpriced streetwear, trying to make films with no understanding of pacing or continuity.
theyโd fumble with premiere pro like it was rocket science, leaving him to clean up their shaky cuts and mismatched audio tracks. he always ended up doing 90% of the work, and he preferred it that way. control was his god, and he worshipped it.
but you were different.
not better. just... a different kind of stupid.
you showed up late to the editing suite, glitter pens spilling out of your bag, heart stickers plastered on your water bottle like a middle schoolerโs diary. you called the lav mic a โweird nipple thingโ and giggled when he glared at you. once, you spilled your lip gloss on the soundboard, leaving a sticky pink smear he had to scrub off with isopropyl alcohol. another time, you asked if uploading to drive made your data heavier, and he almost threw you out.
but.
you let him do whatever he wanted.
you didnโt hover or micromanage. you just sat there, cross-legged on a swivel chair, watching him cut scenes like it was magic. you leaned over his shoulder, close enough that he could feel the warmth of your breath, your wide eyes reflecting the glow of the timeline.
โwhoa... you made it feel like a real movie,โ you whispered, like heโd just parted the red sea.
you smelled like something artificial. strawberries, maybe, or some overpriced body mist from a mall kiosk. your hair was always tied with a ribbonโpink, blue, sometimes yellow, always obnoxiously bright.
he didnโt care.
he told himself he didnโt.
but he remembered. every fucking detail.
the zip file lands in his downloads with an obnoxious ka-chunk, snapping him out of the memory. he doesnโt rush. just opens it like itโs any other favor, like his heart isnโt clawing at his ribcage. the folder name stares back at him: โpls help <3โ
typical.
he clicks it open, expecting shaky iphone clips of cafes and shopping hauls. maybe some cringe tiktok dance you think is cute. heโs ready to hate it, to scoff at your lack of framing or shitty lighting.
but thenโ
you appear on screen.
not just appear. you perform.
youโre biting your lip, laughing into the lens like itโs your lover. wearing something stupidly shortโa skirt that barely qualifies as fabric, hugging your thighs like itโs painted on. you spin around in front of your mirror, the camera catching every angle, every curve, like youโre being filmed for someone else. someone whoโd appreciate it.
you pose. cock your head. giggle. the sound is loud, breathy, smiling when you speak. โdo you think this is too short?โ you ask, tugging the hem of your skirt, your fingers lingering just a second too long.
he blinks.
backs the video up three seconds.
watches again.
your laugh echoes through his headphones, a little distorted, a little too close. he pretends heโs checking the audio, tells himself itโs for sync, that heโs just doing his job. but his eyes are glued to the screen, to the way your skirt rides up as you twirl, to the flash of skin that makes his breath catch.
he watches again.
his mouth is dry, his tongue heavy against his teeth. your skirt flips up higher this time, and you gaspโlike youโre surprised, like you didnโt mean to show that much. but you donโt stop filming. donโt cover up. just... laugh, a sound that curls around his spine and sinks into his gut.
he doesnโt even realize his hand is moving until itโs there, slipping under the waistband of his sweatpants. his fingers brush against himself, and he hisses, the contact sharp and sudden. heโs already half-hard, his body betraying him before his brain can catch up. the room feels too warm, the hum of his pc too loud, but he doesnโt care. he canโt care.
he rewinds the clip again, pauses on the frame where youโre mid-spin, your skirt flared just enough to show the curve of your ass. his hand wraps around his cock, slow at first, tentative, like heโs testing how far heโll let himself go. the texture of his own skin is rough, familiar, but itโs not enough. not when itโs you on the screen, laughing like you know heโs watching, like youโre daring him to lose control.
he strokes himself, a tight, deliberate rhythm, his thumb brushing over the tip where heโs already leaking. the sensation jolts him, makes his hips twitch in the chair.
he imagines itโs your hand, your fingersโsmall, soft, probably clumsy, but eager. he pictures you kneeling between his legs, looking up at him with those wide eyes, your lips parted like they are in the video, glossy and pink and begging to be kissed. or more.
the video plays on. youโre bending over now, adjusting your hair in the mirror, your skirt riding up to expose the thin strip of your underwear. he groans, low and guttural, his hand moving faster.
the sound of your voiceโteasing, playfulโfills his headphones, and he closes his eyes for a moment, letting it wash over him. โdo you think this is too short?โ you say again, and he wants to answer, wants to growl that itโs perfect, that youโre perfect, that heโd rip it off you if he could.
his grip tightens, his strokes growing erratic. heโs not gentle with himselfโnever is. itโs all pressure and friction, chasing the edge as fast as he can.
his free hand fumbles with the mouse, scrubbing the timeline back to the moment you gasp, to the split-second flash of your thighs. he loops it, the clip stuttering in time with his breathing, with the slick sound of his hand working himself over. his cock throbs, hot and heavy, and he imagines itโs youโyour warmth, your wetness, the way youโd probably whimper if he touched you like this.
heโs close. too close.
his vision blurs at the edges, his pulse hammering in his ears. he shouldnโt be doing this, shouldnโt be jerking off to your stupid video like some desperate creep, but the shame only makes it worse, makes it sharper.
he pictures you catching him, walking in right now, seeing him with his pants down and his hand on his dick. would you laugh? would you blush? would you get on your knees andโ
he comes with a choked gasp, his hips bucking up into his hand. itโs messy, spilling over his fingers, onto the hem of his shirt. his chest heaves, his head tilting back against the chair as the aftershocks ripple through him. your laugh loops in his headphones, oblivious to the wreck heโs become.
itโs filthy. itโs desperate.
ten minutes later, heโs cleaned himself up, his hands steady again as he trims the file like a good little editor. he cuts out the shaky parts, stabilizes the footage, adjusts the audio so your voice doesnโt clip. itโs clinical now, professional, like he didnโt just fall apart to the sight of you. he names it something sterile: โvlog_cut_1.mov.โ
he exports it twice. once normally, for you. once... not. the second version is raw, unedited, every twirl and giggle preserved in crisp 4k. it gets copied to a different folder, buried in a directory labeled โshader_study_2022.โ he tells himself itโs in case you need a re-edit. a backup. thatโs all.
when you text back:
thank u!! lol i owe uuu :3
he stares at the message, his thumb hovering over the keyboard. his heartโs still racing, a faint tremor in his fingers.
he types โanytime :)โ and erases it. sends:
np.
what he doesnโt say: he rewatched the part where you bend over six times. he had his dick in his hand by the second loop. he renamed the close-up to โtest_render_asscloseup.movโ and hid it behind three layers of subfolders.
he doesnโt even like tiktok girls.
heโs into 2d, girls with big swords and bigger tits, drawn in sharp lines and impossible proportions. he once bought a dakimakura because the shipping came with a free pin, and itโs still shoved in his closet, one corner stained from a late-night mistake. real girls are messy, unpredictable, too much work. but now?
heโs thinking about the way your laugh dipped when you turned around, the way it caught in your throat like you were nervous. the way you looked into the lens like you knew someone was watching.
someone like him.
next day, you walk in like a fucking weapon.
pink fuzzy shrug, low-rise jeans that sit dangerously low on your hips, a sliver of stomach peeking out like itโs 2004. your hairโs up in a ribbonโpink, of course, swaying as you move. youโre all glitter and confidence, a walking distraction in a lecture hall full of tired students and flickering projectors.
he scoffs under his breath. โtacky.โ
but his heartโs pounding, a traitor in his chest. his fingers twitch against the edge of his laptop, betraying the calm heโs trying to project. you slide into the seat two rows ahead and twist around, grinning like a cat, like you know something he doesnโt.
your eyes catch his for a split second, bright and teasing, and he forces himself to look away.
he opens his laptop, types random garbage into a terminal windowโsome half-baked python script he doesnโt even care about. he runs a fake compile just to feel busy, to drown out the way his blood is rushing too fast.
you lean over to whisper to the girl next to you, your laugh spilling out, loud and careless. your hair tosses, and he swears he catches the scent of your perfume drifting past in invisible waves. saccharine, overwhelming, like strawberries dipped in sugar syrup.
his brain short-circuits. he snaps his headphones on, the cord tangling in his haste. not to listen to music. not to block you out.
to replay your giggle.
heโd isolated the audio last night, cleaned it up with a high-pass filter, boosted the mids to make it crystal clear. exported it as a high-quality .wav, tucked it into a folder labeled โaudio_ref.โ he tells himself itโs for study, just good reference for future projects. but he loops it now, the sound of your laugh layered over faint lo-fi static he added for texture. itโs you, distilled into a three-second clip, filling his skull.
he closes his eyes and pretends youโre saying his name. satoru, you giggle, breathy and soft, like youโre leaning over his shoulder again, watching him work. satoru, you made it feel so real.
the lecture drones on, but heโs not listening. heโs lost in the rhythm of your voice, the way it dips and rises, the way it makes his skin feel too tight. he shifts in his seat, adjusts his hoodie, tries to ignore the heat pooling in his gut. heโs not supposed to want this. not supposed to want you.
but he does.
the thing about addiction is that it never announces itself.
no dramatic thunderclap. no internal monologue screaming, ah yes, now i am a pervert. itโs quiet. insidious. it sinks in like static, crackling at the edges of satoruโs brain until heโs not sure where his old self ends and this new, wretched version begins.
itโs not like heโs not already a pervert who gets off from pixels. this simply wasnโt his brand of perversion.
that night, he stayed up longer than he shouldโve. stared at code for so long his ide crashed, the screen flickering to black as if it knew he was wasting his time. not that he got anything done.ย
he just kept switching tabsโyour final cut in vlc, some useless bash script in vscode he pretended to care about, then back to your video, the timeline frozen on that twirl, that gasp. his fingers shook when he closed the laptop, but sleep never came.
and now itโs the next day. mid-afternoon. the sun is doing that thing where it turns his apartment into a blinding box of heat and regret. his ac hums like an old man, wheezing against the sticky air. heโs sprawled in his chair, one leg slung over the armrest, staring at the ceiling fan like it might tell him how to stop.
ping.
another discord notification. he doesnโt even flinch this time. your username glows, and the filename attached makes his stomach do a weird little roll: โtry-on2_raw.movโ. his eyes linger on the heart emoji youโve tacked onto the message, like itโs a personal invitation.
hiii! ty for the last edit, ur a lifesaver <3 can u check and trim this one too? iโm trying smth new but idk if it worksโฆ lmk what u think pls!!
he clicks download. no hesitation. doesnโt even pretend to care anymore.
the file loads into his editing software like second nature, the premiere pro interface blooming across his screen. muscle memory. routine.
heโs done this a hundred timesโexcept never like this, never with his pulse hammering in his throat and his mouth already dry.
the video starts the same way as the lastโhandheld, messy lighting, your voice trailing in from offscreen as you fiddle with the camera angle. no mic, of course not. just raw cam audio, unpolished, real, every breath and rustle amplified. he leans closer, like proximity to the screen will make it less dangerous.
