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I think I'll create soon, I feel it, I know I will because I desire to create.
The only thing that was stopping me was my close-mindedness, my habit of only thinking inside the box, and being too comfortable with the known.
That is why I have been having an art block, because the only art that I know is self-portraiture. It's what I find comfort in; it's what I'm used to, and it is second to breathing for me.
However, my lack of willingness to explore other realms in art or anything else in general makes something so dear to me feel mundane and automated. As a result, I have no desire to look forward to it.
If I tell you that you are breathing, you will, for a moment, recognize that you are, in fact, breathing and maybe even start doing it manually before you go back to normal. It's like you've become aware... And you have!
And that's definitely what I should do with art, just like how I reminded you that you are breathing, I should remind myself that I am an artist, and by doing that, I'll have someone, or rather, a different branch in art remind me who I am.
Making yourself aware that you're breathing is not the same as me doing it out of nowhere, much like how I know I'm a self portraiture artist, then I'll be like OK and? But if I tell myself I do animation or crafts or 3d art then I'll be like 'wait, but I do self portraiture don't I?' And suddenly my appreciation is back...
Does this make sense, or am I trying too hard? Or are my thoughts translating poorly into text? I might have to write a longer version of this musing for Substack.
Angel x.
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Life is unfair yall. Tell me why the power went off for LIKE 2 HOURS , my phone died, no WiFi, and it comes back on at midnight.... AND I LOST MY POST đđđđ
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Brah, nothing much today as usual, I think I can even predict tomorrow accurate I'm not even joking. I'll wake up groggy, do my skin routine, either decide to fast longer, just take tea or coffee, or make a proper breakkie for myself, which is usually oats or like eggs and wtv.
I'm prepping to do a evening stretch or perhaps workout before bed actually.
Im getting nowhere with this drawing lol. Maybe I should test out my new pencils!
The answer to the previous poll was actually the Follicular Phase. The oat cookies really threw most of you off and made you choose the Luteal Phase, but I mentioned more Follicular activities than Luteal. That's my bad. OK, I'm done; my will to do the exercise is stronger than ever!
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Today is 26th of May 2025
I just finished House M.D., and itâs got me messed up in the most beautiful way. This show didnât just entertain me, it gave me something to wake up for, something to stretch the days around. Iâd pace myself like it was a slow-burning love affair, knowing Iâd mourn the end even before I got there. And now? Yeah. Iâm in mourning.
Every episode, every character, I loved all of it. No skips. No fillers. Just layered, painful, brilliant storytelling. And that extra episode Hugh Laurie directed? It cracked open my respect for the whole damn industry. You can tell when an actor bleeds for a role, and baby, he bled for House.
This show wasnât just a distraction... it was an escape that made me feel more present than real life sometimes. Now that itâs over, I already want to rewatch it. I already miss it. But not in a ârewind the funâ kind of wayâmore like visiting an old ghost who used to hold your hand while you cried.
And yeah, it hurts knowing Iâll never get that first-time magic back. I envy new fans. I envy not knowing whatâs coming. Out of every show I couldâve chosen, I picked this one, and I stuck to it, to the bitter, bittersweet end.
I didnât think I could love 177 episodes of a limping, sarcastic, drug-addicted genius who pushes everyone away.....but I did. I do. I loved him when he was cruel, when he was right, when he was spiraling, when he tried. Every twitch of those haunted eyes told me he wanted to be saved, even if he didnât believe in salvation.
And now here I am, broken-hearted and grateful. Because if you're gonna fall for a show, fall for one that ruins you this perfectly.
Mazel Tov.
The perfect time doesn't exist, it's now or never âౚà§ËâĄË àŁȘ
If you're anything like me you've probably spent weeks, months if not years considering but not doing. The perfect time doesn't exist. Do it now or you never will.
I've seen countless videos on YouTube and TikTok titled things like "how to actually start working out from a retired lazy girl" and "how to actually start eating healthy". Just do it. It really is that simple. Find a gym near you and go. Find a fitness channel on YouTube if you don't feel comfortable going to a gym. Buy a cook book. Google recipes. Do it. Stop waiting and do it.
You could watch a thousand videos about it if you wanted to. You still wouldn't have done it. You'd have wasted hours of your life you could have put towards actually doing it though. Stop watching videos, go do it. Get up and do it.
There is no better time than the present because the present is all we really have. Tomorrow is not promised. Make today worth something.
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I NEED TO MAKE A BD GIFT FOR SOMEONE HELPđđ BIRTHDAY IS IN 3 DAYS BUT STILLLLLLL, I'M THE TYPE TO GIFT HANDMADE STUFFđđBUT I CANT FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIGURE OUT WHAT TO CREATE
Today was boring, oh but the shower I took hit different today for some reason, went out of the house in like a month, if you don't count the market visits (those are in my circle so it's no different and feels home)
I look at this pic when I feel sad and remember how it tasted.
