It’s All About Perspective:

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All that work for this app to turn the quality to shxt 💔

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Woke up with a bad start but sleeping with a good ending tonight. Here's a 1min vid I just finished editing; the snacks were yummerz regardless.

Please ignore the split second in the intro when the frame wasn't showing.

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Passion project...

I think I outdid myself yesterday lol, but it was worth it, I just missed the sanctuary of my bed toooo much after those 2 hrs I spent eating, musing, and drawing in public. Today I tried to search 4 unis, the one I was eyeing needed A level results, and wellll..... I cant provide them, and they don't offer bridging courses to their diplomas, infact all their diplomas need A level certs lol. Idk if I can call another uni to ask some stuff tomorrow but I'll try (oops I procrastinated abit too hard-don't learn that from me)

I have been thinking of my passion project lately, and I want to make it real instead of a silly little idea in the back of my mind that I use to distract myself when pressure becomes overwhelming. I even have a pre-project idea for it. If I had half the enthusiastic audience (my angels x) I have here but on TikTok, I think I would've started already and have much support and encouragement to bridge to the actual big project :')

So yeah, I've been brainstorming and pouring my soul into it for years; it keeps beating harder as my skin thickens and my heart feels more alive.

Maybe one day I'll share my plans with you guys, and if Tumblr isn't only about the teens in this mess of life together, then maybe it will become something big and real.

Sunday Musings - 020225

This morning, I decided that my usual sunny-side-up simply wouldn’t do. Sundays deserve something a little more indulgent, a little more special—so I let my egg transform into golden, cinnamon-kissed French toast. A small luxury, but a luxury nonetheless.

The rest of the day? A delicate balance between leisure and productivity. Too Hot to Handle had me in a vice grip (no regrets, I love that game), but I still managed to weave in moments of purpose—gathering ideas for my alter ego’s literary journey, tending to the house, and looking after my little cousin. Life, in its quiet rhythms.

And then, there was Animal Farm. A book I’ve picked up twice before, but never quite seen the way I do now. It’s fascinating how stories shift when read through older eyes—how words once skimmed over now demand to be felt. Perhaps this time, I’ll listen.

Today was a 6/10. Not extraordinary, not mundane—just a day, simply lived. Could I have done more? Maybe. But sometimes, being present in even the smallest moments is enough :)

These pics are the vibe of my day :p

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Woke up late, didn't work out, spent the day on tiktok and binging House m.d. Gonna finish my friends gift tomorrow tho, coz I had a new idea to add lol.

Oh, yesterday I did a clown makeup look:

In a few days I'll be a clown for my little cousins birthday and I'll do face paints for the kids too. I should prolly learn some party tricks tho.

I wanna do this other looks maybe, don't want kids to be scared of me as a clown 😭

I know I just posted this, but writing that made me feel so eerily calm that I got scared for a second, I hear the constant ringing of the night and quiet, the occasional chirps of crickets or other living things I probably don't know about. No music blasting in my eardrums from trying to drown everything to feel functional, just the reassuring sound of snores coming from the room next to mine, my ringlight casting a dim warm light in my room, my blanket feels just as warm it feels silly to have my heater in the room. I feel aware, and I'm loving it.

Please, angels in the four corners of my bed, don't take this feeling away.

Doing the whole alphabet, but it's just words I love:

Angelic

Bashful

Cherish

Dreamy

Effluent

Frivolous

Gentle

Heavenly

Illicit

Jammies

Knowingly

Lily

Mumbling

Nimble

Occasionally

Peony

Queerish

Rumple

Sweetness

Trivial

Unfortunately

Vivacious

Wistfully

Xenomania

Yearning

Zeal

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I believe its time for me to lock in and sign with a modelling agency asap🙏

These ones on the left were from 2023/24 I think... The ones on the right were from last month's casting I went to.

I need to be on the runway before I turn 20 😔💔

Gonna exercise rn and take a shower before bed. Tomorrow I will take new proper digitals and measurements, hopefully seeing the numbers will trigger something in my lasy ass 💀😭.

Stats I know

Height : 180cm/5'11

Weight : ≈63kgs

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Today in two words: Chess, Lucifer

White wins (I bullshited every move)

I love your blog hun it’s so pretty 🌸

Oh em gee hiiii Alice angel, you have a pretty blog yourself too, you're so kind >_< !!! 💗x