โokayโwait, hold on,โ you mutter, slightly out of breath. thereโs a plastic rustle, fabric scraping skin, the light jingle of a zipper. he catches the sound of your nails tapping the digicam accidentally, a faint clack-clack that makes him picture your fingers, probably painted some ridiculous color, fumbling in that endearing way you do.ย
โughโฆ come onโฆโ your voice drops, a frustrated huff, low and throaty. โmmโsorry! this oneโs hard to pull up.โ
thenโzipper slides. metal on fabric, slow and deliberate, like itโs teasing him on purpose. you let out a sigh, long, slow, just a little too satisfied, like youโre savoring the release of pressure. the sound coils in his gut, tight and hot.
he freezes.
his mouse stays hovering over the playhead, the cursor trembling slightly. blood is already rushing south, his sweatpants tightening in a way he canโt ignore. his breath catches, shallow and sharp, and the worst part?
you giggle.
โprobably got the wrong size,โ you say, tugging the dress up higher. the hem catches on your thighs, rising indecently, the fabric clinging to your skin like itโs reluctant to let go. โdonโt tell anyone i didnโt try it on in-store first.โ
he swallows nothing. jaw tight. the room suddenly feels suffocating, the acโs hum drowned out by the thud of his own pulse. your lip catches between your teeth, a flash of white against pink gloss, and the camera catches that too, lingers on it like it knows what itโs doing.
you glance at the lens, eyes half-lidded, like youโre waiting for approval, like youโre asking him directlyโdo you like this?
satoruโs fingers twitch.
one hand stays on the mouse, scrubbing the timeline back three seconds to hear that sigh again. the other hand moves before he can stop it, slipping under his waistband, brushing against the heat of his skin. heโs already hard, achingly so, the kind of hard that makes his head swim.
he wraps his fingers around himself, slow at first, testing, like heโs not sure heโs really doing this again. but the sound of your voiceโbreathy, teasingโloops in his headphones, and heโs gone.
he strokes himself, deliberate and tight, his grip almost punishing. the video plays on, and youโre stepping into frame now, the dress half-zipped, hugging your curves in a way that makes his throat burn. your thighs shift as you adjust the hem, and he imagines them under his hands, soft and warm, parting just for him.
his thumb swipes over the tip of his cock, slick with precum, and he groans, low and broken, the sound swallowed by the hum of his pc. he pictures your fingers instead, clumsy but eager, your nails grazing his skin as you try to keep up with his rhythm.
heโd guide you, show you how he likes itโfast, rough, no mercy.
you sigh again, and he speeds up, his hand moving in time with the rise and fall of your voice. โthis oneโs kinda tight,โ you murmur, tugging at the neckline, and the fabric stretches, exposing the swell of your chest.
he wants to rip it off, wants to hear you gasp for real, not for the camera but for him. his strokes grow erratic, desperate, the slick sound of his hand filling the room, obscene and unstoppable.
he scrubs the timeline back again, pauses on the frame where your dress slips, where your underwear peeks outโa thin, lacy thing that makes his vision blur. he imagines pulling it aside, imagines the heat of you, the way youโd whimper if he pressed himself inside.
heโs close, too close, his hips twitching up into his hand. the video loops your giggle, that satisfied sigh, and heโs drowning in it, in you.
he pictures you catching him like this, walking into his apartment right now, seeing him with his pants down and his cock in his hand, flushed and leaking. would you laugh? would you blush? would you drop to your knees and let him finish on your lips, glossy and perfect andโ
he comes with a muted groan, his head tipping back, eyes screwed shut as his release spills over his fingers, hot and messy. his breath shakes, a ragged exhale that leaves him hollow. the aftershocks pulse through him, and he slumps in his chair, the video still playing, your voice oblivious to the wreckage youโve caused.
he pauses the frame. your mouth is mid-word, forming the shape of โoops,โ lips parted just enough to make his chest ache. he wipes his hand on a paper towel from his desk, crumpled and stained from earlier sins. doesnโt look at himself. doesnโt think.
exports the file without touching a thing. names it โfinal_edit.mov.โ then saves another copy, the raw footage, every sigh and rustle preserved. he names it โjesusfuckingchrist.mp4โ and buries it in a folder labeled โmisc_ref.โ
he tries to normalize it.
โitโs just grading,โ he mutters the next time he opens the project, the lie sour on his tongue. โjust adjusting white balance.โ but the playback bar hasnโt moved from your thighs. he doesnโt touch the colors. not really.
he zooms in under the excuse of checking โgrain smoothing,โ but itโs just your lip, caught between your teeth, your breath clipped at the edges like youโre holding back.
he tells himself heโs just learning.
every artist has their muse, right? except now he edits to your audio. he used to play podcasts, background noise to keep his brain from spiraling.
now? your breathing is layered into the timeline, a track heโs labeled โvox_ref.โ he loops your laugh in reverse, lets it pan from left to right like itโs some surround sound experience.
โthis is practice,โ he whispers, dragging eq curves around nonsense, boosting the highs until your voice is sharp and intimate. โiโm experimenting with filters.โ
right. filters. filters until your voice sounds like itโs right by his ear, like youโre whispering in bed, your breath warm against his skin. he plays a clip of you saying โdo you like this one?โ over and over, the words detached from context.
he doesnโt even care what youโre referring to anymore. heโs got that part memorized, the way your voice dips, soft and unsure, like youโre asking him to love you.
the next class is worse.
you walk past him in that fuzzy pink shrug thing, one sleeve slipping off your shoulder, and itโs like a bomb goes off in his chest. the fabric clings to you, soft and teasing, and he wants to grab it, pull it down, see how much skin youโll let him have.
you lean down to plug your charger in, your jeans riding lowโtoo low, the kind of low that makes him wonder how theyโre even allowed on campus. he catches a glimpse of your underwear, a flash of lace, and his brain whites out.
he glares at his laptop, scoffs under his breath. โthat outfitโsโฆ desperate.โ the word feels like a blade, sharp and mean, but itโs all heโs got to keep you at a distance.
your head tilts, innocent, eyes wide like youโre genuinely curious. โyou think so?โ you say it like you mean it, like you donโt already know the answer, like you havenโt watched your own footage and seen what heโs seen.
he shrugs, keeps scowling, doesnโt look at you. his fingers grip the edge of his laptop too hard, knuckles white. behind the screen, heโs got a paused frame of you licking lip gloss off your thumb, minimized in the corner. itโs been open since he got here.
his file structure is disintegrating. he used to name things with logicโtimestamps, project codes, version numbers. now his desktop looks like a manifesto, a digital shrine to his unraveling. โvlog_tryon_final.mov.โ โedit_3alt.mp4.โ โfuckmeagain_laughcut.mov.โ thereโs a folder called โNOT work (unless)โ that he doesnโt even open anymore, too afraid of what heโll find.
he tries to draw a line, but itโs blurry. always blurry. he doesnโt know where the edit ends and obsession begins. when he dreams, he dreams about zippersโexcept theyโre not zipzers. theyโre your legs, parting slow and deliberate, your breath hitching as he pulls you closer.
a new text lights up his screen:
ย hey! idk if the last one looks goodโฆ should i redo it? it felt kinda awkward lol sorry T_T
you sound insecure, unsure, your words dripping with that self-conscious charm that makes his chest hurt. he stares at the message, his thumb hovering over the keyboard, his mind spiraling.
you donโt know, do you? you donโt know what youโre doing to him, how your voice alone is enough to make him hard again.
he types:
looks clean. donโt worry about it.
satoru watches the word clean sit there like a fucking lie. his dick twitches, traitor that it is.
he hates himself.
but he opens the raw file again. scrubs through, frame by frame, until he finds that timestampโwhere you moan, soft and accidental, like you didnโt mean to let it slip. he watches it, his headphones sealing him in with the sound of you. he exports that single second, names it โmoan_finalgodhelpme.mp4,โ and tucks it away like a secret heโll never confess.
the timeline sits open, your frozen frame staring back at him. he doesnโt close it. doesnโt want to.
it starts with static in his skull.
not the loud, electric kind that chokes you up or begs to be noticed. itโs quiet. a whir, like an old fan that never shuts off, humming behind his thoughts. when satoru drags his mouse across the screen and sees your name still on the folder, it buzzesโfaint, familiar, a sickness with your scent.
he changes the name from โNOT work (unless)โ to โARCHIVE_21,โ moves it to a different directory, pretends itโs work, or dead, or both. but the static doesnโt stop. it clings, sticky and warm, like your laugh looping in his headphones.
it doesnโt help.
not when he dreams in highlighter gloss and those half-bitten whines you make when stretching, your body arching just so. not when he wakes up rutting into damp sheets, mouthing your name like a damn prayer, his hips jerking against nothing. the shame burns, but itโs not enough to make him stop.
satoruโs trying.
really.
he takes up freelance gigs, edits wedding footage for some guy he hasnโt spoken to since second year. overlays cheesy filters, mutes the groomโs ugly laugh, syncs the vows to some overused acoustic track. itโs clean. respectable. sterile enough to make him itch, like heโs wearing someone elseโs skin. but the folderโs still there, buried in his drive like it knows heโll come back.
2:03 a.m.
his inbox pings, a sharp sound that cuts through the drone of his pc fans. your name lights up the screen, and his chest tightens before he even reads the message.
hiii satoru!! sorry for the late send, been sooo busy <3 can u take a look at this haul vid? i tried smth spicy but idk if itโs too muchโฆ lmk what u think pretty pls!!
march haul (raw).mp4
he knows he shouldnโt. thereโs no logical reason, no business context, just the weight of your wordsโspicy, pretty plsโsinking into his gut. but his hands move on their own, clicking download, the progress bar filling like a fuse burning down.
click.
of course he does.
the video starts soft, your bedroom light diffused to a golden haze, casting shadows that dance across rumpled sheets. it looks like youโve been tossing in them all day, the fabric creased and inviting.
youโre in laceโbarely. something soft pink and flimsy, a slip of fabric that clings to your curves like itโs begging to be torn off.
your thighโs out, one leg bent just enough to draw his eye, and the cameraโs angled low, too low, like you meant to frame it this way.
