"If One Cannot Enjoy Reading A Book Over And Over Again, There Is No Use In Reading It At All."

"Close your eyes", Paruyr Sevak (translated by metamorphesque)

I am that clumsy human,

always loving, loving, loving.

And never leaving.

the flowers of your love are suffocating me

The Roses of Heliogabalus - Sir Lawrence Alma-Tadema (detail) // “Monster” (1994-2001) - Naoki Urasawa // Samuel Cirnansck at Sao Paulo Fashion Week Summer (2012) // x // “Hanahaki Disease” Part 2 - Celeste Durham // “hanahaki disease” - ari // Hannibal (2013-2015)

— William Blake, Auguries of Innocence

― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

dark academia but STEM

- pinning the most difficult equations you solved to your wall. Or just the ones you find beautiful

- lots of plants, their names written in the pots. Trying different ways to grow them.

- always having lab gloves in your bag or pockets.

- writing ideas for projects in messy notes, putting them between the pages of your notebooks and forgetting about it

- hands dirty with black ink because you’ve been writing for too long too fast

- massive books under your arms, laptop full of carefully tagged papers while the printed ones are a total mess

- insane eyes and absolute euphoria when you finally understand not only the concept, but where did it came from and how it applies on your daily life

- hair always in a bun or ponytails, short finger nails and none jewelry because ~lab rules~

- searching until late at night the exact equipment the scientists used long ago, what methods they used and imagining how would it be to be in their place.

- Feeling as comfortable in the lab as in the library.

- you hate Victor Frankenstein but legit understand why.

- sore eyes from microscope or screen light, aching backs, still not wanting to leave

- looking at people and thinking about how they truly are: organs, cells, molecules, atoms, protons, eletrons, quarks, leptons…. nothing as one would think,  everything, all the same, too big, too little, all pieces from a big puzzle

- dreaming about the topic you were studying last day

- having an idea about a paper while talking to your friends. Remembering that is not your field and going crazy because SOMEONE needs to research it.

- you are crazy to read some fiction but there are too many papers waiting for you 

- You should be used by now but sometimes still get distracted about how graphics changes according to compartments added.

- finishing a big problem and just staring at it, amazed by how it was unfolded and reorganized until you get to the final answer 

- “we don’t know….yet”

- ethics committee?? How about just test it myself, uh?(that new receipt that later comes out a absolute disaster)

- suddenly knowing how to solve a problem in the middle of a lunch

- notebooks margins filled with equations or formulas vs pages almost blank, with just one note or two

- mental breakdowns after classes thay change your perspective completely

- knowing that the truth depends on how further you can see. We’re always getting closer. Never there.

- Looking at an art piece, wondering what kind of ink was used, how it was when it was made, how time has affected it

"Never are voices so beautiful as on a winter's evening, when dusk almost hides the body, and they seem to issue from nothingness with a note of intimacy seldom heard by day."

virginia woolf

red on white

                  The Power of the Sublime (Imaginative Architecture)

1-2 Prospettiva architettonica, Pietro Gaspari; Colegiata de San Isidro, Ventura Rodriguez

3  Piranesi’s design for a monumental staircase 

4. Stage Design, Giuseppe Galli Bibiena 

5-6 Interior of San’t Ignazio, Gian Paolo Panini. The Illumination of the Cross in Saint Peter’s Basilica on Good Friday by Giovanni Battista Piranesi 

7. Imperial Mausoleum, Piranesi

8-9 Large sculpture gallery built on arches and lit from above, Architecture and Perspectives, Piranesi; roup of columns which support two arches of a great courtyard, Piranesi