What a pair
John and his āestranged fiancĆ©eā Paul
nothing to see here, Stuart!
I literally cannot
no amount of meditation can protect him from their lunacy
My McLennon Theory:
Iāve seen a lot of discussions about what happened in India recently and decided to give my thoughts about the nature of what went down, as well as the aftermath.
Fully diving into solo J&P content the last 9 months, I feel like Paul has major regrets for not telling John outright āI Love Youā. Just as John expressed that he never felt loved. (May Pangās account in California of John screaming āNobody loves meā & the song āHowāā among others...)
Personally, Iām 99% certain that a romantic/ physical relationship occurred between them. Paul maintaining his āimmovable heterosexualityā could never communicate the emotional impact of what their relationship was because he couldnāt accept that he was in love with a man (cue period typical homophobia).
John would have shouted it from the rooftops if it wouldnāt have been a PR nightmare for the band.
Like so many others have speculated, everything came to a head in India. Truths were told, feelings were hurt and a fight turned into a legal dissolution of partnership (divorce). Afterwards, I think they both felt so guilty for their stubbornness and lack of sympathy for the other.
John pretending that life was good without Paul, when really he wasnāt ever as good as he was with him. The codependency of Johnās life is a completely different subject. One that I am not capable of analyzing since I am not a psychiatrist. I do feel he succumbed to the notion that heād never be as good alone as he was with Paul.
Paul however did move on. He was successful. Touring, kids, marriage etc. all those things that portrayed the image āthe best revenge is living well.ā
Then, John dies suddenly and it pains me to think that John never heard the one person he needed the most validation from, say āI Love Youā. Paul realizes this and is still living with the guilt of his indifference.
āHere Todayā is his admission of fucking up and missing the moment. Which is why AFTER John is dead, the songs Paul writes have significantly changed. Heās a man living with the biggest regret that a human can have. He couldnāt swallow his pride and accept that he did love John in a way more than āa brotherā
For that, I would never want to be Paul and what heās endured since losing John.
The dynamic of these two is so fascinating, even when I donāt try to engage in discussions on this platform, Iām always thinking of them.
How tragic it really was, the lovers that never were and the truth that wonāt ever be told.
*full disclosure: everything written has been my opinion and speculation with no ill will or contempt intended towards either party
Iām not crying youāre crying
Throwback to when the John Lennon Instagram account (probably Sean) posted this very obvious series of photos captioned by the lyrics to In My Life, making it very clear who the song is about:
CEO of Pretending Yoko Ono Never Sat on an Amp
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