โgod, i hope this one fitsโฆโ your voice is breathy, a little strained, like youโre fighting the fabric. you adjust a strap, your fingers lingering on the lace, and your lip catches between your teeth, glossy and pink, a casual gesture thatโs anything but. his breath stutters, a sharp inhale that burns his throat.
โoops, sorryโtoo much cleavage?โ you laugh, not to yourself but at him.
he knows it.
his cock knows it, twitching against the seam of his sweatpants. the screen shakes as you set the camera on something unsteadyโa stack of books, maybeโand it rocks just as you turn around, hips swaying, your ass hugged by that tiny thong, the lace cutting into your skin like a claim. you glance back over your shoulder, smirk poised like a dagger, eyes glinting in the soft light.
โi bet youโd pause right here, wouldnโt you?โ
he does.
the video cuts mid-breath, and he doesnโt hear the silence. heโs frozen, hand halfway down, brain wiped clean. the frame lingers on your ass, the curve of it framed by lace, and his mouth is dry, his pulse hammering so loud it drowns out the static.
ping.
march haul (real).mp4
oops. wrong send lol. this is the real one!
his screen is still painted with the freeze-frame of your ass. his dickโs straining so hard it aches, a dull throb that makes him shift in his chair. he doesnโt respond, doesnโt move for a full minute, just stares at the message, the word oops taunting him. thenโ
he saves both files. drags them into โARCHIVE_21โ with a trembling cursor, his fingers clumsy on the trackpad. he opens the raw one again, slower this time, one hand on his lap, the other fisting his sheets until the fabric creaks.
youโre back on screen, adjusting the strap again, your laugh curling through his headphones like smoke. his hand slips under his waistband, and heโs already leaking, the tip slick and sensitive as he grips himself.
he strokes slow, deliberate, savoring the friction, but his mindโs elsewhereโon the hentai heโs spent years jerking off to, the doujins with dog-eared pages and cum-stained corners.
he pictures you like those girls, bent over and begging, your lace thong pushed to the side as he fucks you from behind, your moans louder, needier, than anything youโve let slip on camera.
he imagines pinning you to those rumpled sheets, your thighs trembling under his hands, your ass bouncing with every thrust. no teasing giggles, no coy glancesโjust you, fucked out and whimpering, his name on your lips as he buries himself deep, so deep you canโt think.
his hand speeds up, the slick sound obscene in the quiet of his room. he scrubs the timeline back, pauses on the moment you turn, your smirk sharp and knowing.
he wants to wipe it off, wants to fuck you until youโre too wrecked to smile, until youโre clawing at the sheets and sobbing his name. he imagines your cunt, tight and wet, gripping him as he pounds into you, the lace of your thong rubbing raw against his skin.
itโs not enough to watch you anymore, not enough to stroke himself to your voiceโhe wants to ruin you, wants to feel you break under him, wants to make you his in a way those 2d girls never could.
he cums with a low, breathy whisper of your name, his hips jerking up into his hand. itโs intense, almost painful, spilling over his fingers and onto the hem of his shirt.
his chest heaves, his vision blurring as he slumps back, the video still playing, your laugh oblivious to the mess heโs become. he opens it again, doesnโt touch himself this timeโjust watches, memorizes, eyes glassy and mouth parted.
at one point, he swears he moans with you, a soft sound that slips out unbidden, his body betraying him even when heโs spent. when he edits the โrealโ file, heโs a machine. no stutters, no slips, just sharp keystrokes and surgical cuts, trimming shaky frames and boosting your voice until itโs crisp.
the guilt claws at him, a dull ache in his chest, but it only makes the next orgasm worseโand better. he exports it, names it โhaul_march_final.mov,โ and saves the raw file to a new subfolder: โstills_ref.โ he doesnโt name the second copy. doesnโt need to. itโs just for him.
he plays it cool in class. โwow. another fit straight outta your grandmaโs closet,โ he scoffs as you pass, voice dripping with mockery, lips curling into something lazy and mean.
but his gaze flickersโjust once, low and quick, like heโs checking for danger. and there it is. a flash of soft pink lace against the curve of your thigh as you shift your bag higher up your shoulder. just a sliver. deliberate.
he knows that lace. knows it from the raw footage, from the way it hugged your skin under golden light. his smirk falters for half a second, a crack in his armor.
you turn your head, slow as syrup, and smile at him over your shoulder. itโs airy, innocent, ditzy enough to play dumb, poisonous enough to feel like a threat. โmm? that bad, huh?โ your voice is light, but your eyes linger a moment too long, sharp and knowing, like youโre peeling him open.
you take your seat two rows away, crossing one leg over the other with careful grace. your skirt rides up, just enough to show the edge of that lace again, and your fingers toy absentmindedly with the hem, brushing the fabric like itโs a game.
he doesnโt blink.
he knows whatโs under that skirt, knows the way that lace bites into your skin when you move just like that. heโs seen it in soft lighting, tangled with shadows and sighs. he knows, and you know, and neither of you say a word.
he canโt breathe.
his hand trembles as he grips his pen, scrawling nonsense on the corner of his notesโrandom numbers, jagged lines, anything to keep his fingers busy.
someoneโs asking a question about identity and performance, something about how we present ourselves versus how we wish to be perceived, and satoruโs already halfway to standing.
โsorry. washroom.โ his voice cracks halfway through the lie, too sharp, too rushed.
satoru stumbles into the menโs room like heโs escaping a crime scene, the door clicking shut behind him. palm flat against cold tile, forehead pressed to the inside of his wrist, he tries to breathe, tries to think of anything elseโcode, deadlines, the wedding edit heโs behind on.
but itโs you.
always you. your smile, your laugh, the lace peeking out like a taunt.
heโs already hard, already leaking, the front of his jeans tight and unforgiving. he fumbles with the button, shoves them down just enough, and grips himself, his hand shaking as he strokes.
he closes his eyes and sees youโnot the you in class, not the you playing dumb, but the you from his fantasies, the you heโs built from hentai panels and late-night desperation. he imagines you on your knees, lace thong pulled down, your cunt glistening as he fucks you against the bathroom sink.
no giggles, no teasingโjust raw, desperate need, your moans echoing off the tiles as he slams into you, his hands bruising your hips, your body arching to take him deeper.
he wants you messy, wants you marked, wants to fill you until youโre dripping, until youโre his in a way thatโs permanent.
he strokes faster, his breath hitching, his teeth sinking into his knuckles to muffle the groan clawing up his throat. he cums hard, too fast, his knees buckling as it spills over his hand, hot and shameful. he shakes, gasping, his forehead slick against the tile, and thinks of lace. thinks of lip gloss. thinks of your voice saying โoopsโ like itโs a sin.
it doesnโt take long for his desktop to become an altar.
the backgroundโs still you, a freeze-frame from the first video, your lip gloss shimmering and fingers caught mid-twist in your hair. he tells himself itโs temporary, just a visual reference.
itโs been three weeks.
folders on folders: โhauls > favs > zoom_ins > stills > pantyshots.โ โaudio_samples > moan_loop > breath_only.wav.โ โcolor tests > gloss_ref > lips.png.โ
some nights, he replays a single frame just to watch your mouth form the word โfuck,โ slows it down, isolates the syllables, pretends youโre saying his name instead.
the worst part?
youโre still pretending nothingโs changed. still calling them โfavors,โ still sending content like itโs work, like itโs nothing.
but your outfits are shorter, your giggles stick to the air longer, your eyes linger like youโre testing something. and when you purr, โyouโre sooo good at this, satoru,โ with that saccharine lilt, your voice curling around his name like a caress, he bites the inside of his cheek just to keep quiet. fists the sheets at night and prays.
he moans your name in the dark, face hot with shame, and hates how much he wants you to hear it.
satoruโs become sleep-deprived, dark smudges nesting beneath his eyes like fingerprints left behind by guilt or obsession or both. he wears his glasses more lately, less out of need and more as a buffer between him and the worldโbetween him and you.
the lenses catch the glow of his new triple-monitor setup, a sleek beast he told himself was for coding, for editing, for multitasking. not for keeping your videos looping on the side monitor while he pretends to work on the main one. not for that at all.
your folderโs pinned in quick access, a permanent fixture in his file explorer. he keeps it open in the background at all times, a digital pulse that hums alongside his pc fans. second nature now, like breathing or wanting. not unlike a shrine.
in class, he pretends to take notes, his stylus scratching nonsense on his tablet. heโs not. heโs watching a gif on his phone, hidden under the deskโa loop of your tongue dragging slow across lip gloss, eyes soft with focus like youโre painting yourself pretty just for him. the gifโs only three seconds, but heโs memorized every frame, every flicker of your lashes. his thumb swipes to replay it, again, again, until his vision blurs.
ctrl+shift+eject brain.exe.
three days pass, and you havenโt messaged. he checks your chat thread more than he breathesโopens, closes, re-opens, scrolling through your old texts like theyโll reveal something new. every flicker of hope is a false start, a phantom ping that makes his chest lurch. heโs pathetic, he knows it, but knowing doesnโt stop the itch.
then:
ping.
april haul (suits).mov
hii satoru!! new haul vid for u to check <3 tried some swimsuits this time, hope itโs not too boring to trim hehe. lmk what u think!!โ
he nearly drops his phone, his thumb smudging the screen as he fumbles to download. his new setup hums to life, the main monitor flashing with code he hasnโt touched in hours, the side monitor already open to your folder.
he drags the file into premiere, the timeline blooming across the screen, but his eyes are on the raw video, already playing on the right monitor, your voice spilling through his headphones like honey.
the videoโs different this time. the cameraโs lower, like itโs been left on a desk or shelf, pointing slightly upward to frame you from your knees to just above your head. your bed makes a cozy blur in the background, sheets tangled like an invitation.
youโre in a bikini top that isnโt trying very hard to stay on, thin strings knotted loosely at your neck and back, the fabric barely containing you. โmmm. does this scream summer, or slut?โ you giggle, feigned innocence like frosting over heat, your voice curling around the words like you know exactly what theyโll do to him.