OH EM GEE WAIT, YOU KNOW THAT GUMBALL SOUND GOING VIRAL RIGHT NOW, I KEEP LAUGHING MY AHH OFF WHEN I SEE VIDEOS USING THE SOUND
I CANT STOP LAUGHING HELP MEE đđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđ
EVEN GUMBALLS ACTUAL FACE IN THAT EPISODE TAKES ME OUT đđđ
As this new week rolls in and it's the last week of April , remember itâs okay if youâre not feeling 100% ready. Most people arenât. You donât have to wake up every day with perfect energy or a perfect plan. Some mornings youâll move fast, some mornings youâll drag yourself through , both count. What matters is that you try. This week will have its messy moments late nights, forgotten tasks, small mistakes that make you question yourself. It's normal. It happens to everyone whoâs aiming for something at the end of the week of even the day . So donât be too hard on yourself when things donât go exactly the way you pictured. Focus on doing what you can, when you can. Focus on staying honest with yourself not pretending youâre fine when youâre not, but also not giving up just because it gets uncomfortable. Progress feels boring sometimes ikr . Growth feels invisible sometimes. But if you keep moving, even in the smallest ways, you are winning. Trust that the work youâre doing, even the hard parts, is building something youâll be proud of later.
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Your Lifeâs Not BoringâYouâre Just on Your Phone Too Much
If youâve been feeling glued to your phoneâespecially apps like TikTok and Instagramâyouâre not alone. So many of us are stuck in this loop, and it can seriously mess with our energy, motivation, and overall health.
One thing Iâve struggled most with lately is comparison. Feeling like what I do just isnât... enough. If youâve felt that too, this post is for us both. A little reminder that:
âš You are enough, just as you are. âš Youâve survived every hard day, and your inner child and I are so proud of you. Don't ever forget how far you've come as a person! If all you did was make your bed and hydrate today, that's a win worth celebrating. You're doing just fine, and you'll do all that you wish to on your own divine timing.
And yes, your life isnât boring. You might just be too distracted to see how beautiful it really is. So instead of escaping it, letâs try to romanticize it!
Wake up a little earlier. It doesnât have to be 5 AM (unless thatâs your thing). Even an hour earlier can give you quiet time to get things done without distractions.
Take an "everything shower." These are pretty meditative for me in a way. I like to imagine the water washing off all my stress and stagnant energy I may have accumulated throughout the day. Like a reset button!
Make a breakfast youâd actually get out of bed early for. Pancakes? Fruit? Whatever makes your inner child happy.
Play jazz or soft instrumentals while doing everyday activities. Instant cozy vibes.
Read outside. Sitting on your porch or even by a window gives you that vitamin D and a fresh perspective.
Find a screen-less hobby you enjoy. Try crochet, painting, poetry, LEGO kits, pottery, etc. Block-building kits are my faveâtheyâre so fun and satisfying. Just remember to take breaks and stretch!
Re-watch something comforting or start something new. That show you keep skipping past might become your next obsession.
Connect. If youâve been stuck in your room all day, talk to someone. Call a friend, hug your pet, or chat with family. A quick convo with my mom always boosts my mood!
Learn something new! When was the last time you went out of your way to explore something you didnât already know? (and nope, school doesnât count.) Take a moment to find a subject youâve never looked into or dive deeper into one you already know a little about. Pick up on a new language, study an unfamiliar culture, or even try learning a random skill just for fun. Expanding your mind keeps life feeling fresh and exciting.
Travel (if you can). I can't stress this one enough!! Even just getting out of town for a single 24 hours can give you a whole new perspective. A change of scenery does wonders, especially when life feels repetitive. It doesn't have to be far, either. You can travel to the next city over and explore what it's like there!
Remember: Social media is NOT real life. That influencer whoâs always partying in Miami with a closet full of designer bags? Youâre seeing their highlight reel, not the full picture. Some even goes as far as faking luxury lifestyles for the views. Donât compare your behind-the-scenes to someone elseâs curated feed. At the end of the day, it's all for the aesthetics/entertainment.
Be gentle with yourself. You're doing better than you think, angel. xo, Kay đȘœ
I have a close friend whoâs being forced to study economics even though she hates it in another high school. Sheâs so miserable she literally wants to k!ll herself , and for what? Just because her parents think it's a "smart" career choice? This happens all the time kids pushed into STEM or business fields they have zero passion for, just to meet their parentsâ expectations.
the lesson is : Not everyone is meant to be an economist, doctor, or engineer. Killing creativity for the sake of a "stable job" only creates unhappy, burnt-out adults. A career without passion is just a slow death.
like Imagine ur dream is to become a lawyer or want to study criminology (that's my friend dream ) like fr imagine waking up every day dreading what you do, forcing yourself through a field and studying something you despise, just to end up in a job that drains the life out of you. Thatâs not success itâs suffering.People say, âYouâll thank us later.â No, she wonât. No one thanks their parents for making them miserable sorry . No one looks back and says, âWow, Iâm so glad I sacrificed my happiness for a degree I never wanted.â
But if she fails? If she breaks under the pressure? Then suddenly, itâs âWhy didnât you tell us you were struggling?â As if she didnât. As if they didnât hear her when she said she didnât want this.
this is a reminder to choose what you love not WHAT OTHER LOVES even if it's parents/friends/ teachers ...
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Update: I went to the casting but I don't think I got in. They made us walk and nothing more, no chitchat, just writ your name age and contacts, walk in front of the panel, then give the paper with the details and leave.
Well, unless you were given back the paper with a tick added to it, and then you're measured and taken pictures of Infront of everyone â and as you've probably guessed by now, I wasn't part of the latter đŹ.
I'll just send pics to agencies via dms, emails, and website applications.