i will do all i can to keep you by my side
just 'cause i know it feels right π©β¦οΈπͺ
i loove today's weather, it's cloudy - but still hot, just more bearable than usual. I went out in the backyard and it was mystical, I could smell the rain that is about to come and hear the cicadas (as always). It just gave me the will and the strength to stay out of my bedroom for a while, which isn't easy at all. I think I'm happy this way
but i'm not scared, there's nothing to lose now that i found you
she just uploaded on letterbox the film we were supposed to see togetherππ + she's been ghosting me for seven days now, leaving me without an actual answer about the time we should meet for our day out, which is this friday by the way.
I just wish I had at least a real friend, just one person that would care about me
I fucking hate her
I can't stand to live with this burden she leaves in me every single time she acts like she cares about me just enough to play with my feelings and have me only when she needs me, I can't explain it but it physically pains me and I hate herr I hate her so much
i can't do it im feeling physically sick at the thought of going back to school tomorrow i wanna throw up i can't i can't i would literally prefer to kill myself tonight
OMGGGG i never posted like this but I don't know anyone I can show my excitement to, I just won a scholarship!!!!!! I'm going away for one month this summer, I still don't know where but I worked so hard for this, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DO DESERVE THIS, I'M CRYING
after what happened this night i think tomorrow i'm either dropping out of school or killing my self.
and if you're ever tired of being known for who you know, you know, you'll always know me ππ