you play with the strings at your chest, tugging, adjusting, your fingers brushing the swell of your breasts. then, softer, breathier, to the lens: โbaby, help me pickโฆโ
baby.
it breaks him all over again, a crack that runs straight through his chest. his cock twitches, already hard, straining against his boxers.
everything after that gets softer, lazier, dangerous in how intimate it feels. thereโs no performative energy nowโjust casual, candid seduction, your movements slow, like youโre not hurrying for anyone. like you know exactly whoโs watching and how long heโll linger.
when you shrug a dress off your shoulders, you sigh, the sound catching in your throat. when you twist to adjust a strap, you hum, low and absentminded. and when you struggle with a clasp at your back, your fingers fumbling, you moanโsoft, unintentional, a sound that slips out like it surprised even you.
satoruโs thumb slams the spacebar, pausing the video, rewinding three seconds to hear it again. he watches the way your lips part, the way your brows twitch, the way your body shifts like youโre chasing the sensation.
heโs already leaking, his boxers damp as he shoves them down, his hand wrapping around himself. the side monitor loops the raw footage, your moan playing over and over, while the main monitor holds the paused frame of your parted lips. he strokes slow at first, his grip tight, his thumb swiping over the tip where heโs slick and sensitive.
his mind slips to the doujins heโs hoarded, the hentai heโs spent years chasingโthe girls with flushed cheeks and desperate eyes, fucked raw and begging for more. but now itโs you, not some inked fantasy, and itโs so much filthier.
he imagines you sprawled across your bed, that bikini top ripped off, your thighs spread wide as he fucks you deep, relentless, your cunt clenching around him as you sob his name. no teasing, no gigglesโjust you, wrecked and dripping, your nails clawing his back as he takes you again and again, each thrust harder, messier, until youโre nothing but his.
his hand speeds up, the slick sound loud in his room, mixing with your looped moan. he wants you pinned beneath him, wants to feel you squirm, wants to fuck you until the bed creaks and your voice breaks, until youโre begging like those hentai girls, your glossed lips trembling as you say his nameโsatoru, please, more.
he imagines filling you, his cum leaking down your thighs, your body marked by him in ways he canโt unsee. itโs not enough to watch, not enough to strokeโhe wants to own you, wants to make you his in every way those 2d fantasies taught him to crave.
he cums hard, forehead pressed to his desk, a low groan tearing from his throat as it spills over his hand, his keyboard, the edge of his new setup. his breath is ragged, like heโs run a marathon, his glasses fogging slightly as he gasps.
the side monitor still plays, your voice oblivious, your moan looping like a hymn. he doesnโt stop the video, just slumps back, spent and shaking, and watches again, his hand twitching like itโs not done.
it doesnโt take long for his room to reek of sweat and sin.
he edits shirtless now, sometimes in boxers, always hard, always leaking. every fileโs renamed with trembling hands: โwifey_take7.mov.โ โwifey_raw.mp4.โ
he syncs your sighs to his lo-fi playlist, turns it into a lullaby, falls asleep to the sound of your breath. sometimes he slows your voice just to hear โbabyโ dragged out into velvet, makes gifs of your hands skimming your hips, kisses the screen when heโs drunk enough to forget shame.
you, on the other hand, donโt break character.
in class, you chew your pen and lean forward, the arch of your spine exact, your cleavage subtleโbarely a tease, just enough to make his throat tighten. he looks away with a clenched jaw, adjusts himself under the desk, twice, his jeans unforgiving.
you whisper to a friend and giggle, and he lipreads, thinks he sees the words โcanโt wait,โ but maybe heโs hallucinating, maybe not. it doesnโt matter.
he starts responding to the clips aloud.
โfuck yes, that one.โ โspin again, baby.โ sometimes he mumbles your name like a prayer, sometimes he chokes it into his pillow. every orgasm has your name carved into it, a brand he canโt erase.
one night, he opens a file to edit, drags it into premiere, but he doesnโt touch it. just watches, headphones in, barely breathing. not a content creator now, not a student, not even a manโjust a creature of need, and you his ritual, his muse, his goddess.
the screen shows you adjusting the straps of a silky babydoll, the lighting warm, your thighs bare, half-tucked under you as you sit prettily at the edge of your bed.
โokay, so this oneโsโฆ like, totally giving โcome to bedโ energy, right?โ you giggle, voice light, teeth sinking into your glossed lip as you bounce once, soft and natural, the fabric barely covering your chest.
satoru groans low in his throat, not even trying to hide it. โitโs giving bend over,โ he mutters, lips twitching, his side monitor looping the raw footage, his main screen frozen on your smile. โfuck, look at youโฆโ
you reach behind you, struggle with the clasp, wiggle your shoulders like youโre teasing whoeverโs behind the camera. โoof. thatโs tightโฆ should i size up?โ a breathy laugh follows, your sigh melting into it.
he licks his lips, your audio crystal-clear in his headphones. youโre right there, talking to him. โnah, baby,โ he croons, eyes fixed on the curve of your spine as you turn. โtightโs perfect. keeps the goods in place.โ
you blow a kiss at the lens. โhope youโre not bored yet,โ you say with a wink. โi saved the cutest for lastโฆโ
you bend off-frame, your ass peeking just above the edge of the bed, round and inviting in cotton panties with lace trim, and when you rise again, your hands hold something sheer and tiny. โtadaaa,โ you whisper, eyes glinting with mischief. โthis oneโs for my favorite viewer.โ
00:05:46โsatoru slams the shortcut, timestamp saved. a second later, he screenshots, then again, then again, frame by frame, until he finds the exact one where your lipโs caught between your teeth and your ass is still halfway in the air.
โfucking perfect,โ he mutters, breath uneven. he pulls the image up on his main screen, zooms in, sharpens it, runs it through noise reduction. the side monitor loops the raw video, your voice sweet and teasing, while the right monitor plays a gif of your earlier moan, your lips parted in that soft, accidental sound.
his handโs already moving, shoving his boxers down, his cock springing free, hard and leaking like itโs been waiting for this.ย
he grips himself, rough and urgent, no pretense of patience. the new setupโs perfectโyour video on the side, his code on the main screen like heโs working, but itโs all you, every pixel, every sound.
he strokes in time with your giggle, his eyes flicking between the gif of your moan and the screenshot of your ass, his mind spiraling into the filthiest corners of his hentai-soaked brain.
he imagines you on that bed, face down, ass up, the babydoll hiked to your waist as he fucks you so hard the headboard cracks. he wants you screaming, wants your cunt pulsing around him, wants to pull your hair and make you look at him as he fills you, over and over, until youโre a mess, until youโre his completely.
his strokes are frantic, his breath hitching, his hips bucking into his hand. he pictures you tied to the bed, like that one doujin he read last month, your wrists bound with those same bikini strings, your thighs trembling as he fucks you through one orgasm into the next.
he wants to cum inside you, wants to watch it drip out, wants to push it back in with his fingers and make you lick them clean. itโs not enough to jerk off anymore, not enough to dreamโhe wants to break you, wants to make you real, wants to fuck you until youโre as addicted to him as he is to you.
he cums with a choked growl, his head tipping back, glasses slipping down his nose as it spills over his hand, his desk, the sticky mess splattering his keyboard.
heโs shaking, gasping, his chest heaving as the side monitor loops your voice, your โbabyโ purring like a mantra. his wristโs sticky, his room a haze of sweat and shame, but he doesnโt care. heโs not even really here.
youโre everywhere nowโthree monitors, three altars, your image burned into his retinas. heโd worship on his knees if you asked.
the next day, another file:
april haul (closeups).mp4
sorry! idk if this oneโs helpful but i liked the shots hehe
he doesnโt unzip his pants. doesnโt need to. heโs already throbbing from the inside out, his body reacting to your name alone. he clicks, watches, kneels, and whispers your name like a benediction, the static in his skull louder than ever.
it starts with a ping.
innocuous. a single pixel shift on the main monitor mid-code, just as satoruโs debugging a script for a deadline he already missed. his side monitor hums with your last video, paused on that frame where your lipโs caught between your teeth, and the third monitorโs open to a half-finished render he hasnโt touched in days. he glances lazily at the notification, expecting another reminder from suguru to shower or eatโ
but no. itโs you.
heyโฆ do u do filming too?
his fingers freeze. heart jams, a dull thud in his chest. the cursor blinks, waiting, mocking. he doesnโt think. doesnโt breathe. his glasses slip down his nose, and he doesnโt fix them. the words burn into his retinas, and his cock twitches before he can process why.
yeah. totally. what kind of shoot?
he sends it, his thumb trembling over the enter key. no reply. not for five whole minutes. the wait is a crucifixion, each second stretching into eternity. he keeps opening and closing the chat, rereading your words like they might shift into something dirtier, something more.
his triple-monitor setup glows, your frozen frame on the side monitor staring at him, lips parted, eyes glinting. heโs already leaking in his pants, a damp spot spreading against his thigh.
then:
just a casual thing. home setup. come over?
he reads it twice. three times. his breath catches, sharp and shallow, like heโs been punched. come over. your dorm. your space. heโs hard, achingly so, his boxers tight and unforgiving. he doesnโt reply, just slams his laptop shut, grabs his camera bag, and stumbles out the door.
he shows up twenty minutes later, barely remembered to wear deodorant, definitely forgot his dignity. his high-end sony alpha mirrorlessโloaded with a lens that costs more than most peopleโs rentโbounces against his chest as he knocks. his palms are slick, his glasses fogging slightly from the heat of his own nerves.
you open the door with a giggle, wrapped in a pastel pink robe that might as well be air. it clings to the curve of your waist, parts at the thigh, revealing soft skin that makes his throat burn. your hairโs still damp, sticking to your collarbones, and the scent of vanilla lotion hits him like a drug. โthanks for coming! iโm kinda nervousโฆโ
he wants to bark out same, but his jaw locks. he swallows instead, the motion too loud in his ears. โno problem.โ his voice is gravel, like heโs choking on his own want. he steps inside, and your dorm swallows him wholeโwarm, cutesy, a pastel fever dream of plush throw pillows, fairy lights, and a pink velvet couch that looks too soft, too inviting.
heโs already imagining you bent over it, your robe hiked up, your moans echoing off the walls. it smells like you sprayed your strawberry perfume over every surface, dizzying, suffocating. his glasses fog again.
he sets up the tripod with shaking hands, the sonyโs weight grounding him just enough to keep from falling apart. you bounce around the living room, humming, fluffing pillows on the couch, fixing your gloss in a heart-shaped mirror propped against a shelf.
