How Much Did My Art Improve?

Why can't I just give up and stop visiting doctors and let myself rot until it's too late? I feel like I'm already starting to decompose, just leave me alone, so I can rot

And still, I'm curious how an appointment which I used to go to every week a few months ago, turned into something I'm afraid of. Making me have flashbacks over and over when I just hear the word "neurologist. Made me have a whole panic attack just because I need to go to a doctor. No, please, I don't want to be treated anymore... Can't you just avoid me? Don't remember about my disease? Make me live a normal life?

If you're interested in c.ai, and have some cool plot/character ideas, but can't release them for a some reason, then you can send your request on my second acc, and I'll try to do it!:)

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[REQUESTS ARE OPEN!] I make bots on c.ai On c.ai : Misoushiro I'll be glad if you leave your plots/characters ideas there!:)

people who watching my blogs or following me I luv y'all so much♡♡♡

To be honest, I feel kinda remorseful for making posts with hashtags like "disabled" and others. Why? Because thinking about my diseases constantly only worsens my mental health. I literally was about to go back to cutting or mutilating my body. Plus, I don't really think that I'm like... Disabled? Like my symptoms aren't enough to be called disabled or something... So, I think that I won't be making posts like this anymore... Or do them rarely. Hope y'all will understand. Thanks for being with me in those times. Take care of yourself.

OKAY, THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT. A question about one of my OCs. They should be trans, cuz I want so, plus this will be reasonable in the story I write. THOUGH. Should I make them transfem or transmasc? And how to write about their identity?

(TW: mention of suicide)

Maybe, it sounds a bit egoistic, maybe not, but I wanna become the legend. I understand that I have literally no qualities to be the legend, to be popular, but I still have hope on it...

You know... If I ever will commit suicide, if I'd be popular people wouldn't forget me. I'm afraid that I'll go jump off the roof when I'll have exams, so...

Huh... It's literally the first 10 pull...

People with physical health issues, what do you think about making a group of us, to support each other? We could also make some representation to spread awareness about our illnesses! Just tell me where you'll be comfortable to chat! And also, there's no matter which diagnosis you have, because we'll represent every physical health issues!

Why people can't just use it/its or they/them for me? Y'all think that you'll blow up, or what?