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Project research, planning, university searching, contemplating life, back to project, cut myself some shorts from jeans I don't wear, planning on what to do with the scraps, organise my dresser, vc with BFF, now to bed

Ehhh

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Today also has a pretty date imo.

Why did no one tell me that YouTube is no longer available on my iPhone 6+

WHY WHY WHY WHY 😭😭😭💔💔💔

Anyways, did nothing much today, except exist and editing my invite only YouTube video for my friends 😊

Keep in mind, I am 180cm tall, that is 5'11, and I checked the agency, its legit and they came to my country to scout for potential new models. I also feel like they don't have that many Black girls signed to them which is why they're scouting on my ends. I'm anxious coz I'm not exactly the skinny type they have on their site, but I'm also not chubby, I'd say my weight is OK for my height, on the leaner side.

I've had dreams of modelling because I love my height so much, like soooo much. But I get anxious thinking I'll walk weirdly or make a fool out of myself in front of the panel... I might think I'm eating up the walk, but in reality my body moves awkwardly and rigidly 😭.

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I NEED TO MAKE A BD GIFT FOR SOMEONE HELP😃😭 BIRTHDAY IS IN 3 DAYS BUT STILLLLLLL, I'M THE TYPE TO GIFT HANDMADE STUFF💔💔BUT I CANT FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIGURE OUT WHAT TO CREATE

Today was boring, oh but the shower I took hit different today for some reason, went out of the house in like a month, if you don't count the market visits (those are in my circle so it's no different and feels home)

I look at this pic when I feel sad and remember how it tasted.

OH EM GEE WAIT, YOU KNOW THAT GUMBALL SOUND GOING VIRAL RIGHT NOW, I KEEP LAUGHING MY AHH OFF WHEN I SEE VIDEOS USING THE SOUND

I CANT STOP LAUGHING HELP MEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

EVEN GUMBALLS ACTUAL FACE IN THAT EPISODE TAKES ME OUT 😭😭😭

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I have a crush on Dr. House 😔

My heart melted, this is the best mention ever, so cuteeeee x

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psssst this is inspired by @angelaness post 💗 thought it was sooo cute

Wake up - lecture - 10 km run - gym - relaxed and did a little pilates whilst listening to zb1 - ate salmon - prepped for a nice dinner in a cave - did yoga - cried over meongddocat - alone time vibing to music - journaled - languages

some pics 💗

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Nothing exciting happened today, just scrolling the communities and daydreaming. Time of the month where I've gotta pay the WiFi but I don't, so I'm using my data :/

I'm gonna try drawing tonight. I don't know what but it's calling me to bring it to life. I should probably read a book too...

OH I FINISHED LUCIFER YEYEYYEE, I loved that show so much! Time to finish Dr House md. I wouldn't have changed the way Lucifer ended, but I'd love a special episode, but I suppose I can do without it.

10/10 show would recommend 🥲🫶🏾.

SPOILERS MAYBE

8 cried while watching SZN 5 ending and SZN 6 first episode..... Chat I am not OK 💔

I love House (and Hugh Laurie himself) too much now💔💔. I just want to hold his face and tell him it's alright even tho he'll see thru my bullshit 😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 (guys I'm OK, I swear. I'm not weird lol)

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Too much to talk about, undoing my hair rn, did a sudoku puzzle 😝, might do 1 more b4 bed, I'm enjoying this.

Today is 26th of May 2025

I just finished House M.D., and it’s got me messed up in the most beautiful way. This show didn’t just entertain me, it gave me something to wake up for, something to stretch the days around. I’d pace myself like it was a slow-burning love affair, knowing I’d mourn the end even before I got there. And now? Yeah. I’m in mourning.

Every episode, every character, I loved all of it. No skips. No fillers. Just layered, painful, brilliant storytelling. And that extra episode Hugh Laurie directed? It cracked open my respect for the whole damn industry. You can tell when an actor bleeds for a role, and baby, he bled for House.

This show wasn’t just a distraction... it was an escape that made me feel more present than real life sometimes. Now that it’s over, I already want to rewatch it. I already miss it. But not in a “rewind the fun” kind of way—more like visiting an old ghost who used to hold your hand while you cried.

And yeah, it hurts knowing I’ll never get that first-time magic back. I envy new fans. I envy not knowing what’s coming. Out of every show I could’ve chosen, I picked this one, and I stuck to it, to the bitter, bittersweet end.

I didn’t think I could love 177 episodes of a limping, sarcastic, drug-addicted genius who pushes everyone away.....but I did. I do. I loved him when he was cruel, when he was right, when he was spiraling, when he tried. Every twitch of those haunted eyes told me he wanted to be saved, even if he didn’t believe in salvation.

And now here I am, broken-hearted and grateful. Because if you're gonna fall for a show, fall for one that ruins you this perfectly.

Mazel Tov.