โdoes this lighting make me look washed out?โ you ask, stepping back, tilting your head. then you bend to adjust a lamp, and your robe parts just enough to reveal the gentle curve of your ass, bare except for a sliver of lace.
he sees. pretends he didnโt. fumbles the lens cap, twice, the plastic clattering to the floor. his face burns, but he keeps his eyes on the camera, adjusting settings he doesnโt need to touch.
you brush past him again and again, your bare arm glancing his, silk whispering across his knuckles when you pass. he smells shampoo in the air, thick and sweet, and itโs you, all you, sinking into his lungs. โyou nervous?โ you tease, voice light, a giggle curling at the edges.
he scoffs, wiping his palm against his jeans, the denim rough against his slick skin. โpfft. nah. iโve filmed worse.โ a lie, bold and brittle, his voice too tight to sell it.
โworse than me?โ you pout, stepping closer, close enough that he can feel the warmth of your breath. โouch.โ
โi didnโt say that.โ his voice cracks, a hairline fracture. heโs too aware of you, of the way your robe slips an inch, of the way your eyes glint like youโre playing with him.
you tilt your head, wide-eyed, all fake innocence. โsoooโฆ you have filmed pretty girls before?โ
he falters, breath stuttering in his chest. heโs a virgin, hasnโt touched a girl in years, hasnโt wanted toโnot when hentaiโs been enough, when doujins have been his only lovers. but youโre real, and youโre here, and youโre breaking him.
โno one like you,โ he says, unfiltered, raw, the words slipping out before he can stop them.
your lips curl, slow and sweet, a smile that says i know. โhm. figured.โ
you disappear into your bedroom for a few minutes, the door clicking shut. he pretends to adjust the white balance, tweaking settings on the sony that are already perfect, but really heโs staring at the door like it owes him salvation.
his cockโs throbbing, a dull ache that wonโt quit, and he shifts, trying to ease the pressure. the living room feels too small, the pink couch too soft, the fairy lights too intimate. heโs imagining you sprawled across that couch, your robe gone, your thighs spread, his camera capturing every gasp.
the door opens. you emerge. lingerie set, pale and sheer, a mini skirt that barely qualifies, lip gloss freshly reapplied. you look like a doll, saccharine and sinful, every curve a taunt. โcan you help me zip this?โ you turn, bare back exposed, the zipper halfway up, your spine a perfect line that begs to be touched.
he steps forward, too close, his exhale brushing your shoulder. his fingers graze your skinโsoft, warm, realโand you shiver, a small, deliberate tremor. he pulls the zipper up with trembling hands, the metal catching once, his breathing uneven. the distance between you shatters into nothing, the air thick with static.
โyouโre doing this on purpose,โ he rasps, low in your ear, his voice rough with want.
โdoing what?โ you whisper, fake innocence thick as honey, your head tilting just enough to catch his eye.
you look back at him, lashes fluttering, lips parted, glossy and pink. he breaks.
โfuck.โ
he grabs you, his hands rough on your hips, your mouths crashing togetherโteeth, tongue, gasps. your lip gloss smears against his cheek, sweet and sticky, and he groans into the kiss, devouring you.
you moan into his mouth, legs wrapping around his hips as he lifts you onto the counter, the edge biting into your thighs. youโre silk and heat and sin beneath his hands, and heโs forgotten everything elseโhis camera, his code, his shame. only you exist now.
you feel his hard-on through his jeans, pressed against your thighs, and heโs panting, his breath stuttering against your skin as he kisses down your jaw, your neck, the ridge of your spine. his mouth is everywhere, like heโs starved, like heโs trying to memorize you with his tongue.
his glasses slip down, and he grins against your collarbone. โneed to get a better look,โ he mutters, a flimsy excuse to lean closer, until the fog of his breath warms your skin. he bites your collarbone, hard, groaning when he leaves a mark. โwanna see that in playback.โ
he drops to his knees without hesitation, a virginโs worship, reverence born from years of hentai and nothing else. his fingers dig into your thighs, spreading them wide, and he groans like heโs just found salvation. he runs his tongue along the inner part first, slow and teasing, so close to the lace of your panties but not touching what you want.
you try to close your legs, but he forces them open, his grip bruising, his mouth finding the wet spot through the fabric. โfuck, youโre soaked,โ he growls, voice muffled, his tongue dragging heavy and slow, the lace rough against your clit. โbeen wet for me this whole time, huh? fuckinโ tease.โ
you whimper, hips bucking, and he moans into you, the vibration making you gasp. he licks through the panties, relentless, his glasses slipping halfway down his nose but he doesnโt care.
โyou taste better than i dreamed,โ he says, his voice hoarse, hentai dialogue spilling out like itโs natural. he sucks at the fabric, tongue pressing harder, and youโre trembling, your hands fisting his hair as you grind against his face. heโs messy, desperate, his moans louder than yours, like heโs the one about to cum. you do, hard, a cry tearing from your throat as you shudder against his mouth, and he doesnโt stop, lapping at the soaked lace like itโs his last meal.
he presses his cheek to your thigh, sticky and glistening, looking up at you with glassy eyes. โfirst oneโs mine,โ he says, grinding his hips into the floor, his jeans tight with his own need. you donโt think he even realizes heโs doing it. he spreads you open with his fingers, peeling the panties aside, watching your hole twitch with a hunger that makes his mouth water.
โlook at that,โ he murmurs, almost to himself, his voice dripping with awe. โfuckinโ perfect.โ he slides two fingers in, slow at first, then deeper, curling them just right, like heโs memorized every doujin panel that showed him how. โshitโiโve seen this in hentai but itโs better. fuck, itโs real.โ
his fingers pump, slick and steady, and youโre moaning, head thrown back, the counter digging into your hips. he adds a third, stretching you, his free hand jerking himself through his jeans, matching the pace of his fingers inside you. โso tight, baby. youโre gonna feel so good around my cock.โ
he spits on your pussy, a quick, filthy gesture, his eyes locked on yours as it drips down. โthey never show that part right in hentai. had to test it myself.โ you moan, loud and broken, and he moans louder, his fingers slipping out with a wet squelch. he licks them clean, slow, eyes fluttering shut like heโs savoring you. โfuckโwant it all.โ
he stands, trembling, his jeans tented painfully. โcan i?โ his voice is small, almost pleading, a crack in his bravado. you nod, and he fumbles with his belt, shoving his jeans down just enough. he lines himself up, his cock thick and leaking, the tip brushing your entrance. โyouโre so warmโholy shitโyouโre squeezing meโfuckโโ
he slides in, slow at first, gasping as you take him, your cunt tight and slick around him. heโs a virgin, but he knows this, knows the rhythm from years of jerking off to scenes just like this. he freezes, trying not to cum, his glasses fogging as he pants. you clench down, deliberate, and he slaps your thigh, a quick, sharp sting that earns him a whine.
โdonโtโfuck, donโt do that yet.โ
he pulls out, just to slam back in, harder, the counter creaking under you. his rhythmโs sloppy, desperate, but he finds it, each thrust deeper, rougher. โlook at you,โ he growls, his voice pure filth, hentai dialogue spilling free. โtaking my cock like a good little slut. you love this, donโt you? fuckinโ made for me.โ he licks the tears running down your cheek, his tongue hot and greedy. โcrying already? baby, iโm not even close to done.โ
you moan his name, and he loses it, his thrusts turning frantic, messy, like heโs trying to ruin you. โfilm it. show me what you see,โ you gasp, and he fumbles for his phone, almost dropping it with how hard heโs shaking.
the camera app opens in a blur of fingers, then steadies, the lens catching you spread wide beneath him, thighs trembling, pussy stuffed full of his cock. he holds it there, watching the way you flutter around him, his breath ragged. โwatch this later and see how ruined you look, baby,โ he pants, voice hoarse, wild.
he leans in, still recording, whispering filth against your ear. โthatโs right. take it. cry for me. i want you loud.โ his other hand drags the mic closer, the sonyโs external recorder capturing every slick thrust, every broken sob, every wet squelch, loud and obscene.
he fucks you harder, the counter shaking, your tits bouncing with each thrust. โgonna fuck you on every piece of furniture in here,โ he growls, his voice low, unhinged. โthat couch? gonna bend you over it. that table? gonna spread you wide. your bed? gonna fill you till youโre screaming.โ
you clench around him, and he groans, his hips stuttering. โfuck, you like that? you want me to wreck you everywhere, donโt you?โ you nod, gasping, and he slaps your thigh again, harder, leaving a red mark. โsay it, baby. tell me you want it.โ
โi want it,โ you whimper, voice breaking, and he grins, feral, his thrusts turning punishing. you cum again, a shuddering mess, your cry echoing in the mic as your cunt pulses around him, slick dripping down your thighs. he doesnโt stop, doesnโt slow, his cock throbbing as he fucks you through it.
โgonna fill you up,โ he pants, his voice cracking, hentai fantasies spilling out. โgonna cum so deep youโll feel me for days. you want that, donโt you? want my cum dripping out of you?โ
you nod, moaning, and he loses it, slamming into you one last time as he cums, a guttural groan tearing from his throat. itโs hot, messy, spilling inside you, and he keeps thrusting, shallow and desperate, like heโs trying to push it deeper.
satoru doesnโt stop.
in fact, he lifts you, his arms wrapping under your thighs like youโre weightless, his cock still buried inside you, slick and pulsing. your head lolls against his shoulder, your breath hot against his neck, and he groans, low and guttural, as he carries you toward your bedroom.
the air shifts as he crosses the threshold, your perfume hitting him harder hereโfloral and sugary, the same scent that clings to your pillow, your wrist, your everything. itโs thicker in this room, curling around him like a trap, and he kicks the door shut behind him, the click loud in the quiet.
he pushes you toward the vanity, your back meeting the cool glass of the mirror with a soft thud. he bends you over it, slow and deliberate, his hands guiding your hips until your cheek presses against the surface, your breath fogging the reflection.
โlook at you,โ he groans, angling his phone to capture the sceneโyour flushed face, your glossed lips parted, your eyes half-lidded in the mirror as you whine in embarassment.
โpretty little thing, still trying to act innocent.โ his voice is rough, edged with hunger, and he shifts his hips, thrusting shallowly, keeping you pinned, reaching for your lip gloss.
you mumble something, a weak protest or plea, but he shuts it up with a swipe of your lip gloss across your mouth, his hand trembling as he paints your lips pink, the applicator slick and messy.
โperfect,โ he says, pulling back just enough to admire the shine, the way it catches the light. then he pushes in again, deeper, and you both moan, the sound mingling in the air, caught by the sonyโs mic still recording from the tripod in the corner.
he kisses you messilyโgloss smearing, lips hungry, teeth clashing as he grinds his hips, slow and torturous, never breaking the rhythm. the camera stays on, the phone propped against a perfume bottle, capturing every gasp, every shudder.
โtaste so fuckinโ good,โ he mutters against your mouth, his tongue chasing the sticky sweetness. โgonna kiss you till youโre dripping everywhere.โ
satoru lays you on the bed next, gentle but urgent, his hands shaking as he props his phone against a stack of books on your nightstand, the camera app open, framing you perfectlyโyour body sprawled across the pastel sheets, thighs parted, lingerie barely clinging to your skin, the sheer fabric of your top stretched tight over your chest, the mini skirt hiked up to expose the lace of your panties.
he climbs over you, his glasses slipping down his nose, and pushes your legs up, hooking them over his shoulders, the angle forcing you open, vulnerable.
โfuck, you feel like heaven,โ he says, voice cracking, almost reverent, as he slides back inside you, slow and deep, the heat of you pulling a groan from his throat. โiโm never gonna stop, baby.โ
each thrust is deliberate, his hips rolling to hit that spot that makes you arch, your nails raking down his arms, leaving red trails heโll stare at later.
he kisses you through it, his mouth sloppy and desperate, swallowing your moans like theyโre his lifeline. the bed creaks under you, the fairy lights casting a soft glow over your tear-streaked face, and heโs lost in it, in the way you clench around him, so tight itโs like youโre made for him.
โso fuckinโ perfect,โ he pants, his lips brushing your ear, his breath hot and uneven. โtaking my cock like you were born for it.โ
he tugs at the straps of your lingerie top, pulling it down until your tits spill free, the sheer fabric catching under them, and he groans, his mouth latching onto a nipple, sucking hard until you whimper, your hips bucking against him.
but it doesnโt lastโhe needs more, needs to see you break in ways heโs only imagined in the dark of his room, his hand on his cock and your videos on loop.
he pulls out, his dick slick and throbbing, and grabs your hips, flipping you with a low grunt. he drags you up by the waist, positioning you on your knees, your ass high, your face pressed into the sheets, the skirt still bunched around your hips. his hand slides up your spine, pushing your chest down, arching you just right, and he yanks the lace panties to the side, not bothering to take them off.
โthis is what you get for teasing me all these days,โ he growls, his voice unhinged, as he lines himself up and thrusts in, hard and deep, the slap of skin sharp in the quiet room.
you whimper, muffled against the pillow, and he fucks harder, each thrust rocking you forward, the bedframe rattling, your moans spilling free despite the fabric. his phoneโs still recording, propped precariously, catching every angleโyour arched back, your trembling thighs, the way his cock disappears into you with every brutal snap of his hips.
โlook at that pussy,โ he says, his free hand gripping your ass, spreading you open for the camera. โso greedy, swallowing me whole. you love this, donโt you?โ he tugs your hair, pulling your head back, forcing your cries to echo. โlouder, baby. let the whole fuckinโ dorm hear you.โ
he slows, just to torment you, his hips grinding deep, making you squirm, your overstimulated body shaking under him. youโre teary, sobs catching in your throat, but he doesnโt careโhe wants you loud, wants you broken. he leans down, his chest pressed to your back, and bites your shoulder, hard enough to leave a mark.
โcry for me,โ he whispers, his voice rough, his hand slipping around to pinch your nipple, twisting until you gasp. โwanna hear you fall apart.โ he pulls out, leaving you empty, and you whine, a desperate, keening sound that makes him smirk.
โpatience, princess,โ he mocks, slapping your ass lightly, the sting making you clench around nothing.
satoru guides you up, turning you to face him, and pushes you back onto the bed, climbing over you. โwanna see you ride me,โ he says, lying back against the headboard, his hands gripping your hips as you straddle him. he tugs the skirt off completely, tossing it aside, leaving you in just the stretched-out lingerie top and soaked panties.
โbounce,โ he growls, his eyes locked on where you sink down onto him, slow and deliberate, your cunt stretching around him as you take him inch by inch. โshow the camera how you fuck me.โ
his phoneโs angled to catch it allโyour tits bouncing, still half-caught in the sheer fabric, your thighs trembling, the way you gasp every time you drop down, taking him to the hilt.
you move, your hips rolling, your hands braced on his chest, and heโs sweating, his glasses slipping, his breath ragged. he doesnโt let you slow, his hands lifting you, slamming you back down, making you take him deeper. โthatโs it,โ he says, voice hoarse, his fingers digging into your ass, leaving bruises. โfuck yourself on my cock. show me how bad you need it.โ
youโre sobbing now, tears streaming down your cheeks, but you keep going, your moans loud and broken, your body shaking from the overstimulation. he reaches up, ripping the lingerie top off completely, the fabric tearing with a sharp sound, and gropes your tits, squeezing hard, his thumbs brushing your nipples until you shudder.
โthese are mine now,โ he says, his voice pure filth. โgonna mark โem up so you canโt hide.โ
heโs close, too close, but heโs not done.
he pushes you off, gentle but firm, and stands, pulling you with him toward the full-length mirror by your closet. he spins you, pressing your chest to the glass, your hands splaying against it, your tear-streaked reflection staring back.
he kicks your legs apart, his cock nudging your entrance, and slides in, slow and deep, his breath hot against your ear. โlook at you,โ he says, his lips brushing your neck, his hands caging you against the mirror. โlook at my cock ruining your pussy.โ
he thrusts, slow at first, watching your reflectionโyour tears, your drool, your gloss-smeared lips, the way your body shakes with every snap of his hips. โyou wanted a nerd? this nerdโs gonna fuckinโ break you.โ
he fucks you harder, the mirror rattling, your moans bouncing off the walls, loud enough to wake the neighbors. โso fuckinโ pretty,โ he pants, one hand slipping to your clit, rubbing messy, relentless circles. โgonna cum all over my cock, arenโt you? gonna make a mess for me?โ
you nod, sobbing, your body trembling, and he slaps your ass, the sting sharp, making you clench around him. โsay it, baby. tell me youโre mine.โ
โiโm yours,โ you gasp, voice breaking, tears streaming, and he cums with a raw groan, spilling inside you, hot and thick, his hips stuttering as he rides it out.
he doesnโt pull out, doesnโt stop, his cock still hard, still twitching as he fucks his cum deeper, the slick sound obscene. โnot done,โ he mutters, his glasses fogged, his voice wrecked. โgonna make you cum again.โ
he keeps going, relentless, his thrusts slower but deeper, each one pushing his cum back inside, making you shake. his fingers on your clit are merciless, circling fast, and youโre oversensitive, your body convulsing, your moans turning to desperate cries. โsatoruโfuckโtoo muchโโ you sob.
he only slaps your thigh, sharp and stinging, and leans in, his lips grazing your ear. โtoo much? nah, princess, you can take it. wanna feel you squirt for me.โ
he angles his hips, hitting that spot that makes your vision blur, and youโre gone, your body locking up as you cum, a gush of wet heat soaking his cock, dripping down your thighs, pooling on the floor. he groans, loud and broken, his hips jerking as he cums again, another hot rush filling you, spilling out around him.
โfuckโlook at that mess,โ he pants, his hand smearing the slick between your legs, rubbing it into your skin. โall for me.โ
but heโs not done. he pulls you back to the bed, laying you on your side, one leg hooked over his arm as he slides back in, his cock still hard, slick with your cum and his. โone more,โ he begs, his voice cracking, his glasses crooked. โgimme one more, baby. need to feel you again.โ
he thrusts slow, deep, his hand slipping between your legs to tease your oversensitive clit, and youโre crying, tears streaming, your body shaking from the intensity. he bites your neck, leaving marks, and whispers, โlove it when you cry for me. so fuckinโ loud, just how i like it.โ
he shifts, rolling you onto your stomach, keeping you pinned as he fucks you into the mattress, his hand pressing your face into the sheets. โgonna cum all over you,โ he growls, his thrusts turning sloppy, desperate. โgonna fill you up till youโre leaking me for days.โ
you cum again, a shuddering, broken mess, your sobs muffled against the pillow, your body convulsing as you squirt again, weaker but still enough to soak the sheets. he cums with you, a third time, his groan hoarse, his hips stuttering as he spills inside you, the mess dripping out, pooling under you.
โfuckโbabyโโ he gasps, his voice wrecked, his body shaking as he collapses against you, his glasses falling off completely, clattering to the floor.
โmine now,โ he whispers, hoarse and ruined, his forehead pressed to your back, his breath hot and uneven. โyouโre mine now.โ
you nod, too spent to speak, your body limp, your reflection in the mirror a blur of tears and gloss and him, the phone still recording every ragged breath, every whispered โfuckโ as he pulls you closer, not letting go.
but then silence swells, heavy and slow, filling the room like a fog. the airโs thick with the aftermathโsweat, cum, and the lingering sweetness of your perfume, still clinging to the sheets, to him.
satoruโs hands tremble where they hold you, one slipping down to fumble with his phone, stopping the recording with a clumsy tap, the other pressing flat against your stomach, grounding him, grounding you. your breaths are too loud, ragged and uneven, syncing in the quiet like a metronome.
he leans away slightly, just enough to grab a towel from the edge of your bed, awkward in the afterglow like he just realized he desecrated a temple. his glasses are gone, lost somewhere in the mess of sheets, and his hairโs a disaster, sticking to his forehead, damp with sweat.
โshit,โ he mutters, voice barely above a whisper, too quiet for the boy who was growling filth ten minutes ago. โdid iโi mean. that wasnโt too much, right?โ thereโs a crack in his tone, a flicker of panic, like heโs replaying every thrust, every slap, every sobbed moan he pulled from you.
you donโt answer at first, too dazed, too wrung out, your body still humming from the overstimulation, your thighs sticky and trembling.
your silence makes him spiral.
โfuck, i knew it. i pushed too hard. i got carried awayโi was recordingโfuckโi didnโt even askโโ his words tumble out, frantic, his hand raking through his hair as he sits up, eyes wide, searching your face for any sign of regret.
you turn to face him, slow and sore, your cheek pillowed against your arm, the motion making your body ache in the best way. your eyes are still wet, lashes clumped with tears, lips kiss-bruised and sticky with half-worn gloss, swollen from his teeth. you stare at himโthis boy, this dork, with his mussed-up hair and the panicked look of someone who just lived out a lifelong fantasy and now doesnโt know what to do with it.
โiโm okay,โ you say, your voice shredded, raw from screaming his name. โjesus, iโm so okay.โ
he exhales, a shaky rush of air, like heโs been holding it in for hours. he collapses back against you, burying his face in your neck, his lips brushing the bite mark he left earlier. โfuck, you scared me,โ he mumbles, his voice muffled, warm against your skin. then, quieter, almost unhinged: โwe just speedran my entire hentai folder.โ
you laugh, a weak, breathy sound that bubbles up despite the ache in your ribs. โi know.โ
โi didnโt even know i could,โ he says, his voice small, like heโs confessing a sin. โi havenโt even done that in vr.โ
you snort, the sound catching in your throat. โnerd.โ
he groans, but itโs not annoyedโitโs mortified, the kind of sound that comes from knowing heโs exposed himself completely. โiโm never gonna recover from this. i glossed you like a fuckinโ bratz doll. i glossed you.โ his hand gestures vaguely at your lips, still shiny and smeared, and you laugh again, the sound softer now, your body too tired for anything more.
you roll over fully, tugging him down into the blankets with you, the pastel sheets tangling around your legs. he follows like a kicked puppy, his head resting on your chest, his breath warm against your skin. you can feel his heart still racing, his body still trembling from the high.
โi just,โ you mumble, your voice barely audible, โwanted you to notice me. back during the group project, you never looked at me. just your laptop. even when i wore that stupid short skirt.โ
he goes silent, his fingers pausing where theyโre tracing lazy circles on your hip. then, in a voice so small it barely carries: โโฆyou wore that for me?โ
you nod, your cheek brushing his hair.
he lets out the tiniest, most violated gasp, like youโve just rewritten his entire reality. โi thought you were just one of those girls who always looked hot. like, default setting.โ his voice cracks on the last word, and you canโt help the teasing smile that tugs at your lips.
โno,โ you say, your tone playful despite the exhaustion. โi was trying to seduce the dumbass with the mecha desktop background.โ
he muffles a sob into your chest, half-laugh, half-groan, his arms tightening around you. โi love mechaโฆโ he says, like itโs the most tragic thing in the world, and you hum, stroking his hair, your fingers catching in the sweaty strands.
โi know.โ
a long pause settles over you, the kind that feels like it could stretch forever. the fairy lights twinkle softly, casting shadows across the room, and your perfume lingers, mixing with the musk of sex. his breathing slows, but he doesnโt let go, his body still pressed to yours like heโs afraid youโll vanish.
then he lifts his head, his eyes serious, stripped of the wild edge they had before. โcan iโฆ hold you properly? not likeโyโknowโbreeding press. like, real holding.โ his cheeks flush, like heโs embarrassed to admit he wants something soft after all that.
โyou already folded me in half like a love letter,โ you whisper, but you shift into his arms anyway, letting him pull you close. he wraps around you, tight, needy, his hands trembling like heโs still processing youโre real, not just pixels on a screen. his hold is desperate, like heโs trying to memorize the shape of you, every curve, every soft inch, in case this never happens again.
โdonโt make fun of me,โ he says, his voice muffled against your shoulder. โi think my crush on you just speedran into obsession.โ thereโs a rawness to it, a confession that feels too big for the quiet, but it lands soft, like heโs finally letting it out.
โyouโre the one who begged for one more while crying into my shoulder,โ you tease, your voice barely above a whisper, your fingers tracing the line of his jaw.
โstop,โ he groans, burying his face deeper, his arms tightening like he could squeeze the embarrassment out of himself. โiโm gonna die.โ
you press a kiss to his forehead, slow and deliberate, your lips lingering on his sweaty skin. โyouโre not gonna die,โ you say, your tone soft but firm. โyouโre gonna eat me out on friday and wear your glasses while you do it.โ
he whimpers, a pathetic, needy sound, his hips twitching involuntarily against your thigh. โsay less,โ he mumbles, his voice wrecked, but thereโs a spark in it, like youโve just lit something in him again. you giggle, wrapping your leg around his waist, pulling him closer, your skin sticking to his in the humid air.
and in the quiet, as youโre both drifting offโsore, sticky, still catching your breathโhe says it again. not ruined this time, not even possessive. just low. certain. like heโs already planning his next sin.
โmine.โ
you donโt answer. just smile into the pillow, heart pounding. because maybe you are. and maybe youโll let him prove it again.
especially once he finds out what cosplay you ordered last week.
fridayโs going to be filthy.
Relationship: Neteyam(23) x fem!Omatikaya reader(21) x Lo'ak(22) Series status: Complete
Story Summary: Youโd heard the whispered speculations and stifled giggles during the daytimes. Youโd seen the furtive glances that the other women cast at Neteyam and Loโak through coquettish eyes, cheeks stained a blushing mauve as they exchanged coy smiles with the two brothers. And during the nights? Hell, youโd heard the moans and wanton cries for yourselfโฆ You were definitely curious, but did you have it in you to go through with their proposition?... Note: No use of 'Y/N'. Your name/reader's name in this is Neyomi.
Content: SMUT 18+ MDNI, Mentions of group sex, MMF threesome, sex toy play, squirting, anal sex.
Part I - The Proposition Part II - Three Is A Perfect Crowd Part III - Blurring Lines Part IV - Haunted By You Part V - The Fault Is Ours Epilogue Drabble - Silwey's Reaction
Author's Note: A complete series means it earns its own series masterlist. ๐ฅฐTHANK YOU to all of you who showed this series so much love! I enjoyed all your comments, and I'm eternally grateful for all your likes & reblogs. Neteyam & Neyomi's journey is another special addition in the library of my heart. ๐ For those who are new to this series - Hang on to your panties (or not) and enjoy this sexy, emotional rollercoaster. I hope you love it as much as others have. ๐๐๐
includes: xiao, zhongli, ayato, thoma, and itto.
warnings: gender neutral reader, fluff.
notes: please this is the favorite thing i've written so far.
xiao.
xiao prided himself on always being available when you needed help. so when you called him and presented him with a tightly shut jar, xiao was more than accepting to help you open it.ย
except that he couldnโt.
xiao frowned when the lid didnโt budge. he tried again, repositioning his hands on jar, but still the lid refused to moved. and then again. and again.
it was only when you let out a quiet wheeze did xiao stop. he looked up and saw you, your face flushed from trying to hold back your laughter, tears almost coming your eyes.ย
โwhat?โ he asked, slightly defensive. โwhat are you laughing at?โ
โyou,โ you got out between laughs. prephaps not theย bestย way to put it. at that, xiao raised flushed in embarassment, and you rushed to catch your breath and explain.ย
xiao couldnโt believe heโd been had. especially by you. he threatened to never come to your aid again, especially not for such another โstupidโ request. when you pointed out that was an empty threat, xiao only stalked off, not saying another word.ย
poor xiao. all he wanted to do was help you. now all he could do was sulk in the corner like a scolded puppy, a perpetual frown on his face for the rest of the day.ย
you better apologize.ย
zhongli.
zhongli had faced many hardships and challenges in his few thousand years of life, but the small jar in front of him was proving to be one of the toughest yet.ย
he underestimated its potential when you handed it to him with what he thought was a simple request. zhongli might have even laughed if he got it on the first try after your futile attempts. but he had lost count of how many times he tried to failed to unscrew the lid, and he no longer felt like laughing now.ย
โitโs like,โ he said as he tried yet again, โyou superglued it shut.โ
โno, i didnโt.โ your answer, too quick. too defensive. tooย prepared.ย
zhongli paused mid attempt. he glanced up at you, and you saw the realization slowly dawn on him. โyouย didย superglue it shut.โ
you shook your head and said again, โwhat? no, i wouldnโt have, i swear it.โย
your smile was nervous and forced and completelyย guilty. it faltered as zhongli put the jar down, crossed his arms, and gave you a disapproving look. โwas thisย reallyย the best prank you could come up with?โ
โiโd like to see you do anything better.โ
โis that a challenge?โ zhongli asked. he didnโt let you answer. โif so, then i gladly accept. just be warned, [you]. i wonโt be holding back.โ
his eyes twinkled with all things mischievous. although you might have won this round, you suspected that zhongli would have the last laugh after all.ย
ayato.
ayato, ever the intellectual, didnโt at first try to unscrew the jar. instead, he immediately began to run it under warm water. then, very unceremoniously, ayato whacked the jar against the countertop. after a few hard strikes, he then attempted to unscrew the lid.ย
imagine his surprise when his methods of loosening the jar didnโt work. he tried again to the same result.ย
you should have stopped him then. told him it was a prank, had your laugh, and rested on your laurels.ย
but no, you decided to wait and prolong the humorous display before you. you watched as ayato moved around the kitchen, grabbing anything and everything that could aid him in his quest to open your jar. a spoon to wedge open the lid. a paper towel to wrap around the base. a bottle opener to try and break the seal.ย
every single method that could have been found on a random blog was now being done in your kitchen. when, at last, ayato exhausted all his various items after failed attempt after failed attempt, you expected him to give up.ย
but his face somehow began more determined. you were about to admit to your prank when he cautioned, โstay back.โ
you were about to ask why when the flash of ayatoโs vision and the quick movements of a hydro sword stopped you. it was over in an instant, and in its wake your jarโ
your eyes widened. it was cut cleanly in half.ย
โwell, that certainly did the trick,โ ayato said, quite proud of himself.
you stuttered out a string of incomprehensible noises, unable to fully process what just happened.
โalthough, i might have gone a little too far.โ it was only then did you realize that ayato had not only sliced the jar in half, but the entire countertop, too. cleanly down the middle. ayato shrugged. โoh, well.โ
you really should have stopped him earlier.
thoma.
how could you do this to poor, sweet thoma? your boyfriend trusted you entirely and genuinely thought you just needed help opening a particularly stubborn jar.ย
now he only felt bad that he couldnโt. and you didnโt have the heart to admit it was a prank, not after he called ayato and ayaka for advice on how to help you. not after he watched several youtube videos on how to open it. not after he consulted google for the better part of an hour.ย
you knew that you had to eventually, but as of right now, you were in too deep. prephaps if you got him to stop trying and told him later, it would soften the blow.ย
โitโs okay,โ you said to thoma as he tried yet again. โitโs really fine. i didnโt really need it opened.โ
but thoma would not listen. he steeled himself to try again andโ
nothing. the lid didnโt budge. the jar remained perfectly shut.ย
and then your worst fears were realized to be true when thoma put his head down and started to sob. you opened you mouth as he practically shook from crying so violently. the frustration had finally got to him.
โno, thoma, please stop!โ you said frantically, immediately pushing the cursed jar away from him.ย
โif i canโt do this for you, what can i do?โ
โdonโt say that!โ you insisted. and then, without thinking, โitโs just a prank! i glued it shutโโ
โso you admit to it?โ thoma looked up. no tears stained his cheeks. his voice was completely normal. a hint of a smile even laced his lips. โyou admit to pranking me?โ
you blinked in surprise. you were played.
thoma trusted you entirely, and he knew you even better. the way you handed him that jar with an innocent little smileโฆ he knew. he knew before you even opened your mouth.
thoma, one. you, zero.
itto.
the first time it wasnโt a prank. when you needed help the previous night to open a subborn jar, you asked itto because you genuinely couldnโt do it yourself.ย
โthat was nothing!โ he boasted after opening the jar with ease. โi could do that blindfolded and upside down, [you]. are you sure you just didnโt want to see how awesome i am?โ
โi loosened it,โ you protested.
โyeah, yeah,โ he dismissed you. itto continued in a carefree tone, โlisten! itโs fine. i donโt mind help you out. i can open any jar you give me, i promise.โ
you raised an eyebrow at that last part. and now, standing before itto once again, a jar you superglued shut the night before in your hands, you decided to see if itto could really make good on his promise. either that, or recieve a rude awakening.ย
as judging by the amount of glue you used, it was going to be the latter.ย
โcan you please help me with this one?โ you asked. your blinked your eyes up at him in a show of innocence. your smug smile was hidden underneath a small pout as you pretended the jar had gotten the best of you.ย
โanother one?โ itto asked in mock exasperation. he grabbed the jar from you and said, โwatch and learn.โ
itto twisted, andโ
it opened. the jar opened. itto had opened the jar as if you hadnโt poured an entire bottle of superglue on the lid and rim.ย
your mouth dropped open. itto offered it back to you and asked, โwhy do you look so surprised?โ
โiโฆโ your voice trailed off. telling itto would only further fuel his ego. and you really didnโt want to deal with him talking about it the rest of the night. โiโm not surpised. thanks forโฆ yeah. thanks.โ
itto gaze you a puzzled look. then he shrugged and said, โwhatโd i tell you? i told you i could open any jar.โ
you could only nod in agreement. itto had no idea just how correct that statement was.
โyouโre a writer, right?โ
me, staring at the one sentence iโve managed to add in the last hour and the 12 open tabs on the specifics of shoes in 1845 Ireland: In theory.
yes. just yes. this is tapping into smth within me that I SWEAR wasnt there a minute ago ๐
โ summary: taking away their cuddling privileges for a month after a fight had happened
โ warnings: grammatical mistakes may occur, having to reject their cuddle sessions, petnames likeย โloveโ in dilucโs part, slight cursing, slight crack, tiny angst to fluff
โ childe, diluc, albedo, scaramouche, kazuha (separated)
โ kaeya, zhongli, xiao, aetherโs
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Scaramouche kissing headcannons? Pretty please???
combining these two requests because i can fit them well together!
warnings: fluff, and my horrible attempts at explaining kisses, i feel bad putting him as a warning the entire time but he is a menace
โง scaramouche,, isn't too fond of physical affection
โง in his eyes, it's weird that people press their mouths together and 'make out', which literally looks like they are eating each other's face (he watched fatui recruits make out in the hallways, my dude saw some wild stuff)
โง however, scaramouche is open to learn more about kisses, though you need time and patience to warm him up to the idea
โง while he likes soft pecks on his cheeks when he isn't in the mood for more affection, he becomes really soft around you (and his cheeks are extremely squishy and you feel like you have to thank the shogun for creating him like this)
โง cup his cheeks and pepper his face with kisses and he will groan at your display of affection, but never dares to make any argument against you - in fact, if you would stop due to his reaction, he'll glare at you and ask immediately why you stopped
โง for him, kisses are really intimate. after all, he wouldn't press his mouth onto anyone else mouth other than yours that is, so that's that
โง i see him as the type of person to grab your hands and press soft kisses onto the back of your hand, your fingertips and any small wound you have from fighting that he could find. he also likes pressing his face into the palm of your hand afterwards, a smug grin on his face when he notices your startled and flustered expression on your face as you try to process what he just did. it's such a simple act to show how much he truly appreciates you and yet you always have the same shocked look on your face.
โง kisses with scaramouche are not an everyday thing. while he has his five minutes in which he might be more demanding for affection than on other days, he doesn't really want to to kiss you the entire time. if you ever come home to him however and kiss him on the lips unprompted, he'll scoff but won't ever refuse you
โง despite that, kissing him for real, on his actual lips is somewhat of an experience. you can tell he has never done this before and it bothers him to the point of wanting to reject any sort of affection like this, so that's why you need patience. he'll quickly believe that he is of no use if he is unable to perform any task before him, even if it might be a simple kiss (it's the trauma)
โง his kisses are slow but demanding, leaving you breathless when he parts from you. his hands usually cup your face in an almost possessive way, his way of making sure you're not actually leaving (which sounds stupid in his head since you're right?? there??). his kisses might be slow and somewhat sensual, something rather unexpected from the balladeer of all people, but he's demanding your entire attention to be directed at him, to only see him in those few seconds and that you wouldn't dare even to think about anyone else
โง he doesn't really peck your face or suddenly attack you with a barrage of kisses, but rather, when he happens to be in a good mood, he'll kiss your forehead gently and immediately turn away and leave the scene as quickly as possible
โง in a way he reminds you of how snow is, ice cold to the touch but melts right away when coming in contact with your skin - scaramouche was just like that. with no natural body warmth and nothing to essentially make him human, he struggles with himself in a way you couldn't understand but try and grasp upon his feelings
โง you know that the only reason he still wants to keep you at an arms length at times is rooted in his own fear of being abandoned, something you'd never dare to speak up about with him. knowing him, he'd get upset if you ever mentioned any hidden insecurity of his
โง so when he kisses you, a small gentle kiss to the back of your hand, a loving kiss on the lips that only you ever came to receive from him, he was similar to a snowflake melting and warming up. he might be cold to the touch, but his heart must be otherwise, that's what you're certain about
โง at one point, scaramouche might even become impatient if you forget to kiss him after returning home or if you forget your daily peck on his cheek (something he wants to hate but craves as a part of his routine)
โง sitting across the room, he might clear his throat multiple times, his arms crossed before his chest as he glares at you expectantly
โง if you have the audacity to ask him what's wrong he'll scoff, simply asking in a deadpan tone if you didn't forget about something - if you still can't remember, scaramouche won't say it and leave the room just moments later, mumbling something under his breath not even you could understand. his pride doesn't allow him to ask for kisses, and besides, how could you forget? (he's more bothered by the fact that he hated not receiving any kiss that morning as you were in a hurry)
โง why don't you magically understand what he wants from you? stupid mortal
โง it's not until weeks later you notice the subtle pattern in his behavior. if you kissed his cheek he wouldn't sit down at the same spot and clear his throat pasisve aggressively, sitting there with his arms crossed and glaring at you
โง if you ask him about it in a rather amused tone, he'll huff and dismiss you, claiming that 'you're too stupid to even remember your own routine' - you don't press this matter and simply give him a peck on his cheek
โง my poor boy never received any love, so any form of affection and especially physical affection feels foreign to him, so he needs time to warm up to it. however, in his case it's absolutely worth it - for him as for you, he can show you even further how important you are to him, even if it was just a simple kiss
โง and being a little shit, he expects the same treatment for him without having to ask for it. after all, you said this is what lovers do, so it should come natural to you, right?
โง he won't admit that he likes kisses. he will never admit this, but you know better
THE ENDING SENTENCE OH MY GOD IT ITS GENIUS
โit all starts when you saw someone who looked like someone you know in a game, only to come to know that it was him all alongย
โ(or) scaramouche gets transported to Earth and you have become a part of his storyย
CHARACTERS. self aware! Scaramouche; gn! gamer! Reader
THEMES. reversed isekai; self aware!scaramouche; fluff; crack; angstย
WARNINGS. mentions of his real name; may have curses from reader and scara
WORD COUNT. 2k wordsย
NOTES. actually, you may read this without reading chapter one but the two are connected! chapter three will be out either before the 29th or by august but either way, prepare tissues because itโs certainly gonna make u cryย
The Memory of You; Beginning / Mean / Endย
โYou are so bad at this.โย
โWhat did you say?โย
You laughed, repeating your words with a louder voice, โI said; youโre so bad at this!โย
You were not even looking at him, but you could tell that he was getting irritated by the second, more so at his phone, his screen showing the graphics of the same game you had been playing these past few monthsโoh yes, good old Genshin Impact.ย
โWhy is he even so weak? Is he really this useless?! What a joke!โย
You peaked on his mobile screen and inquired โWho are you even talking about?โ you paused, peeking your eyes to his game, โThe traveler?โย
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ISNโT WHISPERING AND STROKING SOMEONEโS CHEEK BOTH ACTIONS..?
ok im aorry for wording it as actions!! it seems easier for me to explain that way but:
โYou are beautiful,โ he said. โ a dialogue tag is composed of quotations so there should be a comma unlike when it shows action or action beats. quotation > dialogue > period > quotation > action verb if such was the case.
remember:
dialogue tag โ specifies who is speaking
action beat โ specifies the action that is being done
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